I don’t know if I’ve told you all this before, but when I ended up in hospital after my having a massive anxiety attack. For myself, I put it down too the “real stuff” that set my brain off. The “new age” stuff helped my brain calm down again.
I couldn’t get through my anxiety without either. The “real” or the “new age” ‘stuff’.
So when I hear my own father say that the new age stuff failed me, you don’t know me. You wouldn’t say too me if you knew what I’ve been through.
Actually, people who hate on strangers are probably more likely to have had a tragic childhood. Hate is taught. A lot of therapists, actually think that Trump (as an example) probably had some traumatic incident when he was a child. And thus, he’s been stuck at that mental child age.
It makes logical sense when you*THINK* about it. Those who are bullied, become bullies, like transphobia. Chances are, it’s more likely that people who are being transphobic, are far more likely to have had a traumatic childhood, or were raised by bigoted parents.
Common sense would dictate that trying to bully, harass and take away the rights of people who are not only strangers to you, but you don’t know any, and haven’t been harmed by that group. THAT’S not normal. Trans and gay people are definitely normal. Its just their brains are wired differently, that’s it. They’re still normal though. Whatever that is, anyway.
Put all the trigger warnings, you want. Hug all the teddy bears you want.
Trump, Johnson, all these old anti-maskers, whine about putting masks on. Say you’re not a man if you wear one.
I don’t know about you, but this whole “manly man” portrayal, who are the LEAST manly man I have ever seen. I’m over it. I don’t want another generation of alcoholic, slapping their children and wives about, where the male suicide rate is MUCH higher than women, “manly men”.
The world cannot survive another generation of Trumps, Johnsons and “manly men”.
Women know and good men know now. When you REALLY know something, you can’t go backwards.
Sure, but yeah, how dare we recognise this now and instead of just continuing with generations of alcoholism, mental health issues, and violence. Let’s just try something else now. Shall We.
So hug those teddies! Put those trigger warnings on! And make a safe space, all for you!
And never forget that it mostly WHITE and MIDDLE AGED persons, complaining about wearing masks! Whose the weak generation again? And if the young people are, who raised them again? Clue, the same people throwing and destroying store property, because they don’t wanna wear a mask to help others. But you know, they’re so … manly …
About three days after I first started to write this. There was an ad/commercial on. Just before midnight, that was saying for men TOO cry, TOO speak. Coincidence?
I was taking a few days off of Twitter last week. On the same day that I decided to come off of Twitter, my Dad was drunk and again “abusing” me. What got me laughing me though is whenever my Dad says something like “You were so spoiled growing up” “You don’t know my life”…and he always ends it with “Goodbye, until you decide to grow up, or Goodbye, until you stop being so sad”.
Now, it makes me laugh…Kind of like when my ex friends called me a horrible person, and how hellish I made their life.
It makes me laugh now, because it is all so utterly stupid.
I might actually feel sad, if my Dad had ever been there for me as a teenager, if my ex friends had ever actually been good friends. It might actually make me sad…I just don’t…For the longest time I felt guilt. Now, I just don’t.
I think what really sparked this thought in my head was when my Dad said that I was so spoiled growing up. How in the heck would he know? We were lucky if we saw him even once a month, and even then he was always “sick”. He wasn’t paying any child support, totally my mum’s choice, BUT still would complain about if he had too, she would spend all on it herself. So why would he think we were being spoiled? I mean, my brother was, it’s the reason why he’s bad with money now…But only one of us could get that extra money,lol
Give yourself a goal, every week to reward yourself. A couple of weeks ago, I started to garden. Although I probably wont see the results for a couple more weeks. I am really proud of myself. I think the spring onion and chamomile bush, are going to do well. Although I know everyone has told me that you can’t kill spinach. I think I may have…
This week, my goal is to get back into exercise. I was actually doing quiet well during Summer here. Then I lost focused, so I want to start again. I’ve been even wondering if I should just start in the home. I’ve still got all the stuff. It’s Winter here right now, so the thought of going outside for a run, or heading to gym is very off putting. Though I have never actually gone to a gym to do exercises.
The biggest reason that I’m doing it is because although I’ve been taking cholesterol tablets. Apparently my cholesterol has not shifted. It’s neither gone lower or higher. Which I’m not entirely sure that’s a great thing. So my Doctor wants me to go from 20mg to 80mg. The next couple of weeks, he wants me to take the 20mg, but twice day (becoming 40mg). When I feel there are no side affects, to then go up to 80mg.
What harm can a little exercise do?
What can you do to take care of yourself? It doesn’t even have to be anything that exciting!
We’ve been talking too ourselves and each other, about this new “norm”. We have to start doing things to make sure that these feelings and emotions, don’t stay the norm. Try to keep things as normal as we can, so when it’s all over, we don’t feel empty.
After we have a handle on knowing ourselves, that is after starting and never stopping the process of asking, listening, testing, changing and accepting, we’re ready to take the next leap and learn to like ourselves.
I have always felt like the below quote, should have stopped after. “The greatest thing you’ll ever learn is just to love”.
The best thing I think, I personally have felt with life, is to truly learn how to love. Love everything, love yourself, love the planet, love your soul, love what you have in your life at every moment. Then to be loved in return (truly loved) is just the cherry on the pie…