You don’t know me

I was taking a few days off of Twitter last week. On the same day that I decided to come off of Twitter, my Dad was drunk and again “abusing” me. What got me laughing me though is whenever my Dad says something like “You were so spoiled growing up” “You don’t know my life”…and he always ends it with “Goodbye, until you decide to grow up, or Goodbye, until you stop being so sad”.

Now, it makes me laugh…Kind of like when my ex friends called me a horrible person, and how hellish I made their life.

It makes me laugh now, because it is all so utterly stupid.

I might actually feel sad, if my Dad had ever been there for me as a teenager, if my ex friends had ever actually been good friends. It might actually make me sad…I just don’t…For the longest time I felt guilt. Now, I just don’t.

I think what really sparked this thought in my head was when my Dad said that I was so spoiled growing up. How in the heck would he know? We were lucky if we saw him even once a month, and even then he was always “sick”. He wasn’t paying any child support, totally my mum’s choice, BUT still would complain about if he had too, she would spend all on it herself. So why would he think we were being spoiled? I mean, my brother was, it’s the reason why he’s bad with money now…But only one of us could get that extra money,lol

I though, was definitely not spoiled.

It’s annoying, you know?

Yourself

Remember, to take care of yourself!

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Give yourself a goal, every week to reward yourself. A couple of weeks ago, I started to garden. Although I probably wont see the results for a couple more weeks. I am really proud of myself. I think the spring onion and chamomile bush, are going to do well. Although I know everyone has told me that you can’t kill spinach. I think I may have…

This week, my goal is to get back into exercise. I was actually doing quiet well during Summer here. Then I lost focused, so I want to start again. I’ve been even wondering if I should just start in the home. I’ve still got all the stuff. It’s Winter here right now, so the thought of going outside for a run, or heading to gym is very off putting. Though I have never actually gone to a gym to do exercises.

The biggest reason that I’m doing it is because although I’ve been taking cholesterol tablets. Apparently my cholesterol has not shifted. It’s neither gone lower or higher. Which I’m not entirely sure that’s a great thing. So my Doctor wants me to go from 20mg to 80mg. The next couple of weeks, he wants me to take the 20mg, but twice day (becoming 40mg). When I feel there are no side affects, to then go up to 80mg.

What harm can a little exercise do?

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What can you do to take care of yourself? It doesn’t even have to be anything that exciting!

Start with Yourself – Nurt Thurs

Nurture Thursday – Start with Yourself

  • If you need a good cry, you have that good cry.
  • If you need to tell somehow you feel and you don’t know how, write them a letter.
  • Sometimes even half an hour of doing what you want can make a huge difference.
  • Although completely boring to some, eating healthy can actually make you feel good. Especially if you have been doing nothing but eating badly.
  • Start each day repeatedly telling yourself something very positive.

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Nurt Thur – LOVE YOURSELF

Nurt Thur – LOVE Yourself

I have always felt like the below quote, should have stopped after. “The greatest thing you’ll ever learn is just to love”.

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The best thing I think, I personally have felt with life, is to truly learn how to love. Love everything, love yourself, love the planet, love your soul, love what you have in your life at every moment. Then to be loved in return (truly loved) is just the cherry on the pie…