19. Discuss your first love
” The greatest thing you’ll ever learn is to love and be loved, just to love and be loved”.
I was going to write about my first serious relationship. Instead of writing about where I loved, but I’m not entirely sure I was loved back. Liked, sure…But loved? Not so sure…So I want to write about my first love, where I loved and actually feel loved in return. The first time I was able to believe in love.
With all my relationships, I always know that I care, the first time I get jealous. Take my current partner, as an example. I felt so hurt by my previous “relationship”…or should I relationshit,lol…That I found it incredibly hard to trust my current partner. It was funny, because inbetween my last and my current, was the least amount of time I have spent single between a relationship. So, part of the reason I stayed with my current partner, though I was having a hard time trusting him. Was because of the instant connection and knowing it was MY issue, that he had not caused.
So the first time I became jealous. There was a really pretty girl at a party, and even I couldn’t help but stare at her. So I cried happy and insecurity tears when I noticed him staring too,lol…If I wasn’t jealous, it meant that I probably didn’t really care. The whole way back, I couldn’t stop crying and he was so worried. He said that he didn’t realise he was staring at her, I actually believed him. All my others I may have said I believed them, but, inside, I didn’t.
Okay, it’s probably not hard to guess who my first love is now,lol.