Everything happens

I actually had this thought on the Monday, but out of respect for the most recent mass shootings…I decided to change the day.

Lately, for myself, everything has been happening at the exact right time…So I’m going to start going with this. The first thing that happened was my bag zipper. It’d been working on and off and since it’s been getting closer to Winter, I need my bag to zip close. I asked my Mum for a specific bag for my birthday. No joke, the day before my birthday the zip just stopped working altogether.

Now my phone has been not working either. It just randomly wont turn on and I usually have to put it back on the charger, and then it turns back on. Today (well the Monday) I get a text from my Mum that morning, saying that we had received my new phone…My old phone stopped working and I had to leave it on the charger. It took a while for it too turn back on. I thought for sure that the phone was not going to turn back on.

Then I decided I was going to “chicken out” aka I psyched myself out of catching a bus in the morning to work rather than a taxi. There was really no excuse. My main anxiety has been with travelling, so getting back on buses has been a challenge. I came up with every single excuse under the sun on a perfectly good day to do it. (I do catch it in the afternoon/evening). The taxi ended up being really late, and then every major road we came too, people sped up to overtake us, and the just plain stopped when they went to merge! Three times, three different people, on three major corners…Three times!

Even my post from Self was posted on the Monday after I went to a Body, Mind and Physic fair where I felt completely re-centered, but I had scheduled it days before I even went or remember I was supposed to be going to the Fair.

So I’ve decided to keep going with this feeling: I AM looking into a free website, candle AND label making things. I’m doing it, I AM looking into it.

It feels like it’s coming together.

 

Goals?

So I have been reading all these posts lately about Goals and people meeting them … and I am jealous! I really feel like I’ve been “proactively” putting goals off for myself. I feel like I’m stressed out at the moment and when I get a quiet moment, I just want to do what I want…Saying that though at the end of it I have been feeling very unaccomplished … A bit less stressed, but unaccomplished…and it’s not the greatest of feelings.

For example:

  • I am nearly obsessed with these little polymer clay figurines that I buy…Why don’t I just start learning to make them myself?
  • I need to get back into reading, I’ve got all these books from the Libraries that I work at and I haven’t really read any of them.
  • Craft, I just want to start doing all the crafts.
  • I need to get around to cleaning out my room, really go through all of my stuff.
  • Money wise there isn’t really too much I can do. I’m a casual worker at both places of work, but I have been getting regular work lately.
  • I definitely need to keep up with meditating and getting my leg strong again!

So I think that I will start making goals again. No…Not think…I will!

Share Your World … Week 15

Share Your World

Share Your World – 2016 Week 15

Name one thing not many people know about you.

I never try to purposely hide any part of myself from people. I try to be as open as I can be. One thing that not many people know about myself, my father is an alcoholic, some of my closest friends don’t even know. It’s not something I am necessarily ‘ashamed’ of but trying to protect myself and all the “sympathetic” looks and the whole people thinking I might have a problem.

If a distant uncle dies and you were always his favorite and leaves you $50,000 (any currency) in his will, what would you do?

I would probably go on a nice holiday somewhere and give a couple of thousand to my mum, dad, brother and Gran. $50,000 wouldn’t really go very far these days…Unfortunately.

Where do you hide junk when people come over?

People hide their junk?hehe…If I hide something, I have some large cupboards that I usually stuff everything in.

Complete this sentence:  I want to learn more about …

I would love to learn more about Ancient cultures. I learnt about them in high school but I would love to visit and travel and see them in all of their glory.

Thorin Oakenshield

Well since I am seeing “The Hobbit: Desolation of Smaug” for the second time in Gold Class (cannot wait!) I thought it might be appropriate to talk about one of my favourite characters. I have read both the book and the, as mentioned before, this will be my second time seeing the second film…No Spoilers!lol

Thorin Oakenshield is a fictional character from J.R.R Tolkiens book “The Hobbit”. It was first released in 1937 and is the ‘prequel’ to the “Lord of the Rings” books. Thorin is one of the leading characters in “The Hobbit” and is the leader of a company of Dwarves who are planning to take back their home, the Lonely Mountain, from the Dragon Smaug. Thorins name “Oakenshield” was given to him after fighting against orcs in the Battle of Azanulbizar, with a length of oak shielding him.

Thorin is probably what you call a “Tragic Hero”. He loses a lot of immediate family and he is determined in all of his causes and is a strong and true fighter. Though no matter what successes he has, they always seem to come undone and these situations make Thorin withdrawn and seemingly cut off with only one thing on his mind. Reclaim his home and throne!

On a personal note, I always very surprised that I developed a ‘crush’ on Thorin. I normally go for the goofy character and Thorin just seems so grumpy. I think though Thorin came into my life when I was cut off from the world and was also resisting letting anyone in. Yet at the same time I became almost over protective of those who had been hurt. There was one YouTube video that I discovered when I was in a bad way that I instantly related to in terms of Thorin representing how I was feeling and the video was pretty much showing what was going on in my mind at the time. With Thorins determination and will to fight the Pale Orc, the pale orc is about 3-4 times bigger than Thorin…kind of like my ex,lol…I am also extremely stubborn,lol.

Video created by: Yotube User – Tatyana Oracle

Song/Music Credit:

Title: Heart of Courage (choir)
Album: Legend
Artist: Two Steps from Hell