I don’t know how many readers of my Blog are aware of this. I don’t get that excited at the New Year, New Year. I know it’s a New Year in terms of a new calendar year. Too me though, I feel like a “new year” really begins on our birthday.
I had the weirdest experience on the bus today going to work and I think it has a lot to do with this belief of mine. I am learning to drive at the moment, so for the time being I am still travelling by bus and may continue to do after. I don’t mind the bus really, especially when the weather is nice. That’s for another day though.
As I coming to work I was listening to Thirty Second to Mars “This is War”. Now I don’t know if you know this reader, I have a video clip for every single song on my iPod, that is not the original video clip. So there I am on the bus, thinking of the video clip I had thought to this song. When it gets to certain lyrics of the song:
I do believe in the light, raise your hands up to the sky
The fight is done, the war is won, lift your hands towards the sun
Towards the sun, (it’s the moment of truth and the moment to lie
It’s the moment to live and the moment to die, the moment to fight)
Towards the sun,
Towards the sun, (it’s the moment of truth and the moment to lie
It’s the moment to live and the moment to die, the moment to fight)
The war is won (to fight, to fight, to fight, to fight)
I nearly start blubbering like a baby on the bus, luckily I had to get off just as it was starting.
I think it had to do, before I left for work this morning. I had had being having a conversation where I admitted that no matter what my ex-friends says about me, no matter what people who have a problem with and wont talk to me. No matter what they say, no matter how long they stay friends with each other for. I genuinely believe I AM, and will always, be the better friend.
I am not miserable when my friends are happy, I am miserable when they are, it disturbs me to know “friends” are only when happy when I’m miserable. If I hear something about someone I don’t think rings true, I will ASK that person. I don’t gossip behind their backs and tag them in passive aggressive memes with no actual “burn”, because the gossip isn’t true, and I don’t just ignore them. I don’t just gossip and NEVER ask the actual person they’re talking about. We are not in High School anymore. I will ask.
There is no fight, there is no War, because I am better. I am the better person and I BELIEVE that now.
That’s the difference…I actually do BELIEVE that I am the better person.
The End.