I love to Blog

After a weekend pretty much away from Facebook, I came back too all the drama and passive aggressiveness, and the hypocritical crud too…

Sigh Facebook, when will people learn! When will people learn! I’m getting tired of the bullshit…I literally had one “friend” who I am constantly having to put up with because she’s my best friends other best friend. She’s does the ODDEST things. I try to get over it all the time and just when I think that I am, she does something else.

I think that I’m just sticking with my Blogging and Safari Drive for a while.

PassiveAggressive

 

The Sandman

Today seems like the perfect time to write about “The Sandman” mainly because we are taking care of my Aunties dog and he has developed this new little habit of crying really loudly at 5am every single morning. The night before he came here I didn’t get a good night sleep either, so I have been trying to make up for it and it’s just not happening.

Also I apologise right now if my spelling and grammar is shot to pieces, my brain is just “done in”.

The Sandman comes from the North and Central European folklore and he is supposed to bring good dream, helping you to fall asleep by sprinkling magical sand onto and into your eyes. The eye sleep that you wake up with the next morning was supposed to be proof that the Sandman has done his job.

Not this Sandman…but it’s a really good song all the same.

Published on 19 Mar 2012

Enter Sandman [Official Music Video]
From the album “Metallica”

Director: Wayne Isham
Filmed in June 1991 in Los Angeles, CA
Video Premiere Date: July 30, 1991

© 1991 Metallica

Always here too me…

I promise that I will stop posting the depressing blog posts about break ups soon, I have a slight feeling that I am feeling a little better. I have stopped talking to my ex, cold turkey. He didn’t do anything wrong I just realised that I was not moving on and so far this actually seems to be working. I was just having this random thought and at the moment I’m not really sure that I even know how to talk to my friends and family about it, mainly because I am worried if I let them know how I’m feeling, they will become worried and there’s nothing to worry about. So I guess what I’m saying any advice would be much appreciated! (Am I glad or what my ex can’t see this either!lol)

This is the first break up that I have ever had where I feel truly alone. I feel a huge part of me is missing. It took me a long time to let my guard down with my ex and when I did, I fell pretty darn quickly after that. He became such a huge part of my life in such a big way in a short amount of time and I’m not even sure any-more what he was actually feeling. He made feel the happiest and the safest that I have ever felt before and now I have the hopeless feeling that he may have never cared for me as strongly as I felt for him. I’m tired of asking him if he did care about me, because why would he say no for? He’d be too terrified to tell me anything else,lol.

In all honesty, in thirty years, I have never felt like this after a break up. Sometimes it is extremely distressing and I completely zone out and pay no attention to what is going on around me (I nearly got hit by a car the other day). Has anyone else ever gone through this? Can you give any advice on how to help me through? What are some steps that I could take to get through this.

Cheers!*

*Update* I had this post scheduled and since then I am no longer in contact with my ex in anyway and have no plans of that changing shortly, but I would still appreciate the advice!