Tired…

I am tired of “people” like Liseth…My response below…

Liseth, don’t you have a happy life or something? I’m genuinely sad for you. Transpeople, are so few, that there is no way they could EVER infringe on cis people…EVER. Men or Women…So why so much hate towards strangers, that you wont let them live? Who truly hurt you.

I am SO over and so tired, of having to fight people. Because they so unhappy with their own lives, you racists, bigots…GET YOUR OWN LIFE AND LIVE IT! I am SO tired of it, there is no NEED to be this hateful towards others.

white person

I am not ashamed to admit, I am embarrassed to be white and a cis person, right now. It is embarrassing.

I’m doing it today!

I am doing it today! I am heading to the Doctor today and I am making them (this time) give me anxiety medication! I write (this time) in brackets because I have actually been to the Doctors and at first I respected the fact that they didn’t want to put me on tablets. They suggested I do hypnotherapy and it has worked to a point.

I feel like there is absolutely no shame in it. My life has definitely stopped and I’ve had to give up more work than I’ve ever had too recently…It is literally like my mind is tired of fighting it too. I just need a little help, it’s like taking flu medication that’s all. I do wonder sometimes if having that week off that I wanted too a month or so ago would have been helpful as well though.

 

Daylight Savings = Tired

From the moment we get up these days it feels like already you’re tired…I’m tired…Let’s all just get together and go to some little Island somewhere, where we can actually enjoy the world.

The world has just becoming mentally and physically draining…Has it always been like this? I don’t remember it being it being this bad. (Also we had Daylight Savings here over the weekend) Everything is just so sad and scary!

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The Holiday Tiredness

I have really been struggling this past week to think of anything to write, I think that I am suffering from the Holiday Tiredness. By this I mean, my brain is finally getting over the Holiday festiveness at the end of the year. That my brain has just turned itself off and it just wont work…But then, that in itself, is kind of something to write about as well.

I’m not even sure if my brain is tired because I’m thinking to much as well, of the things I want to do, but have no idea where to start. Or that I’m thinking of all the ways that I could start, that it’s making my brain tired that way as well.

Ahh, the mind…What a wonderful thing it is!

Do you feel the Holiday Tiredness as well? Especially after the festivities have ended and you are trying to get back to a “routine”. Does your brain, just turn itself off? Do you have plans in place to get yourself back “in the game”? Or do you just keep going along and wait for the ‘buzz’ to come back again?

What about you?

As you can probably all imagine I am little tired this Monday morning, luckily I have no work, but you always wake up at the same time anyways. I am so tired though I cannot think at all what to write for today.

So I thought that I would ask how your weekend went, how did your weekend shape up to be? Here a few things that happened over the weekend from all over the globe:

  1. Kenya torches Worlds biggest ivory bonfire to save Elephants
  2. Barack Obama roasts Donald Trump at Correspondents dinner
  3. Indian teen shoots himself in head taking selfie with gun
  4. Survivor rescued 13 days after deadly Ecuador quake
  5. A-League Grand Final: Adelaide United beat Western Sydney Wanderers 3-1 in thriller to take first title!

 

I love to Blog

After a weekend pretty much away from Facebook, I came back too all the drama and passive aggressiveness, and the hypocritical crud too…

Sigh Facebook, when will people learn! When will people learn! I’m getting tired of the bullshit…I literally had one “friend” who I am constantly having to put up with because she’s my best friends other best friend. She’s does the ODDEST things. I try to get over it all the time and just when I think that I am, she does something else.

I think that I’m just sticking with my Blogging and Safari Drive for a while.

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The Sandman

Today seems like the perfect time to write about “The Sandman” mainly because we are taking care of my Aunties dog and he has developed this new little habit of crying really loudly at 5am every single morning. The night before he came here I didn’t get a good night sleep either, so I have been trying to make up for it and it’s just not happening.

Also I apologise right now if my spelling and grammar is shot to pieces, my brain is just “done in”.

The Sandman comes from the North and Central European folklore and he is supposed to bring good dream, helping you to fall asleep by sprinkling magical sand onto and into your eyes. The eye sleep that you wake up with the next morning was supposed to be proof that the Sandman has done his job.

Not this Sandman…but it’s a really good song all the same.

Published on 19 Mar 2012

Enter Sandman [Official Music Video]
From the album “Metallica”

Director: Wayne Isham
Filmed in June 1991 in Los Angeles, CA
Video Premiere Date: July 30, 1991

© 1991 Metallica

Always here too me…

I promise that I will stop posting the depressing blog posts about break ups soon, I have a slight feeling that I am feeling a little better. I have stopped talking to my ex, cold turkey. He didn’t do anything wrong I just realised that I was not moving on and so far this actually seems to be working. I was just having this random thought and at the moment I’m not really sure that I even know how to talk to my friends and family about it, mainly because I am worried if I let them know how I’m feeling, they will become worried and there’s nothing to worry about. So I guess what I’m saying any advice would be much appreciated! (Am I glad or what my ex can’t see this either!lol)

This is the first break up that I have ever had where I feel truly alone. I feel a huge part of me is missing. It took me a long time to let my guard down with my ex and when I did, I fell pretty darn quickly after that. He became such a huge part of my life in such a big way in a short amount of time and I’m not even sure any-more what he was actually feeling. He made feel the happiest and the safest that I have ever felt before and now I have the hopeless feeling that he may have never cared for me as strongly as I felt for him. I’m tired of asking him if he did care about me, because why would he say no for? He’d be too terrified to tell me anything else,lol.

In all honesty, in thirty years, I have never felt like this after a break up. Sometimes it is extremely distressing and I completely zone out and pay no attention to what is going on around me (I nearly got hit by a car the other day). Has anyone else ever gone through this? Can you give any advice on how to help me through? What are some steps that I could take to get through this.

Cheers!*

*Update* I had this post scheduled and since then I am no longer in contact with my ex in anyway and have no plans of that changing shortly, but I would still appreciate the advice!