We must move forward, not backward; upward, not forward; and always twirling, twirling, twirling towards freedom!

As I write this I am having a pretty sad day, so I thought that I would write something that would cheer me up a lot and that is to write about things I have to look forward too this year. Whether that be they are GOING to happen or I just WANT them to happen. Sometimes I feel like having something to look forward too. even if it’s far in the future, I always find something to look forward to cheers me up. After all, time can sneak up really fast! So I have come up with a little list of what I have to look forward to this year:

• Travelling to Melbourne and not just to see my brother for his birthday (since his birthday smack bang in the middle of Winter).
• Take some serious looking into doing a “side business” even if it’s something tiny. See, I am incredibly bad at believing in myself.
• Move in with my partner.
• Getting a job with PERMANENT hours, no more casual work.
• Do more writing…By that I don’t mean with my Blogging, I love to write Fiction stories, even if none of them get published. I have so many ideas in my head.
• Going to Sydney at some point this year.
• Instead of having a birthday party, looking into hosting a Winter Solstice party and what that might entail. They sound like fun!
• This may not be *fun* but I want to start eating healthy and doing some sort of exercise and some exercise I’ll stick with. I’m not overweight BUT since I hurt my leg a couple of year ago I have gotten lazy.

 

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Nervousness Pt2

A week or so ago I made a post called “Nervouness” and it was about a job that I was going for. A job I really wanted and I really felt that I was going to get it, I nailed it. However in a little town, the ones who are already in a job in a Library, tend to get any job they go for. Which is what happened in this situation. Even though I was constantly told I would fit in so well. I’ve had a good cry about it, but I’m tired and I feel kind of stuck. I want my life to start and it’s kind of hard when you have a job that doesn’t guarantee hours. I had no work the last two months before Christmas. Luckily I’m a good saver and I start getting Christmas presents earlier. I just do not want to be in that position anymore.

I feel kind of stuck though, I want to try and maybe do something that you can do from home, but I have NO idea what to do. There are things that I could have a go at, but I can’t do too many of them cause, you know, money. It’s another reason I’m so appreciative of my Mum and my partner. I help out where I can, but I wish I could do more! I want my life to start and be able to start comfortably. My Gran wants me to keep up with my writing and I have recently restarted doing that again. I hadn’t had a good writing session in a year and it was GLORIOUS! I have a couple of fictional stories on the go, doubt I’ll ever get them published, but never say never!

Can you tell how stuck I am feeling? What have you done, readers, when you just feel like you can’t do anything, but you just have too? You don’t just want to sit around anymore?

Bad Librarian!

I am feeling so bad! I call myself “Lolsys Library” but then I have read hardly any books this year! I was looking back at some of my older posts and I’ve been trying to read two books at the same time and it’s just not been happening for me this year.

Have you ever had moments like that? Where you’ve realised that you’re not reading and you really feel like you should. I have been trying to make other things happen this year, that I have completely neglected my reading. I have just been unable to make myself read. Which I don’t think that you should, make yourself read I mean. Otherwise I find that you just end up hating it.

I have reading block! Any suggestions how you’ve gotten yourself out of a funk? I am definitely one of those people who overthinks and then tell myself to stop thinking, but then worry I’m not thinking enough.

Yargh!

What do I do now?

So you’ve broken up with someone and you’ve gone through the whole “Why don’t they love me?” the drinking and the crying and the eating the really bad food. What next? I don’t know if anyone else has ever experienced it. There’s always a moment for me when I’ve gotten through all the bad stuff and I’m over it all. I think that’s the danger moment, when you can so easily fall back into a pattern.

We always hear about when we first break up with someone how hard it is and then how you’ll get through. What about that first moment when you realise, you are alright. Not the going to be moment, but…the moment…

It’s such a lost feeling you’ve been wrapped up in these feelings and emotions for so long and even with a short break up, a hard breakup can take a lot out of out. Yet, you’re not quite at the “I am SO over you” moment. You may not be over that person yet, but you know you’ll be alright.

7 Strange question that help you find your life purpose…

Scrawling through Facebook this morning and I see this article on my friends page and I go to read it thinking “Yeah, yeah another article telling us “What do you really love to do” and so on and so forth. I was genuinely surprised to read this article and I had so many “Wow” and Oprah lighting bulb moments reading and I just had to share this.

I’ve been so afraid to do things and I have felt like this is the year I start doing what I’ve been scared to do.

This article just almost spoke to me and made that lovely cold shiver down my spine happen. If you are feeling stuck or are at a cross roads about what you want to do, or what you think you should be doing, I highly, HIGHLY, suggest that you read this article.

7 Strange Questions That Help You Find your Life Purpose – Mark Manson

Manson, M 2014, ‘7 Strange questions that help you find your life purpose”, markmansonnet, blog,  <http://markmanson.net/life-purpose&gt; viewed 11/01/2015.