How to love

You know what I get really quick so seeing, really quickly, like a blink of my eye. Those who talk about justice, those who talk about love, respect, dignity…But then, there’s that ONE post. That automatically cancels out the rest of them.

Now I am not saying that you HAVE to love the right wing Christian Conservatives. Be as rude as you like to them, after all, if they don’t care for others lives, why would you be polite to them? But make sure you are doing it from a good place. Like every time I’m rude to a transphobe, it’s actually not that rude. Except for a fuck here or there. It’s just the truth. Now SOME people think that it’s being rude calling a bigot, a bigot. Or a snob, a snob.

For myself personally, I think, that if you can write about how everyone has “Freedom of Expression” then not delete the comments of the transphobe, which is having ACTUAL real life consequences, but delete my comments. Aren’t my “rude” comments, just another Freedom of Expression? How DARE you delete my comments, while writing and blabbering on about “Freedom of Expression”. I bet the transphobic comments are still up there too.

And quiet honestly, every time I tell a transphobic “person” or any bigot exactly how I feel about them. I am happy, and I can be happy in the knowledge that not all women are blind sheep, just ready to like “anything”. That some women out there still have strength, and the back bone to kick ASS! And to bring down the actual patriarchy, not being another female patriarchy protector. Like all the wonderful feminists out there, right now! I get mad at the bigots, because their actions and words are having REAL LIFE CONSEQUENCES. But I always feel better telling exactly how I feel about them and not running away from them, calling them out.

You can’t have Equality with just U…Hahahahaha. It’s a a Equaliweeee…Not equalimeee …. I could come up with so many of these, lol

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Nurture Thursday – Strength

Nurt Thursday – Strength

Whenever I think of “Strength” I automatically always think of Mufasa and when he says “I’m only brave when I have to be. Simba, being brave doesn’t mean you go looking for trouble”.

Strength doesn’t mean you go looking for fights. Especially if that means it’s at the detriment at your health and to the others around you.

Push!

Nurt Thursday – Push Foward

Push for the positivity,

Push for the positive thoughts,

Push, knowing that you can do it!

Push, knowing that you can overcome!

 

 

Share Your World, April Week 4, 2018

Share Your World, April 30, 2018

Do you use paper money? If so is your money organized sequentially according to denomination?

Oh my goodness, I do both of these! I still prefer using paper money, I will use “pay wave” and the like, but I feel REALLY uncomfortable doing it. Where is my information going, is it being stored?….I know…paranoia! I do also organise my money, I have to “notes” section in my wallet. One side will have $5 and $10, the other $20 and $50.

You are comfortable doing nothing? For long stretches of time?

Some might say too much so! Although I guess a lot of time reading. When it gets cooler in Summer and when Spring starts, sometimes I just like to sit outside and enjoy the water. Usually my cat or dog hangs around me and I play with them, but I’m usually just sitting.

What is your greatest strength?

I’d have to say it’s my Heart. I don’t want to sound completely up myself. It’s a little ironic really as well. My great grandparents on my Mum’s side, just dropped, their hearts gave out. My Dad has had a triple bypass. While I say my hearts my greatest strength. I don’t necessarily mean physically. I’m one of those seemingly rare people, who just because I had a bad day or a bad sleep, doesn’t mean I become a raving lunatic. I can still be there for others, no matter what I’m going through. What I have to learn is to make sure people don’t take advantage of that.

What did you appreciate or what made you smile this past week?  Feel free to use a quote, a photo, a story, or even a combination. 

I made myself smile this week. For the longest time since I’ve had these anxiety issues, I’ve really struggled getting on buses…Which since I don’t drive, it’s become very costly. I decided by myself, that I am going to reduce the number of taxis and Uber I take. The best present, I decided, to give myself, is to save some money and take another step forward in controlling my anxiety. SO I did it and I’ve already saved myself in this one week over a hundred dollars =D

Happy Mummy’s Day

So yes this a standard post that a lot of people will posting about today.

I just wanted to say that I hope all the Mothers have a great time today. By all the Mothers I mean ALL the Mothers. The Mothers, The Grand Mothers, the Aunts, the Step Mama’s, the adoptive Mama, the furbaby Mama’s, the Fosters Mums and of course all of the Mums who lost their bubbas ❤

The thing that I LOVE about the women in my family is the strength that the women in my family have. My Mum and my grandmother are probably the two people I respect and admire the most in the world. They were both the first women I knew that had left their husbands, while still loving them, but knowing it wasn’t working anymore. My Gran is so strong in her beliefs of new age which has come from her family and when we looked back at our family history, it is amazing to see the strong women I’ve had in my family. My Great Grand-Mother lost part of her leg due to polio, but it never stopped her. I actually used her walking stick a year or so ago when I developed sciatica and could barely walk.

Michelle Obama for President!

That lady is a marvel! As I said to my Mum over the weekend that woman has her stuff together! I’m not even sure why she isn’t running, maybe she doesn’t want too. I am from Australia so there might be some kind of law where a partner cannot run for the next term of Presidency. I am not sure why she can’t run, but she really should be!

The Authentic Power of Michelle Obama written by Frank Bruni for the online New York Times (Oct 15, 2016)

I admired the lady before, the work she does for underprivileged children, mainly girls, I already thought that she was a powerhouse, but lately…Phowar!

Share Your World … Week 37

Share Your World … Week 37

(I’m just warning you all, this ones a bit long!)

Have you ever owned a rock, pet rock, or gem that is not jewellery?

I don’t think that I have really ever owned a pet rock or jem that is Jewellery. I do remember once someone giving me a very pretty rock that was painted beautifully, but I never considered it to be a pet. I had a lot of plush toys, so I never really needed a rock pet, I guess?

What is your greatest strength or weakness?

Strength – A lot of people say that I am one of those people who is just there for others. I think it’s one of my strengths, sometimes I don’t even realise how weird it is how I’m there for people. One particular situation that stood out was after I broke up with an ex, there were all these girls who thought he was going to date them…And he didn’t, and they all came to me, trying to hurt me initially I guess, to get back at him? I managed to turn it around and ended up being their friend. I felt kind of bad for them really, he cheated on me with all these girls, but he also clearly made them feel like they were “the one”. He didn’t seem to really care how much he had led them on either. I helped them and I was over him before they were.

Weakness – As strong as I feel these days and I feel I can stand more on my own when it comes to my point of views and beliefs. I wish I just didn’t have so many “triggers”! There are some topics, especially on Facebook where I still get really wound up and get emotional with people and their comments, instead of just ignoring it. I recently unliked a page because of their refusal to even acknowledge, that men do in fact suffer from family and domestic violence.

What makes you feel grounded? 

Spending some times with my furbabies, they just want love really…Except for the cat, sometimes he just want food and for me to let him in and out of the house (we rent, so we can’t put in a cat flap). Other then them, I love having a shower and/or bath and listen to music that takes me away, like Enya, anything Celtic, anything “mythical”, if that is even a music genre,lol.

Would you rather never be able to eat warm food or never be able to eat cold food?

I think I would rather not eat cold food again, although a lot of salads are “cold”…Or are they more neutral? I love having hot food during Winter, it makes me feel warm on the inside, which then radiates through the rest of me. Whereas I don’t really feel like that with cold food, except for maybe ice blocks/ice cream.

The Leper

One of my ex’s got married over the weekend and on the day in question, everyone treated me like a Leper, afraid I’ll break…I don’t care that my ex got married, this particular partner was the worst person I ever dated, but taught me the most about myself and my limits. What I cared about and got upset about was that, even if I had been broken I didn’t appreciate the fact that no one was talking to me and no one was asking me if I was upset.

“The Leper”

So you got married today, not that I cared, my heart become a ghost town over you for such a long time. You taught me the biggest lessons about myself, I had to everything drop off of me before I could pick it up and reattach myself again.

You were the one that taught me the most about how now to be surprised that people will disappoint you, the ones you think you are closest too, watch them. Don’t trust someone the moment they give you a reason not too. For this I thank you because this has been my hardest lesson to learn.

It’s been a few weird years since we broke up, people I once called family I barely know now, but still continue to talk about me, like they’ve known me at all. When I don’t believe they ever even did. Half the time I wonder what I even doing there to begin with. How did I know this people? They’ve not changed at all and yet I feel like I have changed in every way possible.

I am definitely not the same person I was. I’ve gotten rid of all the boil, the scars, the rotting flesh and I am re-emerging as a new person…Possibly even a Golden Goddess?

Random Thoughts

So in 2010 I wrote this “Note” on Facebook (can’t believe it’s been that long). There’s this “app” on Facebook called TimeHop and it shows you the posts that you have made on that day over the years. I thought that I’d share with you all …

“There is strength that I admire the most.

 

It is not a physical one, it is the one that comes from within.

 

It is the strength that comes from knowing when everything else is going wrong you carry on you knowing you have people who love you, people who you know who’ll be there for you and never forgetting that.

 

There is a saying that goes something along the lines of its easy to be angry, rude and hurtful when you’re down, but there is real strength in being able to see the beauty in the world even when everything is going wrong.

 

“Anyone can give up, it’s the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that’s true strength.”

 

I see it every day in my family who go on strengthened by the people we are surrounded by.

 

For that I am truly grateful.

 

Every day I try to live in honour of those who have passed before me, and although sometimes there are days that are harder, more wearing and darker than others. I always know that I am well-loved and I am reminded that this world is a beautiful place. I am reminded that I am better than the situation, and this make me stronger. I will NEVER forget that.

 

There is one thing that those who have passed taught me to truly be yourself is the greatest challenge in life itself, to not give into what others want you to be. To stand up every day and be held accountable for your actions and words against others, whether they are good or evil.

 

I am very proud and lucky to see that those who are held close and dear to my heart ARE truly who they are. On a bad day or on a good day. No matter what others may think, no matter what others may say.

 

For that is the strength I admire the most…”

 

“I shall end this with a few quotes that have inspired me today.  

 

‘You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, ‘I lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.’ Eleanor Roosevelt

 

Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indomitable will. Mohandas Gandhi

 

Women are like teabags. We don’t know our true strength until we are in hot water! Eleanor Roosevelt

 

My attitude is that if you push me towards something that you think is a weakness, then I will turn that perceived weakness into a strength. Michael Jordan

 

Physical strength can never permanently withstand the impact of spiritual force. Franklin D. Roosevelt

 

I, with a deeper instinct, choose a man who compels my strength, who makes enormous demands on me, who does not doubt my courage or my toughness, who does not believe me naive or innocent, who has the courage to treat me like a woman. Anais Nin”

Welcome and Wanted

One of the hardest things about being in a relationship (especially a new one) is trying to ‘decipher’ and decode your partners quirks and habits. It’s probably one of the biggest messages that I can say when you are single. You NEED to find out what makes you happy, what behaviour are you willing to put up with and you NEED to stick with it.

One of the hardest lessons that I’ve learnt throughout every single relationship, and in all honesty I mean friendships and family. The hardest thing in any relationship is to feel wanted. I can honestly say that every partner that I’ve had, they never wanted to be around me. They always seemed to prefer the company of their friends, even if they were bad-mouthing those friends (which should also be a clue). Even with my “friends” I have had friends who have dumped me for other people…Hence why “friends” are in quotation marks. I no longer consider them friends.

When you are single, you think there’s this whole world that you are missing out on. I was always good at being single personally. You have to figure you out, I cannot stress this one enough. My current relationship is tough for me because I have so many insecurities, I’ve had to deal with a lot on my own in the past. I am not used for asking for help, I am more used to being upset and crying it out on my own.

Before you get into a relationship do things on your own. Reconnect with yourself. The major reason I am doing alright now is because I know that I’m fine, my current partner is not my other ex-partners, he is a whole other human being and has never given me a reason to doubt him.