January Goals

New Year! New Start! New Goals!

I don’t think that I should actually make goals for an entire year, because month by month is much easier. If I make a goal for the year, it’d be much easier for me to go “Oh I can do that next month”.

  • I would love to get away with my partner. There’s this little beach town that I love in my state and I have always wanted to stay  there overnight, it’s perfect Summer weather and a perfect Summer beach town. I just have to convince him!
  • I’m reading  a few books while I’ve got some time off before the busy season starts at my work place. See a review coming soon!
  • I want to get a few things set up before I really start back up at work. Like a meditation space etc.
  • Make lasagna…from scratch! I love it and I want do it, but I’ve never done it before!

I wish

I wish sometimes that when someone tries or makes one or a step towards a better world, people could just be grateful (*insert long sigh here*)…Just because someone doesn’t do all or find a total solution, right away. This doesn’t mean it makes it okay to degrade what they have done. Too make people aware is a good first step.

Do they have a “total solution”? No.

Are they now aware of the issue? Yes

ROME WASN’T BUILT IN A DAY…CIVIL RIGHTS TOOK MORE THAN ONE MARCH…IT TOOK NEARLY 50 YEARS FOR WOMEN TO VOTE

I made a thing =D

I actually made this last week for an Heroes and Villains party I went to last week and I decided to put an “Easter theme spin” on it.

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  1. Buy white bunny ears.
  2. Gather paintbrushes (I used a roll brush to do the majority of the painting).
  3. Gather red and black paint.
  4. Wrap cling wrap around the headband of the headband.
  5. Paint one ear black and one ear read (Try not press down to hard as paint will soak through…
  6. Wait for each ear to dry individually.
  7. Once both ears are painted and dry, unwrap cling wrap.
  8. Using a paintbrush fill in the white spots that you wish to cover up.
  9. Wait for paint to dry.
  10. Place on head =D

I made a thing! A Jelly thing =D

This year I have been really getting into cooking, I may have mentioned somewhere in a previous Blog. I can cook to “survive” but I’ve never really gotten into cooking. It’s interesting really pretty much all of the women in my family can cook, we can cook to live, but all the men in my family, they are the ones that are the creative in the kitchen.

I had seen this “glass jelly cake” all over my Facebook page and I just thought that it looked really good and it looked really easy to make. So I decided to make it.

The usual name for this “cake” is either called a “Rainbow Jelly/O Cake” or “Stained Glass Cake”.

So here are the steps (I swear that this is SO easy to make):

Step 1: Choose your flavours (I pretty much just picked any that looked good at the time, you can choose whatever you want…I am going to be getting green and red and make a Christmas one).

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Step 2: Place the jelly crystals into containers (use a different container for each colour, remembering that the length and shape of the container will determine how big the jelly squares will be)
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Step 3: Boil one (1) cup of water (most jelly packets will tell you to use two (2)cups, do not follow packet directions). The jelly squares will be more sturdy.
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Step 4: Pour the boiling *be careful* water into the containers, stir the jelly crystals until the crystals dissolve.

Step 5: Once the crystals have dissolve place the containers into the fridge and wait a few hours.

Step 6: Once you have waited a few hours, take containers out and either:

a) Cut the jelly into squares while in the containers and then placed them into a bowl/tray/case, or
b) Place Jelly into warm water for a FEW seconds and then, in one of the corners, wait for an air pocket and then it should fall out.

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Step 7: Cut up all the jelly squares and mix them up, so all colours are mixed up together evenly (this was the hardest part of the whole thing! The jelly will stick to your fingers!)

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Step 8: Fill 1/2 a cup with cold water and place two packet of clear and unflavoured gelatin in until the gelatin has “bloomed”.

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Step 9: Pour into the same bowl, 1 and 1/2 cups of boiling water and one can of sweetened condensed milk…Stir it all together and wait for it to cool.

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Step 10: Once the mixture has cooled down, then pour the mixture over the jelly squares

*Be careful of the tin that you use! I used one and didn’t realise that it was going to leak everywhere…After I took this photo I had to swap tins*

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Step 11: Place back into fridge and wait for a few hours (most people suggest overnight)

Enjoy!

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Just so you know, it will be really sweet, but really light…Very refreshing! Great for a treat when it’s warm!

What do I do now?

So you’ve broken up with someone and you’ve gone through the whole “Why don’t they love me?” the drinking and the crying and the eating the really bad food. What next? I don’t know if anyone else has ever experienced it. There’s always a moment for me when I’ve gotten through all the bad stuff and I’m over it all. I think that’s the danger moment, when you can so easily fall back into a pattern.

We always hear about when we first break up with someone how hard it is and then how you’ll get through. What about that first moment when you realise, you are alright. Not the going to be moment, but…the moment…

It’s such a lost feeling you’ve been wrapped up in these feelings and emotions for so long and even with a short break up, a hard breakup can take a lot out of out. Yet, you’re not quite at the “I am SO over you” moment. You may not be over that person yet, but you know you’ll be alright.

Changes are coming!

This is definitely feeling to be the year where I think for certain things are definitely going to happen. I already feel fussy and I know that if I don’t get to doing something soon the motivation will disappear, but the problem is…Where to start?

I already have ideas for doing some cosplays this year, but I don’t sow so I don’t even know if it’s “wrong” to get someone else to make an outfit for me. I know what I wish to do, but we’ll see if it happens. Cosplaying is not cheap at all!

There is also some motivation for this blog and maybe writing up some reviews. Now I have never done a professional type of review before, I have always just written my personal opinion, so will have to do some research into that. I have actually thought about starting to write a novel of some kind, but I really feel like you have to have a calling for that. I’m not sure what I’d write about or where to even start!

Watch this space for more, changes are happening…

Resolutions

It is no secret fact that the end of a year, any year, it makes people reflect and look back at the year and decide what they wish to improve on for the new year coming.

Last year what I did was instead of making resolutions for the year coming, I made a list of what I was going to leave behind in the past year. I actually found this was really a lot better than making promises into the future. Mainly because we don’t know what the future holds for us. So instead of promising myself that I would “lose weight” I worked on writing less emo-type posts.

I found that by making promises to myself of what I’m leaving behind, I could concentrate on that. I could work on myself and then I was able to work on things that were thrown at me in my future, things that I didn’t see coming. I have to say that personally it did work for me, so I shall be doing that again. Instead of starting new problems, I decided to work on old issues of mine so that I could leave them behind.

Here are a couple of things that I will be leaving behind in 2015:

  1. Less talking about my ex’s, so I can concentrate on my new partner
  2. Being unproductive and be more proactive on finding a job IN a Library, rather than just having a job.
  3. MORE motivation for meditation!

What are your “tricks” for the New Year? Do you make resolutions, or do you do something else instead, make a goal for the new year?

Saturday Night

SO it’s a Saturday Night here and it’s all warm and uncomfortable “Down Under”. Been trying to think of what to do, since I have the house to myself tonight.

The reason I am writing this Blog is because thinking of what has happened this week, I’ve never felt more alone and felt more like I wish that I had at least one person who lived in my country, actually would talk to me about my problems and someone I could actually rely on. Then I started to feel really down about myself.

Then I thought to myself, I shouldn’t feel sad! There is so much that I can be grateful about and SO WHAT if I’m not going out this weekend. There is absolutely nothing wrong with that, I even looked up some online dating sites. I’ve made a promise to myself. If I don’t meet someone between now and the New Years. As soon as the New Year happens I will be registering onto one of those dating sites. I’ve already seen one or two guys I actually liked the look of.

Here are some rules for surviving a single night by yourself:

  1. Do NOT watch videos, listen to songs and watch tv shows that say how horrible being single is.
  2. Buy yourself that food you can eat when no one else is around
  3. Drink all the bad things, but do not get drunk!
  4. Dress in the most comfortable clothing you own.
  5. Dance like no one is watching and turn that music up LOUD!
  6. Stay OFF of Facebook
  7. Turn off your phone (or at least keep it on vibrate).

I promise you, you follow those steps and you will have a very successful single night in =D In fact you may never want to go out ever again!

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Always here too me…

I promise that I will stop posting the depressing blog posts about break ups soon, I have a slight feeling that I am feeling a little better. I have stopped talking to my ex, cold turkey. He didn’t do anything wrong I just realised that I was not moving on and so far this actually seems to be working. I was just having this random thought and at the moment I’m not really sure that I even know how to talk to my friends and family about it, mainly because I am worried if I let them know how I’m feeling, they will become worried and there’s nothing to worry about. So I guess what I’m saying any advice would be much appreciated! (Am I glad or what my ex can’t see this either!lol)

This is the first break up that I have ever had where I feel truly alone. I feel a huge part of me is missing. It took me a long time to let my guard down with my ex and when I did, I fell pretty darn quickly after that. He became such a huge part of my life in such a big way in a short amount of time and I’m not even sure any-more what he was actually feeling. He made feel the happiest and the safest that I have ever felt before and now I have the hopeless feeling that he may have never cared for me as strongly as I felt for him. I’m tired of asking him if he did care about me, because why would he say no for? He’d be too terrified to tell me anything else,lol.

In all honesty, in thirty years, I have never felt like this after a break up. Sometimes it is extremely distressing and I completely zone out and pay no attention to what is going on around me (I nearly got hit by a car the other day). Has anyone else ever gone through this? Can you give any advice on how to help me through? What are some steps that I could take to get through this.

Cheers!*

*Update* I had this post scheduled and since then I am no longer in contact with my ex in anyway and have no plans of that changing shortly, but I would still appreciate the advice!