Nurture Thursday – Stepping Stones

Nurt Thursday – Stepping Stones

Every now and then I try to test myself. Not push myself, but test if I’m ready for the next step. Or am I ready to take back something I lost. Now this may shock, but I have not had a cup of any flavouring of coffee…Until this week. It was really warm on this day and the thought of a coffee flavoured milk shake was just too good!

I was wrong,lol.

I think they used real coffee beans or something? I was so not okay on this day. Luckily I was not working on this day, as I had to retreat to my bedroom and so some cleaning. Which may not sound that bad, but my bedroom is my safe space, when I’m not okay.

But I knew what was wrong, which made me able to get through it more easily.

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Nurt Thur – The Journey

Nurture Thursday – The Journey

A journey of a thousand miles, begins with a single step.

Lao Tzu

While it may be a cliche, it’s a cliche quote for a reason, just like every other cliche quote. Every step you take in whatever you choose, is another step forward towards where ever you are going.

 

Day by Day – Nurt Thurs

Nurture Thursday: Day By Day

(Did anyone else get that Day by Day song stuck in their heads…Or was it just me?)

Seems appropriate that this is the topic for Nurture Thursday, as this is exactly where I am at right now. It did all start with the sudden sickness of my dog, for a couple of days there it did become a literal hour by hour situation.

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Sometimes that is all you can do, it take it step by step, and that’s okay. You should never make yourself try to run when you can’t even walk. … I hope that makes sense! The rain and the over bearing heat, wont last forever.

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January Goals

New Year! New Start! New Goals!

I don’t think that I should actually make goals for an entire year, because month by month is much easier. If I make a goal for the year, it’d be much easier for me to go “Oh I can do that next month”.

  • I would love to get away with my partner. There’s this little beach town that I love in my state and I have always wanted to stay  there overnight, it’s perfect Summer weather and a perfect Summer beach town. I just have to convince him!
  • I’m reading  a few books while I’ve got some time off before the busy season starts at my work place. See a review coming soon!
  • I want to get a few things set up before I really start back up at work. Like a meditation space etc.
  • Make lasagna…from scratch! I love it and I want do it, but I’ve never done it before!

Changes are coming!

This is definitely feeling to be the year where I think for certain things are definitely going to happen. I already feel fussy and I know that if I don’t get to doing something soon the motivation will disappear, but the problem is…Where to start?

I already have ideas for doing some cosplays this year, but I don’t sow so I don’t even know if it’s “wrong” to get someone else to make an outfit for me. I know what I wish to do, but we’ll see if it happens. Cosplaying is not cheap at all!

There is also some motivation for this blog and maybe writing up some reviews. Now I have never done a professional type of review before, I have always just written my personal opinion, so will have to do some research into that. I have actually thought about starting to write a novel of some kind, but I really feel like you have to have a calling for that. I’m not sure what I’d write about or where to even start!

Watch this space for more, changes are happening…

Resolutions

It is no secret fact that the end of a year, any year, it makes people reflect and look back at the year and decide what they wish to improve on for the new year coming.

Last year what I did was instead of making resolutions for the year coming, I made a list of what I was going to leave behind in the past year. I actually found this was really a lot better than making promises into the future. Mainly because we don’t know what the future holds for us. So instead of promising myself that I would “lose weight” I worked on writing less emo-type posts.

I found that by making promises to myself of what I’m leaving behind, I could concentrate on that. I could work on myself and then I was able to work on things that were thrown at me in my future, things that I didn’t see coming. I have to say that personally it did work for me, so I shall be doing that again. Instead of starting new problems, I decided to work on old issues of mine so that I could leave them behind.

Here are a couple of things that I will be leaving behind in 2015:

  1. Less talking about my ex’s, so I can concentrate on my new partner
  2. Being unproductive and be more proactive on finding a job IN a Library, rather than just having a job.
  3. MORE motivation for meditation!

What are your “tricks” for the New Year? Do you make resolutions, or do you do something else instead, make a goal for the new year?

Always here too me…

I promise that I will stop posting the depressing blog posts about break ups soon, I have a slight feeling that I am feeling a little better. I have stopped talking to my ex, cold turkey. He didn’t do anything wrong I just realised that I was not moving on and so far this actually seems to be working. I was just having this random thought and at the moment I’m not really sure that I even know how to talk to my friends and family about it, mainly because I am worried if I let them know how I’m feeling, they will become worried and there’s nothing to worry about. So I guess what I’m saying any advice would be much appreciated! (Am I glad or what my ex can’t see this either!lol)

This is the first break up that I have ever had where I feel truly alone. I feel a huge part of me is missing. It took me a long time to let my guard down with my ex and when I did, I fell pretty darn quickly after that. He became such a huge part of my life in such a big way in a short amount of time and I’m not even sure any-more what he was actually feeling. He made feel the happiest and the safest that I have ever felt before and now I have the hopeless feeling that he may have never cared for me as strongly as I felt for him. I’m tired of asking him if he did care about me, because why would he say no for? He’d be too terrified to tell me anything else,lol.

In all honesty, in thirty years, I have never felt like this after a break up. Sometimes it is extremely distressing and I completely zone out and pay no attention to what is going on around me (I nearly got hit by a car the other day). Has anyone else ever gone through this? Can you give any advice on how to help me through? What are some steps that I could take to get through this.

Cheers!*

*Update* I had this post scheduled and since then I am no longer in contact with my ex in anyway and have no plans of that changing shortly, but I would still appreciate the advice!