The Guilt

Don’t you hate it when you know you’ve moved on, or just never cared about someone or something. However you can’t let go of the guilt that you should be more upset? Take my current situation with my ex friends for an example.

I have actually been better and feel better since they’ve been gone. I write what i want to, I do what I want too. Mainly because now I don’t have the pressure of them telling me how boring or how they don’t like what ever it is I’m doing…Which always seemed to be a lot of things!…As if what they do and watch is so spectacular!

Adam Sandler = Craptacular! #notsorryatall

WIMBLEDON IS SO BORING!!! #notsorryatall

I can talk about Lord of the Rings, I can talk about the Hobbit, I can listen to Delta Goodrem. All the meanwhile without them going “Blergh” or “OMG THAT IS SO BORING” Literally every time I said I was watching something they didn’t like…EVERY SINGLE DAMN TIME!!!!

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I have never felt so free in my life before! I swear so much now,lol.

The guilt that I can’t shake though is that I feel like I am supposed to be more sad? I’ve known them pretty much at least longer than half my life. Even though logically and when I’m honest with myself that I am so much better off without them. I have achieved so much without them already in the past 6 months. I can’t shake the guilt that I should have been more upset about it?

The first couple of months I kept waiting and waiting and waiting to fall in a heap and it just never happened.

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I pray to Music

So I was ask the question today “What music am I ashamed to admit that I like” and I gave back my honest answer “I don’t have any”. I like Marilyn Manson just as much as I enjoy Enya and I enjoy Rammstein (can’t understand a word they say) just as much as I have enjoyed songs from One Direction. I love Selena Gomez as much as I love Joan Jett.

I love what I love.

I don’t really understand this whole if you like a certain type of music there’s something wrong or right with you. To me music is about how it makes you feel, how you relate to it. I feel sometimes that I am the only one that still feels like music is about how it touches your life. If it makes you sad, glad or mad.

So when someone tells you suck for liking the music that you do, play this in your head!

Published on 18 Aug 2014

Taylor’s new release 1989 is Available Now featuring the hit single “Shake It Off” and her latest single “Blank Space”.http://www.smarturl.it/TS1989

Music video by Taylor Swift performing Shake It Off. (C) 2014 Big Machine Records, LLC.