Scaring Ourselves

Sometimes the scariest things that happen to us, is when we scare ourselves!

This can be from literally jumping out from a plane…to writing that letter/email or message that you really don’t want too, but have to write!

At the moment, it may seem really scary to vote or something, between politics and voting, things definitely feel scary. I just want to say that, if you want to mail in a vote, then hand it in. It might be the best option, apart from turning up on election day.

What is the scariest thing you’ve done? Now you don’t have to reveal all. How were you feeling, what made you finally take that plunge? Did you feel better after? Was it as scary as you thought it’d be?

You don’t know me

I was taking a few days off of Twitter last week. On the same day that I decided to come off of Twitter, my Dad was drunk and again “abusing” me. What got me laughing me though is whenever my Dad says something like “You were so spoiled growing up” “You don’t know my life”…and he always ends it with “Goodbye, until you decide to grow up, or Goodbye, until you stop being so sad”.

Now, it makes me laugh…Kind of like when my ex friends called me a horrible person, and how hellish I made their life.

It makes me laugh now, because it is all so utterly stupid.

I might actually feel sad, if my Dad had ever been there for me as a teenager, if my ex friends had ever actually been good friends. It might actually make me sad…I just don’t…For the longest time I felt guilt. Now, I just don’t.

I think what really sparked this thought in my head was when my Dad said that I was so spoiled growing up. How in the heck would he know? We were lucky if we saw him even once a month, and even then he was always “sick”. He wasn’t paying any child support, totally my mum’s choice, BUT still would complain about if he had too, she would spend all on it herself. So why would he think we were being spoiled? I mean, my brother was, it’s the reason why he’s bad with money now…But only one of us could get that extra money,lol

I though, was definitely not spoiled.

It’s annoying, you know?

Just remember

PSA

Just remember that during these unusual times, that there are people out there who want to help. There are people out there who just really don’t know that you need help. Remember, there’s no shame in asking for help.

Just remember to talk to to people, even when you’re not expected too. A simple, “Hope you’re doing well” Can perk up anyone’s day. Do it, but just remember that they may not reply, and that’s okay. Just remember to not harass them if they don’t reply.

Are you an empath?

*If you follow me on Instagram. You probably saw my post about this topic. As I wrote on the post, I wanted to write about this topic, with a little more oompfh.*

Too begin with, there are two type of empaths. There are the type that feel for others, so you see a situation and while you might not understand what they’re dealing with. You feel for them. You can feel the pain that they are feeling. You get why they’re fighting for what they’re fighting for.

The other are people who can almost actually read your mind. They are what is called an empath psychic. A lot of these types can see certain things, like, you might of heard of people who can see colours around people or auras’. We all have one certain colour that surrounds us, but empath psychic can see our colours change when we feel pain, happiness, sadness etc.

Also, for each empath, clearly there are empath’s who feel different areas more strongly than other areas. So there are people like medical empath’s, as an example.

Basically Empath’s are people who literally feel for others.

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Now, the issue I really have with people who say “I am totally an empath, because I have strong feelings so I am expert on others’ feelings”. Having strong feelings doesn’t automatically make you an empath. Narcissists, as an example, think they have strong feelings. I would never call a Narcissist an empath,lol. But I’ve known a lot of Narcissists in my life, who do call themselves empaths, because they have strong feelings.

Now, I don’t mind if you have strong feelings, we all do, we’re human after all. My issue is when you going around using a platform to use your “strong feelings” and then talk and spread your misinformation.

If your an empath and you’re using your platform to say “Don’t make me feeling guilty if I need a break from BLM, because I need a mental break” and then continue to complain, about how people are making you feel guilty. Now Empath’s, like myself, do feel guilty if we need to take a mental health day, because we KNOW that we haven’t had to deal with the racism for hundreds if not thousands of years. If you’re only getting involved with BLM NOW, you’ve literally been dealing with it for about a month,lol. Not hundreds of years, so yeah, to complain that people make you feel guilty for needing a day off, is kind of ridiculous and not empathetic.

An empath, by the way, has been feeling BLM, before BLM, became a “thing.”

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Empath’s, At the same time, are aware that we can still do something even when we need a “day off”. You can do things that don’t require you to go on social media, that don’t require you to go out and protest. Buy or go to your local library and grab that POC author book, you may have not read before. Get old clothes together, to give to charity. Old toys to give to vulnerable children. Make some home cooking for your elderly neighbour. Write a well written letter to your Representative, that peaceful protesters are being arrested for BLM marches, ignoring their 1A RIGHTS to peacefully protest. While white people with guns, hang effigies of their local representative…were not. See, you don’t NEED to go onto social media, at all.

An empath, already knew this. So chances are, you’re not an empath.

It’s perfectly fine to not be an empath, it’s not like it makes you insensitive to people, it doesn’t. You still have feelings, just empaths tend to have stronger feelings for OTHERS, not just strong feelings in general. But please, do not go saying you are one, spreading misinformation so you can be part of a “fad”. That’s what you’d be doing.

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Nurture Thursday – YOU!

Nurture Thursday – YOU!

I have been fighting with myself something shocking lately. Mainly do I go and fight for others, do I go and give myself a night off. Do I pretend everything is good today, do I go and argue with those bigots. Do I explain a side of myself, do I keep it private? Me, Me, Me…Beautiful Me. Do I bake, do I just heat up, do I wash my hair, colour in, read? It’s tiring to think what one should do.

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Basic Beautiful Me…Hahahahaha

We need to get over ourselves…

Well not me, I’m perfect…lol.

  • “Christians” who refuse to wear a mask, because they think it makes them look foolish. While stating it’s their “right” to not wear a mask. Completely ignoring OTHER HUMAN BEINGS RIGHT TO LIVE. That’s not Christian, that’s the Devil, dears.
  • People who want to “save” the human race, but wont wear masks. Then talk about “family bonding”.
  • People who constantly ask ME, why my BROTHER doesn’t call them. If it bothers you that much, ASK HIM…Maybe the fact that you’re asking a completely different person why a completely different person does what they do, might be a clue there?
  • Stop asking me if it bothers me that he doesn’t ring people. I am clearly not bothered, by the fact that I am not the one complaining about it and saying “that’s just who he is”.
  • If I didn’t ring you, I am not required to give you split second answer to every question you have. I DIDN’T RING YOU!
  • I am not required by any rule or law, to hang out with people, that YOU don’t even like, just because their “family”.
  • WEAR A MASK!

30 Day writing challenge … Day 26

26. Write about an area in your life that you would like to improve on.

I would like to be able to motivate myself more. I don’t know how many of you read my other30 Day writing challenge Day 17.

That was about my Zodiac sign, and how much of it can I relate. Well stubbornness is probably the biggest way I can relate to being a Taurus. When you’re not motivated to do something and you are STUBBORN as…It can be hard to get over that hump. We’re not talking about your every day procrastination, I’m talking about PROCRASTINATION…

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I stop myself from SO much, because I genuinely don’t want to do, if it’s a task I’m doing, because of work or homework. Or that I really scary myself or don’t believe in myself enough to push myself. I am like the Bull, stop and stood still.

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Yourself

Remember, to take care of yourself!

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Give yourself a goal, every week to reward yourself. A couple of weeks ago, I started to garden. Although I probably wont see the results for a couple more weeks. I am really proud of myself. I think the spring onion and chamomile bush, are going to do well. Although I know everyone has told me that you can’t kill spinach. I think I may have…

This week, my goal is to get back into exercise. I was actually doing quiet well during Summer here. Then I lost focused, so I want to start again. I’ve been even wondering if I should just start in the home. I’ve still got all the stuff. It’s Winter here right now, so the thought of going outside for a run, or heading to gym is very off putting. Though I have never actually gone to a gym to do exercises.

The biggest reason that I’m doing it is because although I’ve been taking cholesterol tablets. Apparently my cholesterol has not shifted. It’s neither gone lower or higher. Which I’m not entirely sure that’s a great thing. So my Doctor wants me to go from 20mg to 80mg. The next couple of weeks, he wants me to take the 20mg, but twice day (becoming 40mg). When I feel there are no side affects, to then go up to 80mg.

What harm can a little exercise do?

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What can you do to take care of yourself? It doesn’t even have to be anything that exciting!

30 Day writing challenge … Day 18

18. Post 30 facts about yourself

  1. I’m pretty open on here really. I don’t really hide that much on here, and I don’t think that I’m that interesting to be honest,lol. I am a basic biotch.
  2. The word biotch is the only thing I’ve kept from my time of liking Khloe Kardashian.
  3. I have liked all the Kardashians/Jenners at some point…All, but never Kim. Also, I don’t like any of them anymore…Except for Scott, funnily enough. I really like him. He’s a character. He should has his own show, but I don’t think he could handle it.
  4. I wish I was more confident with my body. I would like to do a boudoir picture for my picture for my partner…But I would just start laughing.
  5. Even though I’ve been told in the past, that I’m annoyingly sexy. I have never felt sexy, as a person.Cute, but never sexy,lol…By annoyingly, they meant, because I don’t even realise how sexy I am,lol.
  6. When I take a good selfie of myself, there are probably about 10 more after and/or before where I make stupid faces purposely…and sometimes I keep them!lol
  7. I annoy myself, because I would love to be a vegan…But just can’t make myself.
  8. I can’t eat anything that has eyes on it still (so like prawns/shrimps. Those spit roasts).
  9. I actually REALLY like vegan food. I just don’t like it being shoved down my throat.
  10. I used to play the piano, but my brother actually played it well.
  11. I think The Golden Girls may be the best tv show ever!
  12. Then Death in Paradise and Poirot
  13. I love running my own Discord channel…*hint hint* There’s not a lot of people on it, but it’s been a lot of fun! I love having the responsibility of having to come up with ideas to talk about. It keeps me distracted. Thinking about other things, other than the harshest of life.
  14. I think Kim Jong Un was in a coma
  15. I think I’m allergic to calamari, but I don’t want to find out. So I can still eat it.
  16. I wish, a lot, that I looked like Liv Tyler.
  17. I prefer action movies over romantic ones.
  18. I had never heard the song “We’ll meet again”until I went to my Poppa’s funeral, a bit over 10 years ago now.
  19. I have really enjoyed the live action movies. Not better than the animated ones, but still really enjoyed them.
  20. I love plushies, after Pippy, they are the best to hug! They don’t complain like my partner and cat,lol
  21. If I won a big lottery, I would probably have a room full of plushies, and Charlie Bears,lol.
  22. I would LOVE to swim with whales.
  23. And stay with a pride (if I wouldn’t get eaten, which I probably would).
  24. I wish mythical beasts exist. It’d make life more interesting! Like your Loch Ness, Bigfoot. I know they don’t exist, but I wish they did,lol
  25. When I went to the UK to visit family, I didn’t think and my great uncle didn’t think to get a picture of me. But apparently when he saw me, he said he knew because I looked exactly like his sister…My gran,lol.
  26. Sometimes I really think I would be okay with having just furbabies over human babies.
  27. I am terrified of not having children.
  28. But I am also terrified of being pregnant.
  29. I really enjoy playing Planet Zoo, but I have no idea what I’m doing to be honest,lol.
  30. I hate wearing bottoms, except for tracksuit pants.