Beyond Blue

This week I had a bit of a scare…when I say ‘scare’ I mean it has been a scare about my mortality and I wont know for roughly a year about the outcome. This week has therefore been an extremely traumatic and thoughtful one. It has made me question a lot about what am I doing here, I had a breakdown over seeing a child singing…One of those types of week.

I have always believed that I suffer from a low depression, meaning that I do suffer from it but it doesn’t affect my life as badly as some of my other friends. It does help that I have learnt about my triggers and also have learnt tools to help me cope better. There are a lot of people in my life who suffer depression from extreme (physically debilitating) to the mild type I have.

One of the most well -known industries in Australia are called “Beyond Blue”, they are an industry that help people cope with Depression and Anxiety. They give advice, get you in contact with professional health experts and recommend treatments for people and genders of all ages.

If you are suffering from depression/anxiety or know someone who is, please click the link below:

http://www.beyondblue.org.au/

 

Never send in a boy to do a mans job…

This week has been pretty up and down for me. I was doing really well, had a amazing birthday party, had a amazing birthday. Then for some reason the rest of the week it’s been coming down and I have been at a complete lost as to what to do or who to talk too. I tried talking to some friends about it, but then one of them hijacked the conversation to talk about themselves…again. I do not open up very easily and when they did it, it shut me down again.

So as you can probably guess by the title…I have guy issues and I have no idea how I keep ending up in them! I have taken myself off of Facebook for a while to figure myself out and figure out how to take my next step. Now I am taking time to ask my male friends what I should look for in a guy who really likes me versus a guy that just wants one thing and doesn’t actually care. Every time I meet these guys, the first time it is so much fun and I don’t necessarily want to date them, but it is nice to have someone to have fun…and then it always just goes downhill from there and yet their friends always adore me! So I always end up stuck between needing to be civil to stay friends with the other friends and wanting to kick them in male special region!

It’ll be kind of like an emotional holiday.

Sometimes I wish these guys would just hug me and say there is nothing wrong with you. When I ask them why they are doing what they are doing, they either say absolutely nothing or “I don’t know how to respond”. I feel like it’s the most frustrating thing ever! I want answers as to what I may be doing wrong, but am getting nowhere. As a lot of my friends have pointed out to me though a “Man” would never want a girl who does nothing else but taking selfies and talks about being drunk, getting drunk or thinking somehow being sober is some major achievement. I don’t blame men…I just seem to have a terrible time picking out good ones. It is me.

I want to be in love again, I don’t want to live in fear any-more ‚̧ Thank you for listening!

dancing

Good Girls gone…Well they were always simply…Bad

This Friday I had a particularly rough day. One of those days where you cannot understand how people can be so thoughtless and can they not see how much they are betraying you. ¬†Sometimes I wonder if there is even room to be a good girl any-more in this ‘modern’ world? One of those times where you could easily take that cookie and give in.

All day I was really struggling to find something to make myself feel better. For the last couple of years I have really been struggling to get my self-esteem to where it was before I was 21. So as I mucked up about Google and I found this image, probably one of the most popular images I’ve seen around lately.

Anyone for a joyful game of Cards?

It made me think, I wonder if these ladies had just been hurt so badly that they saw no other way to be. They needed to protect themselves or had the world just made them feel so bad about themselves. Should I feel sorry for them? Were they simply understood and trying the best they could to heal a broken…Witch.

So this weeks edition of Magic Monday is dedicated to those poor unfortunate souls. This video is amazing! Please watch it, especially if you are feeling like you need to bring out your inner Villainess. It will make you feel a lot better, promise!

Song: Cell Block Tango
Soundtrack “Chicago” 2002
YouTube user: Luca Tanganelli

Listen to your Heart…You are all beautiful to me…

I’ve been discouraged lately…I keep seeing these posts saying things along the lines of “If you she’s really pretty and all the guys want her, she’s obviously a keeper” and people mentioning things of “He is so ugly, why would he think I’d date him”. The other thing that shocks me is the amount of people who will like or agree with these statements.

I have never understood thinking like this. When you really love someone, really care about them, looks has literally nothing to do with it. (I told them so as well) My boyfriends have all been completely different, look wise. In fact the “prettiest” of the bunch turned out to be the most cruel, cold hearted and unkind. Funnily enough I thought I saw him a couple of weeks ago but then I thought “Oh he’d never let himself go like that”. That particular ex use to have a go at me for my looks as well.

One thing in life I can guarantee is that looks have literally nothing to do with someone’s heart or their true beliefs. Don’t even think about it. If you are going around posting and saying things about how someone is pretty and all the guy wants her so she must be keeper. You don’t deserve her. I have stopped complaining about being hit on all the time and the main reasons I have stopped looking for someone. I started to realise that a large majority of the guys who would privately say that I’m the most beautiful girl they know and I’m the one for them. Didn’t actually know a single thing about me and when they realised that I was not just a pretty girl. I have a mind, ambitions, beliefs and I will stand by them, they didn’t like me so much any-more.

So now I make sure I take time to get to know someone and I take note if they are listening to what I am saying. 90% of the time…they don’t,lol.

DHT ft. Edmee – Listen To Your Heart
2004
Robbins Entertainment