I write about “Sometimes” a lot, just some things that I wish people would be “smarter” about.
Watching #IstandwithGrahamNorton was such a sad hashtag. Graham Norton said probably the least controversial thing. That to understands trans people, speak with them and not cis celebrities. For this he was accused by Rowling for endorsing rape and death threats. As well as Graham Norton being run off Twitter.
Uncle Jack, was given a state funeral yesterday. Too be honest with you all, I was more upset about him than the Queen. I just happened to find out that he got a state funeral through a news article on my computer. The comments on there broke my heart and made me feel ashamed to be Australian. Uncle Jack was an aboriginal child taken when he was a child, aka the Stolen Generation, and you know what? He got into trouble. But he was not as one person suggested, the same as Ivan Milat. Australia’s most prolific serial killer. I don’t know which comment was dumber. All these dumb asses, complaining, because he’d been in jail. As I pointed out in one comment, and the only comment I made on there. This man was taken from his family as a child, of course he screwed up a little, but at LEAST he isn’t whining about a man’s funeral! There skin is SO thin that their whiny about a man’s funeral.
Have you ever had a day where you just one moment, you’re just up and then you’re down, and then you’re up and down and shake it all about.
When I woke up yesterday morning, I was looking at the fashions of the VMA awards, enjoying them and then “bop” Depp made an appearance and said something like “I’m available for parties, barbecues” blah blah…Ewwwwwwwwwwww, that’s what a bunch of young people want. A creepy old man who wants to have sex with corpses and put out naked pictures of his now ex-wife” hovering above them. Looking for his new girlfriend. Honestly, I think America is just a different planet. But then again, maybe the young girls of America don’t even like him. It could just be the media.
Then I became sad again, as you might see above why. When Lynette Dawson “disappeared” she “left behind two young daughters. Who would probably be about 40ish now. So for a moment, I wanted to cry at work when I found out, but then I wanted to cry for different reasons after I thought about it.
Then I went up again and DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMNNNNN Taylor Swift, I love your burns. You know if I was an artist, I would probably do all the little Easter eggs and subtle hints as well. I am so happy for her! For YEARS West AND the Kardashians hounded that girl, and for what? Because HE made himself look a total moron.
Well I clearly and blatantly ripped that title off =P I started to write this post while having a drinky drinky night with a friend and how certain songs just bring out an emotion in us and no matter where you are, or how you are feeling, at the sound of that first note, you will instantly be triggered.
Below I have created a list of certain situations, that probably we’ve all found ourselves in at some point, but these are the songs that just trigger that emotion for me. The links are all to YouTube
Over the last month or so I have been working in a different location, but doing the same job and after next week everything changes! I go back to my usual work location and I have my new dream job training. I am still really sad though to be leaving where I’ve been working, my coworkers were lovely and I’ll miss the students cooking. Plus the work was regular and set days, instead of wondering week to week what, or if I’ll even get a shift.
I am going to have to go with a resounding “YES”, in fact it was the classic book I was writing about last week (This or That #70) Ruth Park’s “Playing Beatie Bow” that was probably one of the first books that ever made me cry.
I’m not honestly sure how much I can write about why it made me cry, without giving big plot details. I guess the best I can say is that there is a lot of learning in the book. A lot of learning to appreciate the past and the present, a lot of appreciation for who you have in your life.
I am not one of those people who this statement can easily come too. I’ve just had a lot of people in my life who were close to me put me down, so that makes it hard to think I’m awesome…and sound humble at the same time,lol.
There’s a quote by Robin Williams (at least there’s a lot of pictures on the internet saying that it’s his saying) ”
“I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy because they know what it’s like to feel absolutely worthless and they don’t want anyone else to feel like that.”
I think that’s why I’m awesome, life is hard enough and why should I contribute to making people’s lives any harder? I try to be everybody’s friends (as long as doesn’t endanger myself or others). People ask me a lot “Why are you so nice?” It’s because I don’t understand why I should mean? Unless someone deserves me to be angry with them, I don’t find it necessary to be nasty with me. I’ve met girls who are mean just because they “feel” like it and what perplexes me even more if guys who are obsessed with them. As nice as I am, I can honestly say that I am no ones monkey!
So we are supposed to tag people in this, so please don’t feel like you have to do this and if you want to just do it. Feel free!
“I came up with a new way of doing Share Your World for this Week. Begin making four lists and have at least four items on each list. You can chose your lists out of the ones I have listed below. Have fun.
1. “Uptown Funk” Mark Ronson, Bruno Mars…Not matter what, I stop, listen and dance =D
2. “Wishing you were somehow here again” Phantom of the Opera…Not a happy song, but it reminds me of a couple of people close to me who have passed and it makes me cry.
3. Anything Celtic, I just love the sounds. There has never been a celtic song that I’ve heard that I hate, the sound is beautiful!
4. “Heart of Courage” Two Steps from Hell…It’s a really short song, but will fire you up!
Favorite types of animals
1. Lions (they have always been a top favourite of mine).
2. Elephants, since watching the safari drives I have this whole new love for them. They are the cutest!
4. Dragons! They’re real animals, right?
Fun things for a rainy day
1. I LOVE to read
2. I love playing my computer and catching up on them, or learning new ones.
3. Sometimes I’ll do spring cleaning on these days.
4. Sitting in bed and watching movies and having movie marathons.
Things I want to have in my home (paintings, hot tubs, book cases, big screen tv etc)
1. I still want one more shelf that can fit even more of my books, but some of my figurines too!
2. I need a lamp in my room,lol
3. I want a whole room dedicated to reading and where I can write my Blog, an office type thing
4. For my dining room area, I would love to have a huge glass window outdoor area, that is connected from the inside to the outside. I have seen beautiful dining rooms that can walk out onto the patio like it’s one big dining area. Just beautiful!
Bonus question: What are you grateful for from last week, and what are you looking forward to in the week coming up?
SO it’s a Saturday Night here and it’s all warm and uncomfortable “Down Under”. Been trying to think of what to do, since I have the house to myself tonight.
The reason I am writing this Blog is because thinking of what has happened this week, I’ve never felt more alone and felt more like I wish that I had at least one person who lived in my country, actually would talk to me about my problems and someone I could actually rely on. Then I started to feel really down about myself.
Then I thought to myself, I shouldn’t feel sad! There is so much that I can be grateful about and SO WHAT if I’m not going out this weekend. There is absolutely nothing wrong with that, I even looked up some online dating sites. I’ve made a promise to myself. If I don’t meet someone between now and the New Years. As soon as the New Year happens I will be registering onto one of those dating sites. I’ve already seen one or two guys I actually liked the look of.
Here are some rules for surviving a single night by yourself:
Do NOT watch videos, listen to songs and watch tv shows that say how horrible being single is.
Buy yourself that food you can eat when no one else is around
Drink all the bad things, but do not get drunk!
Dress in the most comfortable clothing you own.
Dance like no one is watching and turn that music up LOUD!
Stay OFF of Facebook
Turn off your phone (or at least keep it on vibrate).
I promise you, you follow those steps and you will have a very successful single night in =D In fact you may never want to go out ever again!
Uploaded on 24 Oct 2009
Cyndi Lauper – Girls Just Want To Have Fun (Official Video)
Music video by Cyndi Lauper performing Girls Just Want To Have Fun. (C) 1983 Sony BMG Music Entertainment
If you could read mind right now this is what you’d hear…
You see…the thing is…I am finding my life incredibly fun these days, there is always something to do and someone that I can see…Every now and then I can’t help but think that it seems so unfair that you’re not here with me having this fun…But then again you are the one that made all of this happen.
It should be me and you taking on the world, making it ours, we completely deserve it!
But my life is a lot of fun right now and I don’t think of nearly as much as I use to and the nightmares have stopped, well for the past week at least. Music is really making me angry for some reason though.
I can’t wait to fall in love again, I guess that’s one thing I can take from this. You did open up my heart to make sure that I knew that it was really there, so I thank you for that. I can’t wait too meet the one and experience all that life has to offer when you fall in love…But…it should have been you.
Some days I literally have to sit on my hands, or “gasp” do homework to distract myself from contacting you. I promised you that you never had to worry about hearing from me again. Why were you so stupid? Why couldn’t you have just said “I’m sorry…I never meant any of this too happen and I never meant to hurt you”. We only knew each other a short time, but there is a dark hole in my heart that I can’t fill up with anything else. That little hole just hiding there, I can feel just the tip of the beginning of that hole at all times.
I am off to have fun again and I will, it’s not meant to sound mean, but I don’t feel like I should have to be sad. I love you always (you never knew that either, did you?) I would have married you without hesitation if you had asked and I’ve never felt like that before…The thing is, you’ll never know any of this. I’m kind of glad about that, I wouldn’t want anyone to take that for weakness, I don’t want you back now.
Shoulda, Woulda, Coulda…The thing is…It’s not you.