Have you ever had a day where you just one moment, you’re just up and then you’re down, and then you’re up and down and shake it all about.
When I woke up yesterday morning, I was looking at the fashions of the VMA awards, enjoying them and then “bop” Depp made an appearance and said something like “I’m available for parties, barbecues” blah blah…Ewwwwwwwwwwww, that’s what a bunch of young people want. A creepy old man who wants to have sex with corpses and put out naked pictures of his now ex-wife” hovering above them. Looking for his new girlfriend. Honestly, I think America is just a different planet. But then again, maybe the young girls of America don’t even like him. It could just be the media.
But then the best news came in…
Chris Dawson found guilty of murdering ex-wife Lynette in The Teacher’s Pet trial: as it happened
Then I became sad again, as you might see above why. When Lynette Dawson “disappeared” she “left behind two young daughters. Who would probably be about 40ish now. So for a moment, I wanted to cry at work when I found out, but then I wanted to cry for different reasons after I thought about it.
Then I went up again and DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMNNNNN Taylor Swift, I love your burns. You know if I was an artist, I would probably do all the little Easter eggs and subtle hints as well. I am so happy for her! For YEARS West AND the Kardashians hounded that girl, and for what? Because HE made himself look a total moron.
Taylor Swift fans believe her MTV VMAs look was a reference to infamous Kanye West feud
Well I clearly and blatantly ripped that title off =P I started to write this post while having a drinky drinky night with a friend and how certain songs just bring out an emotion in us and no matter where you are, or how you are feeling, at the sound of that first note, you will instantly be triggered.
Below I have created a list of certain situations, that probably we’ve all found ourselves in at some point, but these are the songs that just trigger that emotion for me. The links are all to YouTube
Within Temptation: Angels
- Those who are in my heart and have passed: (especially for my Great GrandFather)
Wishing you were somewhere again – Phantom of the Opera
- That day I become stronger than what my ex partners did:
Titanium – David Guetta (Madilyn Bailey version)
- The ex partner that is messed up on in the inside, so you can’t hate them:
Better Than Me – Hinder
- When I first start falling in love … Nawwwwwwwww
Your Guardian Angel – Red Jumpsuit Apparatus … Sometimes I sing this to my pets,lol
- The song I can’t even listen to when my heart breaks:
I can’t break it to my heart – Delta Goodrem
- When I start to heal again:
Dancing with a Broken Heart – Delta Goodrem
Get Sexy – Sugababes … I will strut,lol
Enough – Delta Goodrem ft Gizzle
Over the last month or so I have been working in a different location, but doing the same job and after next week everything changes! I go back to my usual work location and I have my new dream job training. I am still really sad though to be leaving where I’ve been working, my coworkers were lovely and I’ll miss the students cooking. Plus the work was regular and set days, instead of wondering week to week what, or if I’ll even get a shift.
There is comfort in regularity.
This or That? #71
This week Bookmark Chronicles would like to know:
Has a book ever made you cry?
I am going to have to go with a resounding “YES”, in fact it was the classic book I was writing about last week (This or That #70) Ruth Park’s “Playing Beatie Bow” that was probably one of the first books that ever made me cry.
I’m not honestly sure how much I can write about why it made me cry, without giving big plot details. I guess the best I can say is that there is a lot of learning in the book. A lot of learning to appreciate the past and the present, a lot of appreciation for who you have in your life.
So I was nominated by the AWESOME Bookmark Chronicles for the Especially Awesome Award (found here:https://bookmarkchronicles.wordpress.com/2016/01/19/epically-awesome-award/)
- Explain why you’re awesome (simple enough)
I am not one of those people who this statement can easily come too. I’ve just had a lot of people in my life who were close to me put me down, so that makes it hard to think I’m awesome…and sound humble at the same time,lol.
There’s a quote by Robin Williams (at least there’s a lot of pictures on the internet saying that it’s his saying) ”
“I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy because they know what it’s like to feel absolutely worthless and they don’t want anyone else to feel like that.”
I think that’s why I’m awesome, life is hard enough and why should I contribute to making people’s lives any harder? I try to be everybody’s friends (as long as doesn’t endanger myself or others). People ask me a lot “Why are you so nice?” It’s because I don’t understand why I should mean? Unless someone deserves me to be angry with them, I don’t find it necessary to be nasty with me. I’ve met girls who are mean just because they “feel” like it and what perplexes me even more if guys who are obsessed with them. As nice as I am, I can honestly say that I am no ones monkey!
So we are supposed to tag people in this, so please don’t feel like you have to do this and if you want to just do it. Feel free!
SO it’s a Saturday Night here and it’s all warm and uncomfortable “Down Under”. Been trying to think of what to do, since I have the house to myself tonight.
The reason I am writing this Blog is because thinking of what has happened this week, I’ve never felt more alone and felt more like I wish that I had at least one person who lived in my country, actually would talk to me about my problems and someone I could actually rely on. Then I started to feel really down about myself.
Then I thought to myself, I shouldn’t feel sad! There is so much that I can be grateful about and SO WHAT if I’m not going out this weekend. There is absolutely nothing wrong with that, I even looked up some online dating sites. I’ve made a promise to myself. If I don’t meet someone between now and the New Years. As soon as the New Year happens I will be registering onto one of those dating sites. I’ve already seen one or two guys I actually liked the look of.
Here are some rules for surviving a single night by yourself:
- Do NOT watch videos, listen to songs and watch tv shows that say how horrible being single is.
- Buy yourself that food you can eat when no one else is around
- Drink all the bad things, but do not get drunk!
- Dress in the most comfortable clothing you own.
- Dance like no one is watching and turn that music up LOUD!
- Stay OFF of Facebook
- Turn off your phone (or at least keep it on vibrate).
I promise you, you follow those steps and you will have a very successful single night in =D In fact you may never want to go out ever again!
Uploaded on 24 Oct 2009
Cyndi Lauper – Girls Just Want To Have Fun (Official Video)
Music video by Cyndi Lauper performing Girls Just Want To Have Fun. (C) 1983 Sony BMG Music Entertainment
If you could read mind right now this is what you’d hear…
You see…the thing is…I am finding my life incredibly fun these days, there is always something to do and someone that I can see…Every now and then I can’t help but think that it seems so unfair that you’re not here with me having this fun…But then again you are the one that made all of this happen.
It should be me and you taking on the world, making it ours, we completely deserve it!
But my life is a lot of fun right now and I don’t think of nearly as much as I use to and the nightmares have stopped, well for the past week at least. Music is really making me angry for some reason though.
I can’t wait to fall in love again, I guess that’s one thing I can take from this. You did open up my heart to make sure that I knew that it was really there, so I thank you for that. I can’t wait too meet the one and experience all that life has to offer when you fall in love…But…it should have been you.
Some days I literally have to sit on my hands, or “gasp” do homework to distract myself from contacting you. I promised you that you never had to worry about hearing from me again. Why were you so stupid? Why couldn’t you have just said “I’m sorry…I never meant any of this too happen and I never meant to hurt you”. We only knew each other a short time, but there is a dark hole in my heart that I can’t fill up with anything else. That little hole just hiding there, I can feel just the tip of the beginning of that hole at all times.
I am off to have fun again and I will, it’s not meant to sound mean, but I don’t feel like I should have to be sad. I love you always (you never knew that either, did you?) I would have married you without hesitation if you had asked and I’ve never felt like that before…The thing is, you’ll never know any of this. I’m kind of glad about that, I wouldn’t want anyone to take that for weakness, I don’t want you back now.
Shoulda, Woulda, Coulda…The thing is…It’s not you.
Originally I was going to take a ‘hiatus’ from all types of social networking sites (except for this Sea Eagle webcam that I am now watching in replacement of the little Baby O’s). However I happened to peer over the shoulder over a friends computer while they were reading some news on the computer and saw the extremely sad news =( At first I thought he had died from a heart attack, but now it appears that it looks like a suicide.
I think this is one of the genuine times that I feel really upset about hearing of a “celebrities” death. I absolutely LOVED Robin Williams, he always had me cracking up…or in some cases, really freaking me out and making me cry.
‘Lightning storm of comedy’ Robin Williams dies of apparent suicide” “The Australian 2014”.
Robin Williams just had this amazing ability to take any situations and just make you laugh till your tummy and cheeks hurt and the tears rolling down your face and you have to walk out of the room because you cannot breath any-more…Can’t forget his dramatic pieces of work either! That man had so many facets and was extremely talented. I always thought that there was a bit of sadness, but it was always hard to see between the laughing. There was always just something in the background, but it’s one of things that you notice if you’re watching his stuff over and over again. I think he needed the hyperactivity to keep his mind off of other stuff…That is just my personal opinion though. His drug and alcohol addiction was pretty well known over the years…Still it is shocking.
Beyond Blue (c) 2014
Tow of my favourite comedians together =)