So I did it…

I hope that not too many people in my life know about this Blog…and if they do…Oh well,lol

I finally went to see a psychotherapist and I am really glad that I went to see somebody.

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It was fantastic!

See, I’m one of those people that don’t really like to burden people with my problems…I’ve told people about my anxiety mainly so they understand why I’ve stopped turning up to things and how I just don’t want to be treated anymore.

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The main issues that I’ve been having is since I’ve started taking my anxiety medication I’ve become more “susceptible” to things…If I read it or hear about it I’m convinced I’m going to get it…Which isn’t great when all these people around myself and celebrities that I adore, have either been having or dying from heart attacks…It’s so tiring being on high alert ALL the time when the pills make you so sleepy.

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(This Chihuahua looks like my doggie)

It’s been fantastic to talk to someone/anyone about what I’ve been going through, what I’ve been feeling, how the anxiety started…It’s been great! The first time I went we just kept talking that I didn’t even notice the time go by. I was so sad when it ended. She did say that sometimes after the first session people get really upset because they’ve let out so much…But I felt great! I even went into the city and did shopping for 3 hours all by myself! I haven’t done that since I first got came down with the anxiety blues. I can’t actually wait to go back!

Like peas in a pod…

As mentioned with my February Goals I mentioned how I was going to look into different types of Anxiety apps. This is my write up about what I found. I hope it helps someone else.

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Calm: This is probably one of more popular phone apps which helps with anxiety. It comes with an average 4.6 rating. They do have quiet a selection half of which is free and unfortunately the rest you do have to pay for. I managed to find a few things that I found helpful to begin with. The unfortunate thing is that you can only go so far along. Then you have to end up paying for more things. I did enjoy the different types of sounds they had to offer. They had people read audio books as well, which I found nice. Especially the Stephen Fry reading!

Overall rating: I would say that it’s probably a 7/10 … It’s good if you’re looking for something that’s free to an extent. If you want to take it further you will struggle and that can get frustrating.

Atmosphere: I have personally really enjoyed using this one. The basic premise for this one is that you can select different types of sounds. I have been using the one as I fall asleep.  It’s just that though, it’s just sounds. There’s no mediation instruction or anxiety instructions. You can also put a timer on it as well, so it turns after a certain amount of time.

Overall rating: I would highly recommend this one if you need help sleeping. There is such a selection of music and background music.

MeditateBot: This is, I believe, a Facebook app…My first clue should have been “Bot” in the title. Too break it down, it sends you messages to your private Facebook messenger. Inspiring Quotes, healthy tips etc … However, it will just randomly send it to your messenger. Every time I went to put my wifi on I’d have 5 or 6 messages all different kinds.

Overall rating: I guess if you need a little “pick me up” the quotes and the little facts can help, but it wouldn’t be good in an “emergency”. Unlike sounds/voice as well you can’t really sit and listen to it.

*At the moment my personal favourite one is Atmosphere. I use it mainly to help me fall asleep. That’s when I start to have the most issues with my anxiety.*

Isn’t it Weird

Over the weekend I saw the weirdest movie I have ever seen…But it was one of those films were you can’t look away either, because you want to know how it ends. No matter how bad or weird it may be…You just HAVE to know how it plays out and what happens too everyone.

The movie I am talking about is “Army of Darkness” (IMdB) . It’s a horror/comedy film that came out in 1992. This isn’t a review of that particular movie but it was just so odd and yet I found it enjoyable, even the ending had me cracking up, even when it was so obvious what was going to happen.

I would just like to know what odd movies or show would you recommend, that are completely terrible but we all just HAVE TO WATCH!

A recommendation

I was watching the Television Critics Award and I was so happy to see that Leah Remini and Mike Rinder WON for “Outstanding Achievement in Reality tv” and it was based on their documentary regarding Scientology. In all honesty I cannot recommend the show highly enough.

The show is called “Leah Remini: Scientology and the Aftermath”. Too break it down, Leah Remini and former high ranking member Mike Rinder talk to people who have been apart of the Scientology and have left for one reason or another. Some of them have left entire families behind and have not been able to see or talk to them since.

While I have your attention as well, you should also look up the Louis Theroux and his documentary about Scientology.

24….A Book you have learned from

24. A Book you have learned from

I have really been struggling with this one, mainly because they are SO many books that I have learnt something from. It’s part of the reason that I love to read, every time I reread a book of mine as well, I find that I learn something new, or I see something that I had never seen before. So saying all that, it’d be hard to pinpoint one particular book.

Some of the authors that I would highly recommend me though if you want to read something to learn from is:

Paulo Coelho – I’ve read quiet a few of his books, and although I do feel that you have to be in a certain place n your life to “get them”. I loved them and I understood them.

Jodi Picoult – She was probably the first author that I found could write well from everyone’s perspective, and I learnt perspective from that, more understanding.

J.R.R Tolkien and C.S. Lewis – These writers taught me to read and use my imagination.

Beatrix Potter – I honestly believe that she taught me that animals have feelings too.

The list goes on in all honesty.

Are you a good witch, or a bad witch?

There I was rolling through the Interwebs, as one does and I came across this amazing article, once again, on the awesome Book Riot.com about literary for your every day wiccan:

Book recommendations wiccan fiction for everyday Witches

One of the books that you might recognise on the list is “Practical Magic” you might recognise the book as it was made into a movie a few years ago with Sandra Bullock and Nicole Kidman. The movie was fantastic and is a movie that I watch about once a year, about magic. Magic between two sisters, curses and close minded town. This one is going on my “Have to read* list! (You might also want to check out the awesome Bookmark Chronicles who asked the question https://bookmarkchronicles.wordpress.com/2016/03/14/this-or-that-31/)

There is actually a few books on this list, that were then made later into movies “Witches of Eastwick” and there is even the classic “Strega Nona (Amazon.com)” by Tomie dePola.

By the way…I am a good witch ~.^

What do you do?! Blog Block!

I am looking at the little cursor flashing away at my screen and I just keep blinking at the screen…This is definitely a blog challenge! What to write when you can’t think of anything to write and am having a hard time to be inspired! I’m about to go away for a couple of days to and I want give my readers something to read!

What do you, my readers and followers do, when you have a complete block?

Are there sites that you would recommend where people can participate in Blog challenges (mainly to inspire me of course!lol)