LISTEN!!! When did that stop???

*Long Rant Post Incoming. I have lot to say about people who do not listen anymore*

In all honesty, this is probably the only place I actually feel listened to anymore. So you know that post about how I hate birthdays? Well the saga’s continue…

My mum bought me tickets to A Candlelight orchestra playing Disney music. Which sounds great and it did. But then it started to get weirder and weirder. So my mum said why she have to ring up the place to find out if it’s a scam or not. As I mentioned, well you have the tickets, and the information. I do not. But I rang anyway…Three times…For it to basically be a scam. Well it sounds like one. So I tell my mum what I found out. It sounds like something to do with Vivaldi is on.

She then proceeds to ignore what I say and say well everyone else is still keen. Are you? When I read this, I remembered how only the weekend before how I had to go to a party that I knew I wasn’t actually invited to the first time.

So then she sends me a screen shot of a reply, saying oh look what they found out! It’s still on. Some weird explanation about how the Vivaldi has been a couple of weeks beforehand, even though the person I actually TALKED too. Said something very different, the Vivaldi thing was on this week and next week. She also said there was a mix up the week before, where people rocked up and nothing was on.

But you know, god forbid SOMEONE LISTENS TOO ME…

I am just over people not listening to anyone.

I think people more and more these days just want to be right and/or liked. Without listening to how they’re actions and words affect others. A lot of people I know were annoyed with me because beforehand I had said how I hate birthdays, because no one listens to you and you end up feeling like shit. People REALLY seem to believe that you can buy people expensive presents, that you can have a good night at somewhere. And it means that all the lead up is gone and buried and forgiven, it REALLY doesn’t! Funnily enough, one of my fellow Taurus friends who was born the day before me, agreed with me.

Let’s see what happened to the lead up to my birthday this year.

I was invited to a party for myself, and three others born in the same week. However, I wasn’t even invited to the first “round”. It was ONLY because everyone said no to the first date, nothing to do with me though. Though the people who invited me the SECOND time, thought it was. The first round’s date was on a long weekend, so no one was here, lol. I was only allowed to invited two friends, which I couldn’t do. Because if I invite that person, than those three have to come. Yet my mum, whose birthday it wasn’t even for, was allowed to invite all her friends. Yet, everyone will insist to me that they would never put this “family” over me. No one said anything to them, no one stood up for me, or point out how weird it was. I didn’t even get a say on the music list.

My partner made me come along to his game, that I have repeatedly told him I feel dumb, I don’t feel comfortable and he’s always telling me what to do…Because I DON’T KNOW HOW TO PLAY THE GAME. That was the weekend before my birthday. The weekend after my birthday, he didn’t show up to the party I was only invited to in the second round.

I didn’t have a good time because of any of them, I had a good time, because of ME. And because I invited my friends anyway, lol.

I don’t know HOW no one whose supposed to be close too me or who I’ve known my whole life, doesn’t know this about me. I am not motivated by money or expensive things. I am motivated by love, kindness and knowing who respects.

Enough about me though…Because it’s not just me this keeps happening too…Maybe it’s why though I can relate to a lot of people.

I am sure by now, for anyone who gets into disagreements and arguments with people, by now, you would have experienced or you would have seen someone say “It’s just my opinion”…Or “Are you saying I can’t have a opinion”. You’ll find most if not all people who say this, the person they’re talking never actually says that they can’t have a opinion. Most, if not all the time, people are pointing out what is actually wrong with their opinion. As an example, recently I had ended just a white man to fuck off with his opinion.

His opinion wasn’t you know “Swiss Cheese in the best cheese”. His “opinion”? That a black woman was lying about how WOC are more likely to die during childbirth, because Doctors don’t take them as seriously. Which has actually been proven before. Same with heart attacks. Not so much racism reasons, but because WOC always have to come across as…and as Michelle Obama says … Better than perfect. I asked this male, when was the last time he was WOC giving birth? Of course he replied with “What are you saying I can’t have a opinion (quote) fucking hypocrite” So I reminded him I didn’t say that, I just asked him about how he was claiming he had “experiences” then. Then told him to fuck off.

Meghan Markle and Prince Harry

Again, why do people trying to tell me what Meghan Markle and HARRY said? I actually listened to what they said. I wont listen to anything Piers Morgan has to say. That “man” has a unhealthy obsession with her, and anyone who doesn’t like him in general. I can always tell when someone has listened to him or the tabloids. Because they always do exactly what Harry and Meghan are saying. Harry and Meghan actually said:

  • Nothing bad about the Queen, in fact it was all positive, good and respectful and I suspect Harry may even be her favourite.
  • HARRY TOLD Meghan about the “skin tone” question. Also that it was “a” family member. And lets be honest here, we probably all have at least ONE racist family member. I do. Also though, if they had said that about my family, I wouldn’t overreact and try to convince every it isn’t me. Like certain white people are trying say Harry and Meghan are saying. That’s not what they said.
  • In fact, neither Meghan or Harry blamed their Family. They blamed the people working around them or “The Institution”.

I think a LOT OF WHITE PEOPLE. Just listened to and heard what they wanted too. What has been funny about that is that I don’t know WHAT the Royal Family or the Institution think they’re doing. But they’re desperate attempts of PR are freaking laughable lately. The tabloids are still doing what they’re always doing. The Royals work for the people…Not the other way round. Sorry, not sorry.

Just a reminder as well. All these white folks be defending “the Institution” which is what they’re defending. This is the SAME INSTITUTION that attacked and harmed Princess Diana as well. So when Harry said “I could see History repeating itself” I HEARD THAT…A lot of people heard that, except for some white people and the tabloids.

Suck in the hate…breathe out the love

Today I am feeling so incredibly for the strength in my heart and the people who very rarely and very randomly will tell me how proud they are of me. It feels like lately every time I stand up to stand for a cause instead of anyone saying anything positive or proud of me, all I seem to get is grief.

I’m just at a point in my life where I just don’t care anymore, but it bugs the crap out of me. If there is one thing my las ex taught me, this is MY life…My ONE life…And no one is worth getting that upset over. It’s just that one group always isn’t it? Since I’ve taken them out I’ve done a hell of lot less crying and I feel grateful for my life. They just always have to nit and pick, they just can’t stay out of your life!

I am so incredibly grateful and feel blessed for the people that I’ve met on #SafariLive and the #BabyOstrichCam and also include the sweet blogger that I’ve met on WordPress…I don’t know what I’d do without you all!

Saying this all, I have just received an overwhelming flood of support. I’ve been writing about Cecil the Lion and have been “told off” about how dare I care more about a Lion than other human beings.

Magical Rants!

MondayMorning

I had a pretty bad weekend this weekend and I haven’t been through so many emotions in one whole weekend in such a long time! I was felt let down, back-stabbed, but also laughed and danced a lot. Then there is that moment that makes you go…”Oh No it’s Monday again!” So I am trying to look at it with a positive point of view!

With that being said I am not going to be talking about a favourite character,book or movie (or favourite YouTube clip). I am going to take a positive view this week and instead of looking at whole of the bad things that happened last week…I am going to start this week with a positive view and there aint nothing more magical than making a Monday magical!

  1. I have a roof over my head and I can always find something to eat.
  2. No matter what mood I am in, I have a dog that always makes me smile and loves to see me at all times!
  3. I can at least say that I was with someone who treated me with kindness, respect, safety and made me happy at all times.
  4. I am succeeding quite well with my Cataloguing class (Believe me when I say that is a BIG deal!)lol
  5. I’m still healthy.

Pippy Lou!

(My baby Pippy Lou…Isn’t she sweet!)

 

Random Rants for the win!

So I’m not really sure if it is┬ábecause of my break up but things that have been bugging me have been bugging me plus 10 this weekend. I don’t really want to make a huge rant on Facebook…because ironically…That’s been one of my major pet peeves… So here is a list of things that have really been bugging me lately, you might find that you relate to a few of them:

  1. In ALL of the “self-help” type pictures, which one of them says “Clog up your friends Facebook news-feeds with pictures that have quotes and sayings on them to get over your problem, but don’t actually say what the problem is”….Where does one of this “self-help” pictures say to do that to help yourself?
  2. Girls (and guys I guess…Just haven’t seen any of them) who pose with no one else in the photo, but still squat in their Facebook profile pictures like they are going to the toilet.
  3. People who post their profile pictures on the side and they still get 200+ likes…Well they’re not liking you for your brains are there!lol (I don’t even know why that trend is taking off)
  4. Girls who complain about not being able to meet a decent guy…When they only go out to clubs all the time.
  5. When you miss someone so much and you wish you really knew what is going on in someone’s head and if they miss you at all.

I feel much better now =P