Just relax

I think that the hardest thing to do in this world is just too truly and utterly 100% relax. The last month or so have been really hard for me, I’m living pretty much pay check to check this past month. This usually happens to me twice a year. Usually a month before the busy times at my work happens. It’s part of the reason I am looking for something more permanent.

Even though when I’m on holidays and planned ones, I will still worry…Maybe I shouldn’t have taken that week off, maybe I shouldn’t have bought that extra chocolate bar. It can get very overwhelming sometimes. Especially when I start to get upset at myself for buying that little extra treat.

I find the hardest thing to do is to my forgive myself. That’s when my head gets all messed up and I have to try and control my mind so I don’t get so upset that it gets me down all day. So I didn’t mean for this to become a kind of depressing post. I just wanted to share with you what I try to do to cheer myself up that either costs nothing or costs very little.

Books: Books are a great way to cheer myself up and a few other people too I do believe. The great thing about books is that they can actually be really cheap, and sometimes free if you know what you’re doing! Join a Library-Not only do they end up getting a lot of the newest books for you to borrow for free, a lot of Libraries will take requests for new books. A lot of Libraries also have books sales where they sell a lot of different items (not just books) at a heavily discounted price. Just recently I bought three dvds of movies I’ve been wanting for a while now for $6.00 ($2.00 each).

Walking/Dancing: I love to dance and lately I have been taking my dog for even more walks. When I go back to my Mums house, I feel like I NEED to take my dog for a walk, even though she’s little and we play a lot inside. Not only can both walking and dancing be done for free, but they both also release endorphin.

D.I.Y: I always find that over the years you tend to build up a collection of things that need to be done around the house. Now this can be expensive if you do it all in one go. Sometimes I find as well though when you think of the D.I.Y. projects that need to be done you go out and get that stuff. So over time it all builds up, including the materials you need for the project.

Series watching: Now what I mean by this is when you have a favourite television series and you just sit and watch it all day, or at least have it on in the background. Now this is a great idea for relaxing because watching or even just listening to a favourite show, has shown to relax and calm the mind down. I know myself, personally, I cannot fall asleep if I’ve watched something traumatic or some kind of horror film. One of the great things about this option is that there are so many different ways you can do this. Some retail outlet these days will have a deal, for example, 3 DVDS for only $30 (I recently did this one). Let alone the new streaming services. Which do cost a bit more money than a one-off, however, you can get great deals.

I did nearly put a bath in, to relax,…but the reason that I didn’t. It ultimately leads to your overall water bill and if you are anything like me. I usually end up staying in the bath for about 15 minutes. My partner can spend literally hours, but I just cannot do it.

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Crafternoon!

I cannot believe that I have not written about this before! About once a month myself and a group of girls (although guys are very welcomed to join us as well) and we do crafts! This can be anything from sewing, making little clay-type characters, colouring in (for those who have come with a hangover)…Anything!

The reason for my post today is that I am looking for ideas for my current project. I recently bought a unique figurine for a beautiful little dragon, it’s no bigger than average size of a women’s hand. I have decided to make a little nest for it, in my room…YAY to inner child! I’ve got the basket I want for it and I am going to be making it a little more nesty….BUT…I have no idea what I should put in there as well?

Any ideas?

30 Days of Gratitude…Days 8 – 14

(Well this one shall be very interesting since for half of it I’ll be at a family reunion).

Day 8: Alone – My mum is gone all weekend so this means that I have the entire weekend to myself! So far it’s been bliss (mind you though I’ve had to do homework all day). One of the things that I love at being home alone for a weekend by myself is the absolute solitude. Don’t get me wrong, living with my Mum isn’t all bad. Sometimes though you do a couple of days to yourself, so you can regather yourself back together. My mum has this habit of coming home and as soon as she walks through the door is complains. Sometimes, especially on bad days I actually dread her coming home because I know she’s going to complain about something and it makes me feel worse. I am grateful to have these rare moments alone.

Day 9: Study – I have finally managed to hand in a huge project and it was a huge effort to put since it was a topic I was not interested in and it took forever. Pretty much every spare day I had was taken up with it. This entire weekend I spent working on it and I have a test I really needed to study for. The reason I am grateful for my studies though is because not only is it helping me get into the career of my dreams. I am learning different things that help me in my work. At the moment we are learning how to make web Dewey numbers, every section of Dewey that I’ve learnt I’ve been able to then help customers out where I work. Sometimes work is busy so I don’t really have time stand back and learn.

Day 10: Drama Free: So there I was thinking what am I grateful for, because nothing really happened today…but there is something to be grateful in that alone…Nothing…Only two weeks ago I was angry beyond comprehension and my ex messing me about was beyond horrible. He made me feel worthless and the pain he had and was putting me through meant nothing to him. Like he didn’t care whether I was dead or alive and then he speaks so condescendingly to me….To NOT have anything like that in my life, is calming and beautiful.

Day 11: Single-hood – So I had a HUGE test today on my toughest subject. After the tests on this subject, my brain is completely fried and I fall asleep where ever I am. It was in this moment that I’m grateful that I don’t have children and I can rest easy. I’m also grateful because though by the time I have children I will be an expert on the subject, have a good job because of my studies and be able to comfortably provide for my children.

Day 12: My bed – I know this seems like an odd one, but I am very grateful to have a bed that I can get into a night and feel safe at night. I can dream at night, feeling safe with a roof over my head and safe in my bed.

Day 13: Brother – My brother came back today to visit us as we going on a family reunion trip this weekend. The reason I am grateful for my brother isn’t because he’s done anything amazing for me. He’s done great things for me, but the reason I am grateful to have the brother that I do is because he reminds me constantly what a MAN is. My brother is a Drag Queen, and a seriously good one at that too. He has won many Australia awards for the work that he had done. While I have all these “straight manly men” telling me that a man is only a man if he has a beard, or if he has big shoulders…My 6’4′ gangly brother is being a man, by being who he truly is. He is a constant reminder that a man is not made by what is on his face (neither Steve McQueen or James Dean had a beard can I just say too) or what he hides behind. A man is a man because he has the strength to be who he truly is. THAT’S a man!

Day 14: Family – By the time you read this I will be with my family at our family reunion. I LOVE my family we are all so different but we love each so much. It’s our differences that hold us together. A round up on the “labels” of people that will be at this reunions are: gay, straight, religious, athletic, creative, intellectual, spiritual. Yet, I can guarantee that we will have the most amazing time. From all of my other friends I know how incredibly lucky that I am too have the family (mothers side) that I do…My Dad’s side, don’t even talk to each other.