There has to be something positive.

I keep seeing all these wonderful proactive and positive type posts, despite the year we have. I just wanted to write about it from my point of view.

There has been one or two people who have said there is an actual thing 2020 PTSD thing, and I can’t say that I don’t believe them. I absolutely do believe them!

I don’t think that there’s a single person in 2020, who hasn’t been badly affected by this year, and I don’t even completely mean with COVID. There have been numerous. I think everyone I know has lost a person or a furbaby. Some people didn’t even have COVID, my Gran, as an example, we discovered had a mini stroke. Nothing to do with COVID, just one of those things.

Even with such a horrible year…there has to be something positive…right?

Give me a minute here…

I swear I’ve got something…

~.^

  • Whether or not he likes it, and what he does now Trump is GONE. GONE GONE BYE BYE
  • I met trans twitter”, and they are they LOVEIST and some of the funniest people I know.
  • I think I found my voice, that I had thought I had forgotten when I was little. I remember my voice.
  • I found good things and good people to fight for, and with.
  • After 36 years, I’ve realised it doesn’t matter that I am no one’s favourite “something”. I like me, and that is good enough.
  • Never forget though, to not just build a wall still. Let some people in, not everyone, but some. So when bad things do happen, or if I feel like turning inwards. Too know how and when to turn outwards to someone else.

This year started off really well for myself. I still had the Pippy, I still had a job, heck…I even had my last baby tooth, hanging there with a couple of thin veins, haha.

The other reason it started off so well though, was because of my therapy. I finally got to talk to someone about my teenage years and why I was so angry. When I say I was angry, I don’t mean I was taking drugs, getting pregnant every day. I would slam doors, yell, I got extremely depressed a couple of times. In the past, when I have tried to bring it up, either people would deny it, or they’d do the usual “Oh that was so long ago”. Oh, they have no problem admitting I was angry, but they just deny why.

Therapy HELPS. It’s nothing to be ashamed of.

This year has been really bad, in terms of communication. So next year, I want to make that better, even if it’s just for myself.


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Share Your World -03/30/20

Share Your World – 30/03/2020

Share Your World

QUESTIONS:

Pancakes, waffles or French Toast as your breakfast favorite? 

Without question, waffles. I love them all mind you, but if I had to chose, it’d be waffles. I wouldn’t be able to tell you why though. I like that just that little bit more though.

Do you think a person’s name influences the person they become?

I think to some extent it does. When you think about the amount of celebrities who change their name, that we know them by. So on some level it does. I also think they we feel not a social pressure, but a certain type of pressure to be like what you were named after. Myself, I was named after Lauren Bacall. Sometimes I feel I need to be a bit more cooler…At least I’m not named Karen at this time!

Would things get better or worse if humans focused on what was going well rather than what’s going wrong?

I do believe it would go better if we focused on more things that were going well. It just does your brain good. But not like the way Trump does it. He thinks everything he does, goes well. Don’t do “going well” like Trump.

Is math(s) something that humans created or something we discovered? Is looking at reality mathematically an accurate representation of how things work?

Maybe both?lol. I think it’s kind of hard to explain, as I would not call myself “mathematical” at all,lol. It does to an extent, it also depends though…Oh god, this is complicated in my mind. I know that I think maths does accurately represent how a lot of things work, but not everything…lol. As an example, they say music and maths are very similar. So somebody who can do maths well, can also play music. HOWEVER, does that mean that someone who can do maths, also represent how and why music makes us feel how we feel when we listen to a song that makes us feel … Oh dear god, I thought…ed!lol


GRATITUDE

What are you grateful for right now?   I realize it’s difficult to be very positive right now, unless one is being positive that things are pretty awful.   Let’s spread the joy in gratitude!! 

I am honestly grateful for the Blogging community, especially the people who read mine! I had to go away and you’re all still here! Still communicating with me, although at the moment it can feel somewhat of an overabundance of communication is happening right now. It’s good and positive communication. Even this question is positive. Despite knowing that it’s not a great time, the question asks us to think of something positive and so you do. So I ask anyone who may not do the questions this week, to read this and any other blogger whose done the questions this week and think of something joyful and positive!

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Light-bulb! Bye bye toxicity

I had a really big light-bulb moment this week. The one big question that I’ve never really been able to answer is “Why did I keep my toxic ex-best friends for such a long time”. I’ve never really been able to answer why, I was trying to stop being friends with them a couple of years before we ultimately stopped being friends. But I had no idea how to let go.

Then I was talking to my Mum and how proud everyone is of her because she finally, after 20+ years finally said “No, we’re not changing the date”. Her ex sister-in-law, my aunt. Took my Mums side when my parents split. I think at first my mum felt happy and justified that they did. However, the problem is my Aunt and family are so far from perfect, but wont hear it but expect perfection from others. So even though I did not live with them, we still had to live up to their expectations. If we did not and they did a “poor you” to my Mum, we would hear about it!

Then there’s my Dad who complains how his brother winds him up, his friends wind him up. But guess who he takes it out on and guess who he keeps running back too. Even with my Gran, there’s a family ex friends of hers. Who literally said to her face “I don’t want to be friends anymore” They live in a small town and she constantly “accidentally” bumps into him, constantly talks about him. It’s been about 10+ since he told her he did not want to be friends with her. He’s apparently nearly died twice and has not reached out to her.

So, I’ve got all these adults whose strongest friendships and relationships are extremely toxic, some who have literally been told “I don’t want to be your friend anymore” And they wonder why I had a hard time letting go. At least I didn’t take so many years it took me into double digits!lol

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Nurt Thur – Positivity

Nurture Thursday – Positivity 

After the Hell that was yesterday, all I want to do is post positive things. All things positive all day. I’m also swapping this to Wednesday, because I’ve got a fun post on Thursday, that had to be written on the day I’m actually doing the thing,lol. At the moment, how many of these are true…I don’t care, positively,lol

  • At the time I was writing this…Obama was better at…is Trending and makes my heart soar…Because I replied with…EVERYTHING!!!
  • Sea otters hold hands when they sleep to keep from drifting apart.
  • Cows have best friends

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  • Norway Knighted a Penguin.
  • A group of flamingos is called a flamboyance.
  • The Beatles used the word “love” 613 times throughout their career.
  • Rats laugh when tickled.

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  • Every year, millions of trees grow thanks to squirrels forgetting where they buried their nuts.
  • On the day of his assassination, Martin Luther King Jr. had a pillow-fight in his motel room.
  • The kingdom of Bhutan use ‘gross national happiness’ as a key national indicator.
  • The nitrogen in our DNA, the calcium in our teeth, the iron in our blood, the carbon in our apple pies were made in the interiors of collapsing stars. We’re all made of star dust.

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Toxic?

So I was just wondering, what you, readers think which social media platform is the most toxic and why?

See, I used to really like Twitter, but now I think that’s probably the most toxic. I definitely feel like Twitters CEO is probably buddies with Trump. While I think that Instagram may be the most positive. Well, as far social media platforms go. Facebook I don’t hate as much as I used to. Despite knowing that they are listening to our conversations. Here’s the thing with that though, so what? It’s annoying, sure. Once I knew about it, it didn’t make me change anything. I’m not a raging psychopath and I have will power. Just because Facebook is re-hashing advertisements, you don’t HAVE to buy it.

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Magically Monday #2

Welcome to my second “episode” of Magical Monday, where I am going to write nothing but something positive. Mondays have a very bad reputation and I get it, I mean most people’s working week starts on the Monday. From there it seems like a very long road. So lets try to make it fun.

For this Magic Monday, I wanted to talk about probably my most favourite musician in the whole wide world. Even if they are no longer apart of this world anymore. I almost have a whimsical love for this artist. Different time, different place, it totally would have happened,lol. He was kind of a whimsical person. I think it’s also one of the reasons that I liked my ex, a couple of years after we had broken up and I saw a photo of him. It freaked me out a lot, because my ex looked exactly like this artist. I do miss this artists beautiful spirit in the world.

Shall I stop speaking now?

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I know that John probably talked the most about Peace, and I don’t think there isn’t a single soul that doesn’t love “Imagine” But too myself, George was the one who practised it the best. He wasn’t like John in that, George was a lot more gentle than John was. George was my kind of “peaceful” person. I just really think he was a sweet soul. Very dreamy, very laid back. Although apparently very serious when need be. He was just a dream.

Below is posted my favourite song of his, I don’t care it was “The Beatles” He wrote it. I always play it on the first day that I really feel like Spring is back. But also when I need cheering up, almost like a metaphorical sun.

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Published on Jun 17, 2018
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Provided to YouTube by Universal Music Group Here Comes The Sun (Remastered 2009) · The Beatles Abbey Road ℗ 2009 Calderstone Productions Limited (a division of Universal Music Group) Released on: 1969-09-26
Composer: George Harrison

Magic Monday 1#

I am taking inspiration from the lovely “Chocolate and Waffles” and her inspirational “Positivity Wave” on Friday” posts. I’m going to change it up a bit though, I want to start doing it on Mondays.

I haven’t decided yet, if I’m going to do it every Monday or possibly every second Monday…We will see.

I wanted to start off this first ever particular “Magic Monday” by saying thank you to you…Yes, you…and you too.

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I feel like I need to say thank you to the people who read my blog and make this experience such a positive one. Blogging has become one of my most favourite things to do. I love logging in and seeing not only all the posts that I have yet to share, but to read through your posts as well. Too read and to know that there are on the same thinking level as myself.

It can feel lonely out there, but I see the political, the gender equality and the silly ones and I feel like I’ve found my sort of people. I love the fun posts, the grateful ones. Even how we may not always agree with something, or the wording or something. But we know that we can talk to each other about it. We know that, within this community, that we can talk to each other, safely.

 

Nurt Thurs – Flip the Script

Nurture Thursday  – Flip the Script

My work place is going through a big work review type thing. Jobs will be changed, some will probably retire. So it’s been interesting to see how different people have reacted. There’s one staff member who never shows up and is always “sick” when she watches over the entry test. She’s not doing the exam, she just has to sit there. Then you have another who shows up still. Always wanting to help. Always there, never sick. Yet, they irony is because he hasn’t been at this particular campus as long as the other worker. He’s probably going to be swapped first. Either way, he’ll be fine, the other wont, because she will still have to watch over test that she’ll always be ‘sick’ for.

Attitude

You have to flip that script, change your attitude and your perspective to the problem. You can do it!!!

You Deserve More – Nurt Thursday…On Friday

Nurture Thursday – You Deserve More

deserve

I absolutely agree with this statement. You deserve better than that. Trust me. One of the best things I found when I let go of my toxic friendships, were the good friends that I had around me. When you actually have the time for the good people in your life, you don’t even think about the bad.

So, stop, right this second, trying to please them. You deserve better than this. I know, being a good person and someone who believes in good, it can be so hard to let go, but it’ll be worth it! You will see the change in yourself and those around you. The problem with trying to be your best for someone who isn’t worth it, is the time you waste in your life trying to please them. When you stop, you will see how much time you have left for all the good.