Family Magic

(Okay this was posted on Tuesday instead of actually Monday…Please forgive me!)

I went on a family reunion this weekend and it was amazing! We stayed at a renovated train station/platform building, that still has trains running by it (so much fun at 2 in the morning ~.~)

It was amazing because my family is amazing. All the way up to the reunion people kept telling me that I must be dreading it but I didn’t and I never would! It was really sad to hear how people just do not get along with their families. We are all so different, but we get along so well and I am very aware of how lucky I am that we all get along so well and how much we love each other.

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These are just a few snapshots of the trip =)

Where has the girl power gone?

I call myself “Eternally Single”. I call myself this because being 30 years old I have spent most of that single. Once I’m in a relationship I am committed but when I’m single, I am single. I have done the casual sex thing and I have learnt both good and bad from that. At this moment I have no interest in that, so I will not participate in it.

However this year I have been shocked by the amount of women in my life who have been in really bad relationships. Not just bad relationships, but they were bad right from the start.  I have been shocked because these are women I admire and completely respect. They are intelligent, smart and motivated women. Who have travelled the world, found jobs they love, (some) have had children. I wont lie when I say that this women have made me feel “dumb” not through any put downs or the like from themselves. I would be struggling (thanks to my dyslexia) and getting an average of a C and they would be getting double A’s.

These women have been shocking me all year…These intelligent, beautiful, loving hearted and strong women are letting themselves be treated horribly…by a guy…and not really extraordinary guys either. Even if they were extraordinary guys it wouldn’t be acceptable.

I have one girlfriend who is actually considering going against everything that she hates and despises just so her boyfriend can sleep around more aka open relationship. Apparently because she’s been cheated on once or twice that should prove she should just be ‘used’ to be cheated on? WTactualF! She’s already said “No” several times, but he wont let it go. Another woman my grandmothers age and I woman I highly admired, sent a group email to upset a male friend of hers, so he would get in contact with her…My Grandmothers age! Then this very close family member of mine has recently told us what happened to her and how badly her now ex-husband treated her…I have no idea how they got married!

I’m sitting here feeling like a failure because I don’t have a man and I’m 30 years old…But I tell you what I’d rather be single than living with this every day of my life! These women I love and admire might as well be single!

Uploaded by PrettyExclusiveTV’s channel on 8 Jul 2012

Here is a clip from their movie “One Hour of Girl Power” where they give their own definition of what Girl Power really means.

Last Friday Night…

Take me back to last Friday night,
where I was yours
And you were mine,
For that final time, though neither of us knew.

You’ve only just left,
My heart has never wanted you more,
Turn back around that corner,
Please don’t let me watch you drive away.

I don’t want you to go,
Please don’t go,
Please come back,
Take me back to Friday night…

I miss you, you don’t even know and I can’t tell you, not a bit, not a little bit…Not at all ❤

 

Life is…Magic?

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I have said “Goodbye” to too many things that I love and care about today (well in the last 24 hours). One of the baby ostriches passed away from complications that resulted from a minor surgery, which is very common in birds. Birds seem to stress out quite easily. It was horrible because I saw the whole thing. Flipped over on her back and then she just never got up again, it was a slow and painful thing to see. Then the other one (once the body was removed) became very quickly distressed. Luckily though, the family looking after these sweet babies took swift action and took the other baby to an Ostrich farm and from the pictures is already striving extremely well there.

However the other person I had to say goodbye too was my Beau that I had been seeing for the last few months. It’s probably the hardest break up I’ve had. In terms of that we both really want to be together, very badly. However, the age gap is just too large of a thing and we can’t really ignore it. Honestly, for once, the line “Can we still be friends?” was the hardest line I’ve had to hear BUT for the first time in my life, I really do want too. Nothing was done to hurt either party, but we shall see what happens…Watch this space for more…!

So life…Watch you got for me next? Can you please leave it for a little while longer?

What If?…

Once again going with my music video theme for this week…This is a song I repeatedly listen too and have for many years. I think that a lot of others can relate to this song and Kate Winslet doesn’t, surprisingly, sound too bad. I think though, if a lot of people knew who this songs relates too for myself, they would be very shocked…Because it is not any of my past boyfriends. Whenever I am having a rough time with a partner, or a potential partner I somehow always stumble over this song.

Uploaded on 19 Feb 2010

Artist – Kate Winslet
Title – What If

Record Company – EMI Records

Odd one out…

Last night my best friend came in from Interstate. I have about three female best friends and ironically I could probably pick a “Sex in the City” character for each one of us (I would be the Charlotte in the group…but probably more after being influenced by Samantha). The interesting thing about my little groups of girlfriend is…I am the only single one.

Last night was fun and we talked and giggled a lot, but it was hard to hear about the problems they were having, especially when their guys are completely nuts about them. They are mostly things that they knew could be an issue later. I think that’s the hardest thing about being single, especially when you are the only one, is listening to how bad a friends relationships is, when it really isn’t and that they knew this issue would be coming up later.

I would LOVE a man who was devoted to me, who had my back, who talked to me, who tried to cheer me up when I am down. I have always had the opposite in my life. I have always had the guy who never had my back, including watching me get bullied mentally and physically by his roommate, the one who’d rather play a computer game then take care of me the night my grandfather dies, would rather spend Valentine’s Day with his friends than me.

I don’t get into relationships a lot, in fact, after 30 years I have only been in three relationships. My main problem is once I find that guy, I jump right in, and instead of letting it build up slowly and making sure that I am not falling for a façade. Except if I knew about a major issue, like children, marriage, career plans are likely to become an issue later I would never get into that relationship. I seem to find a lot that I am the only one like that. A lot of girls will get into a relationship to be in a relationship and that’s when the problems start.

True, I have nights where I feel so alone that I hold onto that pillow like I never have before…but I also know that one of the worst feelings in this world is feeling completely alone while you have someone lying right next to you.

Am I the only one who might WANT a relationship, but don’t feel like I NEED one? Am I the only odd one out…I would rather be alone, than feel alone.