There has to be something positive.

I keep seeing all these wonderful proactive and positive type posts, despite the year we have. I just wanted to write about it from my point of view.

There has been one or two people who have said there is an actual thing 2020 PTSD thing, and I can’t say that I don’t believe them. I absolutely do believe them!

I don’t think that there’s a single person in 2020, who hasn’t been badly affected by this year, and I don’t even completely mean with COVID. There have been numerous. I think everyone I know has lost a person or a furbaby. Some people didn’t even have COVID, my Gran, as an example, we discovered had a mini stroke. Nothing to do with COVID, just one of those things.

Even with such a horrible year…there has to be something positive…right?

Give me a minute here…

I swear I’ve got something…

~.^

  • Whether or not he likes it, and what he does now Trump is GONE. GONE GONE BYE BYE
  • I met trans twitter”, and they are they LOVEIST and some of the funniest people I know.
  • I think I found my voice, that I had thought I had forgotten when I was little. I remember my voice.
  • I found good things and good people to fight for, and with.
  • After 36 years, I’ve realised it doesn’t matter that I am no one’s favourite “something”. I like me, and that is good enough.
  • Never forget though, to not just build a wall still. Let some people in, not everyone, but some. So when bad things do happen, or if I feel like turning inwards. Too know how and when to turn outwards to someone else.

This year started off really well for myself. I still had the Pippy, I still had a job, heck…I even had my last baby tooth, hanging there with a couple of thin veins, haha.

The other reason it started off so well though, was because of my therapy. I finally got to talk to someone about my teenage years and why I was so angry. When I say I was angry, I don’t mean I was taking drugs, getting pregnant every day. I would slam doors, yell, I got extremely depressed a couple of times. In the past, when I have tried to bring it up, either people would deny it, or they’d do the usual “Oh that was so long ago”. Oh, they have no problem admitting I was angry, but they just deny why.

Therapy HELPS. It’s nothing to be ashamed of.

This year has been really bad, in terms of communication. So next year, I want to make that better, even if it’s just for myself.


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Share Your World 27/04/2020

Share Your World – 04-27-2020

Share Your World

Questions:

Do guns protect people or kill people?  Or both?

Guns kill. Too me, that’s the whole function of a gun. It’s there to kill, whether it’s because you’re hunting an animal, or shooting at an intruder. The point of a gun is too kill. Even if you’re shooting at an intruder to protect your family, and you shoot and they die. They still died. The gun didn’t talk to the intruder to put it on a better path. They’re dead…Stone cold dead. You may shoot at someone to protect your family, but that gun that you are shooting at another human being with, can still kill them. That’s what they’re for…To kill.

Is it more important to be respected or liked?

Respected.

Is having a big ego a negative or  positive trait?  (yeah I know.  Duh. But there ought to be one “gimme’ in the pile)

Sometimes it could be a positive trait, a big ego, you think you’re unstoppable. I do think there’s a difference between a huge ego and a narcissistic personality disorder though. I think there’s actually nothing wrong with a big ego, as long as you’re not harming others with it,lol

Depending on your point of view, is death a new beginning? 

I love the movie “The Mummy” and one of the quotes in there is when Imhotep says “Death in only the beginning”. I think it is, to an extent. I do think that there are such things as Guardian Angels, Angels, rebirth. I do believe that we come here to learn lessons, and then far later on we are reborn as someone else. That’s why I believe in soul mates. I believe that we meet certain people, in each life.


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It’s tough right now to count the blessings we have.   Being grateful for being confined to our homes and having reality skewed out of kilter for some is depressing.   So if there is something positive or uplifting or something you’re grateful for that you’d like to share (pictures, memes, images, thoughts) please!  Do share!  Thanks!   🙂

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Share Your World, April Wk 2, 2019

Share Your World … 4-15-19

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QUESTIONS:

  • Guns?   Are you pro or con?  Explain your point of view.

Oh wow, that is a … loaded … question so to speak! In theory I have no problem with guns. There’s that saying about how it’s not guns that kill, it’s the owner…Well, duh! In Australia we are doing pretty well when it comes to gun laws. People can still own guns, they just can’t own army type weapons, that can kill multiple people within a second. I don’t know anyone personally who owns a gun in Australia, well that I’m aware of anyway, but I know that you can. Just more like rifles and shot guns.

Some people say the same gun laws we have in Australia wont work in the US because the US is bigger than Australia, more population. Which may be true, but how is doing nothing working for them? The one thing I truly don’t understand about the US, why a lot of the 2A defenders, don’t want to try something…anything? It’s such a hard thing to wrap my head around. For example, the NRA tried to block a law that people who stalk and domestically abuse others, cannot own a gun. Why? They keep saying because it’s a misdemeanour, it’s not that serious. They WANT these stalkers and abusers to keep their guns because of “rights”. Why? I am sure in their heads they’re thinking “Well I’ve got a gun, I can just shoot them”…It’s not that simple, and if they shot them dead, they’d be charged with murder. Wouldn’t it just be better and make more sense to make sure stalkers/domestic abusers can’t have guns?

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  • How would your country change if everyone, regardless of age, could vote?

Well that’s a lot of a question. Does this mean, should the terrible twos be able to vote? I know that this question is talked a lot about these days, especially with the #climatestrike and #marchforourlives kids. Then on the flip side of that you have the boys from Covington Catholic, would you really want boys like that voting? But then are those boys so different from adult Trump supporters?

  • What’s your cure for hiccups?

I don’t really have one to be honest. I kind of just keep letting it go and just hope that it goes away quickly.

  • What’s the coldest you’ve ever been?

I can’t remember an actual specific time when I’ve been the coldest I’ve ever been. It’s probably been any time though that I’ve hopped into bed when it’s been Winter. It is terrible when I first get into bed, I feel like the sheets are stabbing into my body,lol

Gratitude

If you would like, share a story, a photo or some thoughts on you may be thankful for this week! 

I am grateful for every single one of you. The bloggers that I follow and who follow me.

I knew I like WordPress =D

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Finally getting there…

Although it seems like a lot of social media platforms are very slow in actually doing what they say they are going to do…They are getting there…Except for Jack at Twitter…Can you believe he actually said Twitter is definitely biased more left leaning…Has he just not seen Donald Trumps Tweets, or ANY of his supporters?

I don’t hate Johnny Depp

I don’t know if you’ve all seen the latest interview with Johnny Depp. I’m all over the place with it. The interview itself was interesting, but I truly wished he would have taken more responsibility for his actions. I am tired of hearing he didn’t hit Amber in the video, so it’s not abuse. There are other forms of abuse.

Time to get personal here.

My father has never hit me, he spanked me a couple of times when I was younger, but nothing that I’d call abusive. HOWEVER, he is an alcoholic and oh my goodness the things names and text messages I’ve received over the years. If someone else saw them, they’d punch him up or be in complete shock as to why I even still speak too him. Like Johnny, I don’t think my father is evil. He has had a hard life, but it’s not an excuse to take it out on me. Also like Johnny, I don’t think my Dad is happy himself. I don’t think he gets any pleasure out of the abuse he hurls at me.

I like Johnny Depp, I just know that he could be a LOT better if he took responsibility for his actions and what he is doing. If he’s stupid fans could STOP hating on other people, because they want Johnny to do better…They can’t possibly have read that interview and thought “There’s a happy guy!”. If Vanessa thought he was so wonderful, why leave him? Women just don’t leave great guys, we just don’t, lol.

It’s okay not too be perfect. I don’t hate Johnny Depp, I don’t think that he’s a bad guy. I think he’s a lost soul and needs some guidance instead of people telling him that he’s wonderful a perfect. It doesn’t mean though he can got off.

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Clicks 3 – “Patriot”

It freaking clicked!

Why Trump supporters just cannot admit the fact that Trump has been a racist and IS still a racist.

Using Kanye a POC doesn’t mean he is not a racist.

However I digress!

I have gotten into many, many arguments with Trump supporters who REFUSE to acknowledge the fact that Trump has done racist things. From the 80’s right up until today. Every time I have shown them proof, not only do some just not read it. Some keep claiming that they’ve all been debunked, Which they haven’t.

However, it just “clicked” in my head one day. This is my “theory” on the matter…Views are entirely my own!

I think it’s because they’re SO racist themselves. If they have to acknowledge that POC are fellow Americans too. Then they wouldn’t be able to call themselves patriotic because they are allowing fellow Americans to be attacked. Then they wouldn’t be able to ignore their plight anymore.

Perspective

It’s getting closer to my Birthday and I anticipate one or two things maybe Harley Quinn related…I am a massive fan of Harley Quinn, mainly original Harley…

The thing is though a lot of people think because I like Harley Quinn, then I must love her relationship with the Joker…and I actually detest it

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…It’s a completely abusive relationship.

Harley Quinn, too me, is a crazy gal, who just wants to be love and accepted…and she LOVES her “babies” (Bud and Lou)…Those moments where she feels betrayed by the Joker and she tries to be a “good guy” but no one really lets her. I feel like that sometimes, I feel like I’m doing the right thing, but others make me feel bad for doing it…Only difference is I don’t go to the dark side.

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It’s a hard-knock life

*I am just going to start off this post with a disclaimer…I am a girl, I do like to play games. I am not a guy and so will be speaking about my perspective about it. I do not hate men, I think they are adorable. This is just something that’s been on my mind a little lately…So let’s share!*

I do believe that world of gaming and geekiness (don’t think that’s an actual word) is definitely becoming more accepting, especially those of the girl gender. We’re still hitting some blocks though, when it comes to “preference” and different opinions…Although to be honest I think that goes for a lot of what’s happening lately. It’s your way or the highway.

What disturbs me though are those people, if they don’t like, or they can’t understand what that other person is saying “your opinion is invalid”.

I HATE IT WHEN SOMEONE SAYS THAT! Even if I don’t agree with what they’ve said, I HATE it when someone says that. It’s one of my pet peeves.

I was in the middle of a Twitter discussion the other day and this guy said that he found when cosplayers do characters just in their underwear, he considered it too be lazy…and OHMYGOODNESS! He was being attacked and everyone was saying they didn’t care about his opinion and it was invalid. The ironic thing was, that’s what the discussion was about. About cosplayers and what actually constitutes a “costume”. I also have too say…sometimes I agreed with him. We were both severely outnumbered, but I stand by what he and I said. Sometimes I find it cute, like there was a range of Disney Princess bathing suits that was modelled by cosplayers, and I loved it. However, sometimes I think it is lazy when they’re just wearing a wig and matching coloured underwear for a character. Especially if they didn’t even make the underwear.

It’s just an opinion though.

They just leave me uninspired. It’s JUST an opinion.

It’s also the same with games as well…There are always people disagreeing over the graphics in a game.

Trolls harass woman with death and rape threats because new game Mass Effect Andromeda’s animations ‘weren’t good enough

This however was taken to an EXTREME!…And not in a good way!

This is what I think bothers me the most. Is that this “people” were sending these threats over a game…a freaking game! A games graphics is not a life and death situation that should be affecting someones life in such a deadly way.

These “gamer’s” priorities in life are completely skewed.

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Apart from the very obvious things that are wrong with threatening someone over graphics. Do they not want girls to get into gaming? Do they only want girls to be crept out and never allow them to play their games again? This isn’t exactly the BEST way to make other women and girls want to play. I know when I saw what was going on, I made a conscious decision not to the buy the games…BECAUSE I don’t want to run into any of those douche bags.

Plus…with the cliche saying…If you think you can do it better, then do it.

Take 2!

I have decided to do a bit of a different review this time. I am kind of doing two at the same time, just not necessarily a whole review of each book.

I want to review and compare between the two. Both the books that I’ve read over the last month or so, are the second books in a series. I thought it’d be interesting to see how I felt they were the same, different etc.

*Now I’ll just also say that I am not doing any spoilers either*.

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I decided because I was reading two of the most Young Adults series writers. I would compare what I thought of the two.

Now I just want to say that I am enjoying both of the novels…This is just a comparison, mainly on my observations.

Main Characters:

Similar: Both books have a young female as their lead characters…(Yay, Female empowerment). It’s actually part of the reasons that I wanted to compare the two really. They are both very similar but the writing is very different. Both female leads have a male love interest that pretty much throughout the end of the first book and the start of the second books, there has been some sort of quarrel. Which means at the beginning of both books the two love interests are not together, but there is tension as the books goes along.

Difference: In Endless Knight the two main love interests get back together rather early again. There was some serious miscommunication between the two. In the end though they ended up getting together. Also Endless Knight is not nearly as long as Lord of Shadows.

Lord of Shadows is a little different, at the end of the first book it seemed like they were going to get together, but then realised that they could not. Which means during the second book (I have not read all of it at this stage, but I there’s isn’t much story left for a romance). It doesn’t seem like they will get back together at this particular stage/book.

Conclusion: It makes you want to keep reading Lord of Shadows, because the two characters are going through so much. Including denying being together, the forbidden! Although the love interests between the two in Endless Knights makes me want them to get back together. I felt like they got back together really quickly considering there is a lot going on. However, I do understand it because of  what happens at the end of the book. If Endless Knight was a longer book, they probably would have gotten together later. It just felt more “Oh I don’t hate” “I don’t hate you either” “Let’s get together”. It felt a little rushed.

Theme/Plot

Similar: Both books take place in a “modern” type era, but these young women have discovered in the first book that there is some kind of magic land hiding. Both women end up being some kind of “Prodigy”, one-of-a-kind, destiny fulfilling…You get where I’m going with this…

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Both of their parents are dead, usually killed by the monsters that they are now hunting. That’s how they discovered their new magical world. They both have another male “interest”. Which you get the feeling that if something happens to the other male love interest, the girls will be fine. Which kind of puts a damper on the whole “soul mate” bit. With one of Cassandra Clare’s series, this actually really annoyed me.

Difference: Endless Knight it’s a lot more straightforward (which probably explains when it’s a lot shorter book). Whereas with Lord of Shadows there is a lot more explanation and description of the battles and the places in the world. You get to know the minor characters a lot more.

Conclusion: Although the theme and killing monsters to get to the big boss type monster is pretty much the same. There is just a lot more description in Lord of Shadows compared to Endless Knight. In Endless Knight they don’t give much of a description, in fact I couldn’t really tell you what the monsters look like. However, in Lord of Shadow, as the go from character to character you get a little description (that’s interesting and pivotal to the story). I could more describe the characters/monsters in LoS.

Other Characters:

Similar: Both books have a group of other characters in the story that help defeat and travel through the book. Both books have characters where the main female lead relies heavily on another male character that makes the main male lead believe that she’s in love with the other guy.

Difference: The other difference is in Lord of Shadow, the other characters are mainly family. Whereas in Endless Knights the other characters are brought together more by Fate. Which means that main male lead in LoS believes the main female lead is in love with his brother!

Conculsion: It definitely does make it more suspenseful between the two brothers and the female lead in LoS. The main male lead is really upset but because it’s his brother, he feels like he can’t be upset. As well he’s not “legally” allowed to be with the female lead anyway. Endless Knight means that there’s just less emotions involved. One of the other female characters clearly has a crush on the male lead, but you don’t feel as sympathetic as you do with with LoS. Also the relationship between one the main female lead and “Death” in Endless Knight felt so forced to ymself.

Powers:

I have to say that the powers although both books/series do use Magic throughout the books as the main powers in each series. The way they use the Magic is totally different. Endless Knights is based more on more Tarot Cards, hence the series being “The Arcana Chronicles”. Whereas LoS is more based on using runes to heal and make their Weapons specific to them with more magic.

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47. Opportunities you’ve been given

*I probably should have written this one when I was going too. It got posted today with no words,lol*

The most grateful opportunity I automatically thought of was the opportunity that I was born into the family that I have been born into.

Bad and Good my family have shown me such a variety of life. My mums side are incredibly close and yet we are so incredibly different and at the same time we get on very well and we respect each other differences. I love being with them. Whereas my Dad’s side, as much as I do love them…They are all exactly the same and yet, cannot for the life of them, get along at all. Half the time they’re not even talking to each other.

It’s a very interesting dynamic.

It has shown me so much of the world and how I view it. How you can be different and get along, how you can be the same and not be on the same page at the same time…It’s really quiet interesting…My Dad’s side they say the exact same things, they are all pretty racist and gullible. YET, they say they are better than the others, when they don’t speak to each? It’s hilarious! If they knew that they are pretty much the same person (and believe me I’ve wanted to tell them) I think they’d be incredibly surprised.

A great example of this was of my Dad over this weekend. He said that I was not allowed to invite a particular Aunt and her family to my wedding (I’m not getting married by the way). They’re the “minority” because no one is talking to them from my Dads family. Yet my Dad and the ones he talks too would actually be the minority at my wedding. I haven’t seen anyone from that side for years (apart from this Aunt and her family) and everybody at my wedding know this particular Aunt and her family, they actually do call her their Aunt as well. The family members that my Dad talks too, apart from my Dad, haven’t even met my partner yet!lol