Go Higher!

Long Post!

Every day we learn how to be a better version of ourselves, learn every day to push that.

Obviously, within reason. If you’re not feeling it that day, don’t feel it, lol.

I was “inspired” to write this post after seeing the ridiculous assertions from some (we know who they are) that Putin is doing this because of “pronouns”, because the West is too “weak” because of LGBT.

The Ukraine isn’t really “Western” and it’s about NATO, despite NATO clarifying that the Ukraine wouldn’t be placed in the NATO list. Also, it’s Putin. There are rumors that Putin had/has COVID and it made his brain a little addle. We will never be able to tell with Trump … Oh, I had too, lol

I also saw a picture a cartoonist drew of POTUS Biden shouting at a solider while that solider put lipstick on. Now I don’t know about any of you, but putting on lipstick while you’re being yelled at, is pretty hardcore, lol … That is definite “I don’t give a f”, and is not a weak thing, on any level, lol. Also what’s wrong with wearing lipstick? Wearing lipstick doesn’t make you gay, I’m looking at you, right wing religious conservatives. Maybe THEY should try putting on lipstick while being yelled at.

Now, this is not permission to start in-fighting. The amount of people who have “rules” on their profile. I’m sorry to tell you all, the only rules on Twitter, Facebook etc are their rules. If you want rules for your profile, then you make your account private or make sure only certain tweets, posts get out. Twitter and Facebook do have it so you can make sure only certain people can see it. It’s one of the worst thing about “left” and “woke” twitter, lol.

So many of them have rules! With no irony at all, that no one is THAT obsessed with their profiles. I’ve been “called out” a couple of times, because I didn’t follow their “rules”. One, I just retweeted something, if you don’t want to be hassled, you can actually stop people from retweeting. Two, the whole reason they claim that you’re not allowed to retweet them is that they’ll get hassled by TERFs. My Twitter account is a small account, only one person liked the tweet. Where as their “calling out” was liked by over three hundred accounts and many people questioning my “allyship”. Some people were asking “Are they (me) an genuine ally” and I’m like “I’m right here, I don’t have rules, my profile is public and I have open DM’S. You can literally tag me, see my profile and DM me. You don’t need to act like I’m invisible”. I ended up blocking everyone who did that too me.

It’s thing like that, from my side I can’t stand.

I have seen many an ally, say something or do something that someone doesn’t 100% agree with, and then they turn into who they hate, and when you point out to them what they’re doing is exactly what they say they hate, you’re called a fascists’, or not an ally.

By the way you don’t “earn” to be an ally, you either are you are not. Allies do not get it right 100% of the time. We don’t get it right all the time, we just don’t and we are always learning. But I have seen trans people come down hard on allies and literally dictate that they are or are not an ally. I get everything is emotional right now. There’s no point in-fighting. If you don’t agree, tell that person, but don’t attack them. Who does that help? By the way despite that harshness from some trans people on if I’m and others are “allies” are not, we’re not stopping helping others.

The sad part of this story though, a couple of months after what happened too me. One of these people lost their job, they’re now relying on handouts from people and hoping to make money from their Art. I feel sorry for them, but I get why they lost their job. When you’re that emotionally caught up, you take it everywhere you go. There work already was making it difficult for them and their disability.

I get emotionally caught up a lot, but I’m not taking it everywhere I go. I take it where it matters. That’s the trick. I’m not going onto Twitter and expecting people to follow MY rules. The rules are Twitter’s rules, the rules are Facebook rules. That’s it, and if you want to make your account more specific, you can do that, easy peasy.

Thursday Theories – Here’s the thing about reading

So I see that banning books is causing a lot of controversy!lol

The reason that I am putting this under Thursday Theories, is because, like a lot of things in life. Reading is a very personal thing, best left up to the individuals.

Here’s the thing, when it comes to appropriateness for a child. I think it’s best to leave it up to that child’s librarian and sometimes the parents. I grew up in Libraries, my Gran was a Library Manager, who was spread around to a lot of Libraries, because she was good. I would trust a good Librarian any day to choose books for my child.

It all comes back to the individual. You can’t just ban all books, you can’t have politicians decide what is or what is not appropriate. Although I can understand why most people would think that Librarian check in and out books. When you’ve worked in a Library for a long time, you learn about the regulars, you learn how to “read” people.

My Gran, for example, she always knew what books we would like. Even with family members who didn’t read that much, she always knew what books they would like. After all, there is no point too force someone to read if they don’t want too. Sometimes, though it takes someone, like my Gran, too get a “right” book for someone.

Reading though, is really a personal thing. Which is why a lot of the time, one can’t say well this is inappropriate for EVERYONE. Sometimes, it just isn’t. I sure as heck wouldn’t let a politician with a clear agenda decide that either though, lol. If you leave it up to anyone, trust your Librarians!

It’s okay to lose a little of yourself

Personally, I felt like I a lost a little of myself during COVID, and you know what? That’s alright. I didn’t lose any of the important “stuff”. I would agree with some, that I have become harder, but not with the important things. I still cry a lot, lol.

I just think my quality of life is improving.

Our souls are like lizards and snakes, we shed them sometimes when we no longer need them…Okay, that sound really gross, but you know what I mean, right? We shed the old skin, but we still keep intact, and the important stuff human or snake still remains =D So it’s all good =D

It’s a metaphor, haha.

The important thing is to keep moving and shed when needed, because you do need to shed once in a while. You can’t keep the old skin, like with skin and lizards, if that skin doesn’t shed properly, it can actually be quiet painful.

Such a great metaphor, lol

Also Happy Birthday Charles Dickens

“Suffering has been stronger than all other teaching, and has taught me to understand what your heart used to be. I have been bent and broken, but – I hope -into a better shape…”

Great Expectations

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Thursday Theories – No Theories

With everything going on in my life in the “real world”, I didn’t have the time or the mental energy to really go and research into anything. What I’ve done instead is I’m going to write a list of some of my personal theories. I believe that I have done this before, but maybe not for a while.

  1. I believe that bigots, any kind, are scared, of the “unknown”. (It’s not a excuse to harm others)
  2. I believe that people who have privilege, don’t understand what cancel culture even is, or pretend to not get it.
  3. Not so much as theory…but…The moment you become a bigot, you automatically do ‘cancel’ any good work you’ve done before. Hitler was popular because he kept his promises and helped Germany to pay back the debt from WW…You know before the “incident”.
  4. In all honesty, and I know I’ve only been streaming for about a month. But I feel like the older you are, the better you would do at streaming. Like the younger streamers seem to get really caught up with, quiet frankly, trolls. Or even when someone asks a innocent question and they go off on them.
  5. I believe that people who say “It’s just my opinion” Truly know that they are wrong. Still can’t wait for that one to die in a fire.
  6. I don’t think Boris Johnson, actually cares about anything. Other than what he can get out of being PM. He’s different from Trump, in that, Trump finds the power intoxicating. Whereas Johnson is like “whatever…I got Brexit through”. Do you know what I mean? From what I’ve seen, it seems like Johnson just lets his Ministers do what ever they want, and he just backs them.
  7. I believe that Brian Laundrie parents, know where Brian has been. If these remains are his remains, I am never going to assume that his parents knew that he might harm himself. But one does have to remember, these are Brian Laundrie’s PARENTS. Personally, I would be trying to get my son to turn himself in and talk with the police. If he ran away, I’d be horrified by that, and I would still be trying to turn himself in. But I also get what these parents are doing.

A little life update

After today, I thought that I would give a little update.

I’m through to the second round for the job, that I’ve had to be putting other things off for. Now, I’m like, I find it still interesting, but there are so many reasons why I’ve gone off of it.

The biggest one being, they said it was casual and I’ve applied for positions like it before. So I did think maybe it’s a few days a week, working autonomously all day, a couple of days a week. I can handle that…It’s full time though!

The other reason though, is the location. It’s out of the way, and the way I thought that was possible. Only seems possible at certain times, so if I need to leave early, or need to get there a bit later, it has to be taxi.

And thirdly, it only lasts for two years! I’m looking for something more permanent and possibly part-time. I’m 37, with no children, want a couple, what happens if I get pregnant half way through! When I’m ready to go back, I’ll be in the same position I am now. No job, lol. My partner did give me some advice (due to me not being able to refuse suitable work, or I get cut off). If I get offered a position, keep looking for work I want, permanent part-time. So not only will I still have a job, but I wont have to worry about welfare/social security. Which actually seems reasonable.

My partner is really smart.

Oh, I’m still streaming…I’m up to 6 streamers now =D Which considering I started off with 0, it’s going well =D

Which you can watch me here Lady Lolsy … I believe it shows my schedule, but in your time … I think. This is another thing that worries me though. I have been really enjoying the streams. I don’t know if I’d have the energy, if I get this job.

I’m old! lol

But I have also decided, you know what, I’m going to write a book! Get serious about. I have been so inspired by writers and bloggers on here. My Aunt said to me, that I should definitely write a book. That I have a really imaginative mind, and that I think about a lot of things from different perspectives. I might even be able to write a self-help kind of book. My brother said (even though I’m not supposed to know) that I am a very insightful person.

Just a couple of little things. So now what I have to do, if wait and see what happens with this position, I will still keep applying for jobs at the moment. There’s one that I want more than this one. And it’s perfect for me, it’s with a teachers registration board, close by (living wise) AND part time permanent! I am going to focus on that job application tomorrow.

Personal Choices…

I know that none of you are on my Facebook (it’s Lauren Boltron Bolton) by the way. However, I have decided at this time, to not post on their anymore. The only people I really hear from are from people I never hear from to tell how wrong they think I am. Or people who liked everything I post. Which is completely fine, but I can keep liking and commenting on their posts anyway.

I think what “annoys me” is that these are people I know in “real life”. Yet, I don’t think they know the first thing about me…Maybe it’s a South Australia thing? None of these people know about my blog, my streaming, my “other” Instagram book account. Which you all know about. I just feel like there is no reason to “be” on there anymore. I don’t really get that much fulfillment out of FB anyway.

My mum and I were just talking about it last night, and she was saying how she knows there are couple of people she can stay friends with. Mainly because, one of them, their partner had a bad reaction to the Astra vaccine, but her friend is still going to get the second dose anyway. Even though, she has a really good reason to be afraid, she’s sensible enough to realise, that just because her husband had a bad reaction, didn’t mean she did.

I said to my mum, I’ve got a couple of friends like that, but we all suffer from bad anxiety issues, lol. So it’s hard to meet up with them. The rest though. I’ve lost a lot of respect for quiet a few, and not all to do with COVID. Some, even though they’ve been in Australia since the 70’s/80’s, they’re still strong Monarchist’s. The Monarchy can do wrong. Meghans the devil. Not just “Hate” Meghan, but full on “I’m British, I know how the system works, she’s lying”.

One) You’ve lived in Australia since the 70’s.

Two) You’re not and have never been part of the Royal Family, or it’s “systems”.

Three) The place you do actually work in, you know how it works and that’s why you know it’s not working. On the outside you have to pretend that everything “works” where you work. Apart from the Royal Family, NONE, of us “know how the system works”.

The problem with the State I’m in, it’s not a big city. We were the first freely settled colony in Australia (meaning we weren’t settled by criminals, but “free people). We’re the third most livable city in the world. But the people…lol. Once you’re in a group, you’re in it. Think six degrees of Kevin Bacon. You can go with another group, but you have a high chance of bumping into the other people. As some “bitches” have realised. Too not really bump into people you know, you have to live on opposite sides of the state.

One week!

Okay, next week…My website is going up. I am doing it! No more putting it off! Yes, money is a big part of it, haha =D

This week I completed a advanced spreadsheet class, as part of study that I’m doing. It was a big part of way I was putting it off. I realised how handy spreadsheets can be, especially when you’re doing something on your own. Like, there is SO much you can do! This next is going to be setting up a spreadsheet to help myself.

I also still haven’t been able to figure out how to cancel payments, or give refunds. Which is pretty important, lol.

Share Your World – April Fools Week 2019

Share Your World – 1/4/19

Share Your World

Rhetorical Questions, but feel free to answer if you’d like:

Why is it called “beauty sleep” when one wakes up looking like a troll??

If anyone is like me, the reason it’s called a “Beauty Sleep” is because of Sleeping Beauty. Sometimes when you sleep, it can feel like you’ve slept for an age. That’s just my theory anyway.

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Why do they sterilize needles for lethal injections?

I guess it’s just a standard? Here in Australia, even though we don’t have lethal injections anymore. I would guess that they would still need to be sterilised, as some sort of standard practice. If who ever encounters the needle gets stabbed themselves, for whatever reason. Then they wont be infected either. There’s a lot of clumsy people out there. I managed to get a paper bag cut while food shopping the other day.

Why do most cars have speedometers that go up to at least 130 when you legally can’t go that fast on any road?

That one I have absolutely no idea. I actually talked about this a few weeks ago with my partner. He said he doesn’t really understand either. There comes a speed when you can’t even control the car after a certain speed…So who knows.

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Did they purposely make dyslexia hard to spell?

Yes!lol…I actually suffer from dyslexia myself and it took me a while to remember how to spell it properly. I always feel stupid if I get the letters mixed up.

(Rather naughty):  If quizzes are quizzical, what are tests?

Test…ical =D lol


Odd but a bit philosophical or personal:

What are some things that are okay to do occasionally but definitely not okay to do every day?

Eat a whole pack of nacho Doritos…I’d like to be able too…But, probably, not the best idea for me.

What is the most embarrassing thing you have ever worn?

I actually wrote about this a few weeks ago. I was helping my Pa build a bit of a dingy years and year ago. I wore these legging that were really baggy, like really badly baggy. But I wasn’t wearing them to make a fashion statement. However my brother and cousin are really into Fashion and would not stop paying me out.

In your opinion, what’s the best type of cheese?

Jarlsberg Cheese…It is so freaking good! I feel like drooling just thinking about it.

What are some fun ways to answer everyday questions like “how’s it going” or “what do you do”?

I honestly have no idea.


Miscellaneous:

Have you ever sent a text message to the wrong person?   Details please.

I have actually, but it really wasn’t that serious, which was lucky! … Or not depending on you look at the situation. I have accidentally sent a text to my Dad that was meant for my partner. Which could have been truly horrifying! As you can imagine! Luckily all I was texting my partner about was dinner that night. I say, not so lucky, because then I ended up having to talk to my Dad. Talking to my Dad is always a chore, he sort of expects you to talk to him. So he’ll send a text that usually wouldn’t require a response, but he expects one.

If you could make a rule for a day, and everyone had to follow it, what would it be?

Before you post or reply to something online, you have to wait at least 5 minutes AND do some actual research before you post. No posting a picture with words on it, ie, memes. You HAVE to be able to back it up with some actual facts.

You are about to get in a fight, what song comes on your mind soundtrack?

There are so many and it depends who you are fighting and why you are fighting, or am I thinking about this too much?lol

Ex-friends – Kill them with kindness – Selena Gomez…Namaste…lol

General person on the street – Eye of the Tiger – Survivor…Well I assume this one, this has never actually happened to me,lol…I have never gotten into a fight with some randomly on the street.

If it’s my Mum – Mama – Spice Girls…lol


Share a joke, if you know a good one!

Best Not…Don’t want to lose my “cool” image =Plol

Don’t Worry be Happy

A couple of weeks ago I had the weirdest day I had had in such a long time. I was going for my L’s Theory test and the first thing that happened was I bumped into someone from high school and we had a chat about my ex friends from high school and that situation. Then I went and did the test and went across the road to the local mall and walked pass this girl that has never liked me and she recently unfriended me on Facebook. (I don’t know when she did it, but we both got tagged in something and that’s when I realised, because I don’t go to her page) Since I don’t have an issue with her, I smiled and she gave me the coldest shoulder (and no smile) I have ever received.

I had to laugh and shake my head…It’s ridiculous!

I’ve always had this feeling that she’s thought that there’s some sort of competition between us…and I just genuinely do not give a…

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I don’t even understand it because all the guys in this group love her. She’s done these horrible things and they still love her, so that’s them, not me. I don’t like how she’s treated people (myself included) but it’s not like they don’t know what she’s done. Maybe it’s because I don’t worship her or something like that? Generally I don’t do that for anyone, not even with celebrity. I’ve never understood that frame of mind.

Anyways, I digress,

I laughed and shook my head because it made me realise something. I don’t have time or the mental space to worry about people’s make believe problems anymore. How privileged she should feel that someone who doesn’t really care about her…Doesn’t care about her, but everyone else still loves her…I would LOVE to have those problems!

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