I ONLY made it to midnight because the cat kept grab what he could get at. I feel asleep very quickly. Went to bed feeling all achy, woke up still feeling achy. I don’t know if this is a sign of the year!
This is my very tired attempt of wishing you all a Happy New Year. While I have not into this new year with the same optimism that I did last year. After all, if you expect disappointment, you be so surprised when you get disappointment…BUT!
I think, in honour of Betty White. We should continually remind ourselves “What Would Betty White Do!”.
I am going to try and now get through some of your posts, but I am feeling just terrible and can’t sit for long. So, don’t be surprised to see me liking and commenting posts at different times today.
Also, to this beautiful WordPress Blogging community…
I don’t need a new year new me, I am doing really well =D Why mess with perfection, haha
It’s so nice to be free. This is going to be long, because it’s been a long year, haha
Well, if you hadn’t been paying attention this year. I have been “standing with” and for trans rights. I have few close female friends, because I know how horrible women can be. Especially white women! Like, when you think about it. Be honest, when a woman has bullied you, harassed you, lied about you, backstabbed, wants to be an wanna be mean girls…They’re always white. It’s just a fact of life. We white women need so to do SO much better! Someone really important said “Until we are all coffee coloured, there’ll be no peace”.
I want to give a big shout to the trans community. I have learnt SO much because of you. I have learnt when to speak, when to listen, like actually listen. When to keep my emotions together. How to help without the use of social media. You have helped keep my ego in check.
Do you all realise how wonderful Science is? Like turn off the tv and go research some Science! I swear once you start understand, you understand.
Here are some facts I learnt this and some that I already know, guess ~.^
Trans women can breast feed
The trans community HAVE existed since before Christianity. Just were given different names, obviously.
Human Beings are DEFINITELY more than their reproductive organs.
JKRowling is just a terrible human being.
Being cis or trans isn’t that complicated. You are one or the other, or you are non-binary. Here’s the best thing, you get to decide for yourself! Your body, your choice!
Being a bigot will cost you everything, being kind costs nothing. It just makes sense.
Pronouns are quiet simple
Being hard, doesn’t mean you’re not soft and unkind.
Everyone needs to find something that they can honestly believe in, that comes at no harm to others or yourself.
Everyone claiming to have been cancelled, have been more vocal than ever before. Unless you die, “being cancelled” is just fake news.
There are always people who support love more than hate. It voted Trump out! Now let love vote Morrison out, but you know through voting.
A virus doesn’t care about “my body my choice” It’s a virus. It does not care about your body or your choices.
Some people just never really leave high school.
Pose should have been the new “Sex and the City”.
I have an AMAZING family!
Things I have achieved and done this year.
Started streaming, and my goodness I LOVE it! I’ve managed to find myself a really sweet and kind community. Although I am not a licensed therapist (and I remind people of this frequently). The discussions we have, have been awesome! And I’ve only had to block two people for being crude =D
I LOVE my new job! Oh my god, the people are awesome, the work…while repetitive, is so interesting! And we all get along, even though we may not always agree. I think I’ve found what I’m supposed to do…Well, you know, until I win the lottery, haha!
I did the famous Leonard family “over catering” haha.
Been blocked by a lot of transphobes, hahahaha =D
Lost the cat, but it’s really his achievement that he came back…Hahahaa
I don’t want to get to deep into this for very clear reasons. She has been the biggest inspiration in my life. I am sure that if she was of “sound mind”, she’d tell me not get upset about her situation and keep living! This is why you LIVE every single moment of the day. Grow BEYOND high school.
And remember loving yourself, IS freeing. I feel so sorry for those with Narcissistic Personality Disorder. They don’t love anyone or anything. It’s true. It must be lonely.
This year, I didn’t really want to make goals to just fail in the first couple of weeks in the new year. So I sat and thought about what I really want to do next year. I don’t think that I need to make goals persay. But I just want to do something better than I did the past year.
This is where you all come in. One thing I wish I had done more of this past year, was hang out with people again. Anxiety wise I think that I’m getting better. I still have off days, I probably always will. What I want to try and achieve this year is to honour my friends and family more. I have absolutely no idea how to do this though. I’m not sure I even know what that means.
This where I need your help. I know what to honour people means, but how do you do individually or in a group? How do you reach out to try and find out how you can help better, individual people.
I have cried so many happy tears this year, realising how lucky that I am. Because I really am. It’s been one of those years where I’ve realised that sometimes families make the best friends and friends make the best family. This is why I want to honour YOU. Of course I’ve had bad thing happened, had to stop talking to a person or two. Generally, I am actually really lucky. When I’ve had to stop talking to the people or two, or realised that I’ve lost a “friend”. It was you who was there.
I feel like I’ve found my voice a lot more this year. It is irritating, I am very aware of this. When you think you’ve finally found it, it’s fantastic! You can’t shut up and I wont apologise for it. I know some worry that I get too caught up, but I am very aware of myself. I know when it’s getting too much. So I come off of social media for a bit, get myself together. I have really gotten into listening to my body and mind this year. I think I had forgotten too.
All those people who told me I should be more like this person, or that person, or this person said this so I should do this too. Or they are going to block me until I get my shit together. I am me, that’s it. I still find it funny that a bunch of “good guys” told me that I should be more like another girl. Which even if I did turn into that girl, I still wouldn’t be with them. She only likes taken men. Sooooooooo…I still couldn’t be with them…Idiots.
Every year, I think of a song that I think represents me in some way. Once again, we have Taylor Swift,lol I LOVE this song! It such a good song in so many different ways! I listen to it when I actually need to calm down. But there’s one bunch of lyrics, that I feel my female friends that have stuck with me this year, need to replay to themselves. This is how I feel about you. I send my female friends and family a BIG thank you this year!
And we see you over there on the internet
Comparing all the girls who are killing it
But we figured you out
We all know now we all got crowns
I LOVE you ladies, everyone single one of you! You are proof that Ladies and Queen exist and not just in fairy tales! ❤ You are all amazing! ❤ I hope this new year, you embrace and just plain old kill it out there!
I have a Blog Post coming up that is thanking a lot of people and what they have done for me this year (including you all). The post is kind of I’m not really making resolutions next year. Then I thought that instead of resolutions, I was going to make plans instead. I feel like if I write resolutions, they just wont happen. I don’t know what it is, but for some reason as soon I say or write “resolution”, it just wont happen. It has to be something psychological.
Here are some plans that I have for 2018:
Make my Blog more “book” orientated.
Make my Instagram more blog orientated.
I have bought a 2018 planner/organiser and I’ve already started using
Get people phone numbers and addresses, I used to have them on my phone. Then one day (I must have had an update) and they were all gone!
Exercise a lot more.
Meditate a lot more.
I want to start travelling again, this last year I haven’t been able to travel. Since I have travel anxiety.
I want to throw a couple of parties and make one of them themed….Like a fun way of saying thank you to those who have helped me this year.
I would love to get into streaming, but I am so nervous!
I am definitely going to start doing more Christmas, people really loved my Christmas cards. They were great because you can make them to match the person’s personal personality or interests.
Spend less money on clothes! I had one of those years where I bought things only on sale. After time though you realise you are still spending a lot on clothes.
How old were you when you learned your most lessons? This question was asked a couple of months ago and I thought that it was a great question to ask myself at the end of this year.
Each year I learn something different, it’s not just about learning something new every day, but what have you learnt that’s new about yourself this year?
This year I have stopped giving a damn so much. I have stopped being so silent and not saying anything when I feel passionate about something…And you know what? The same people who have always been there for me, are still here with me. I got unfriended so much on Facebook this year and I DON’T care. It’s been really freeing. I still get frustrated by those who I have a conversation with and they unfriend me the next week, but that frustration lasts about as long as it took you to read this sentence ~.^ Some people I’ve had awkward conversations with because I’ve had no idea that they have unfriended me,lol
Some people are only features in your life’s journey.
I feel so powerful and even with the health issues that have “hindered” me this year, I have been pushing through, fighting my own mind. I can proudly say that I am proud of myself this year. I don’t care anymore, but neither have I become heartless either. In fact, I feel like my heart has opened even more. Through all of the discussion and so forth I’ve taken part in this year, it’s opened me up to a whole new world.
There are very bad people out there and people have lost a lot of “common sense”, but the good always outweighs the bad.
Well, my first mistake was tryna please everybody
Only to realize I ain’t need anybody (nobody)
But all I ever wanted was acceptance
‘Til I accepted myself, now I can check that off my checklist
I am no longer checking for your guest list
Or where I land on your best list
I look at my reflection and it tells me who the best is
So I could never do it like the rest did
Another end of the year and I am sure that there will be thousands of posts today about today and all the resolutions.
I know people are waiting for some emo post (especially on my Facebook page) but I just want to say I don’t really have anything to complain about this year. Sure it’s not all been amazing and I was disappointed a lot, but most of it has been…“The good things don’t always soften the bad things, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant” That’s my theme for this year. I got rid of a lot of toxic things, people and the way I think. I have had so much fun and when the good things have happened, they have been uh-mazing! I have great family, amazing friends and I am particularly proud of myself too, I have accomplished a lot personally =D
What did you do in 2014 that you’d never done before?
I swam with dolphins, I still can’t get over surreal that whole experience was! Amazing! I walked Mt Lofty and lived to tell the tale! (I did do it when I was younger, but I barely remember it). I changed my hair a different colour and it now it’s turned into this fabulous colour that I have actually always wanted my hair to be. I have done more little personal things that I’ve not done before. Going on an online dating site and actually meeting someone decent,lol
I don’t really have anything to complain about this year. Sure it’s not all been amazing and I was disappointed a lot, but most of it has been…“The good things don’t always soften the bad things, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant” That’s my theme for this year.
I got rid of a lot of toxic things, people and the way I think. I have had so much fun and when the good things have happened, they have been uh-mazing! I have great family, amazing friends and I am particularly proud of myself too, I have accomplished a lot personally =D
Thank you so much for those who have been SO amazing this year and my birthday…I don’t know how I am going to live up to it next year!lol…I take my hat off to my awesome life and every single person who has made it so =D
It is no secret fact that the end of a year, any year, it makes people reflect and look back at the year and decide what they wish to improve on for the new year coming.
Last year what I did was instead of making resolutions for the year coming, I made a list of what I was going to leave behind in the past year. I actually found this was really a lot better than making promises into the future. Mainly because we don’t know what the future holds for us. So instead of promising myself that I would “lose weight” I worked on writing less emo-type posts.
I found that by making promises to myself of what I’m leaving behind, I could concentrate on that. I could work on myself and then I was able to work on things that were thrown at me in my future, things that I didn’t see coming. I have to say that personally it did work for me, so I shall be doing that again. Instead of starting new problems, I decided to work on old issues of mine so that I could leave them behind.
Here are a couple of things that I will be leaving behind in 2015:
Less talking about my ex’s, so I can concentrate on my new partner
Being unproductive and be more proactive on finding a job IN a Library, rather than just having a job.
MORE motivation for meditation!
What are your “tricks” for the New Year? Do you make resolutions, or do you do something else instead, make a goal for the new year?
Having a conversation with my Mum and we both agree…The sales (both online and in store) are the most depressing time of the year. I don’t know how people can spend just SO much straight after Christmas! I have no money, it is so depressing. My mums depressed…I’m depressed…It’s all just to much!lol…So much beautiful clothing for sale!!!
I’m waiting to see if there are any sale after New Years =D