How’s it going?….One week!

So it’s been a week since the New Year, and I just wanted to check in and see how you are all feeling.

So far:

  • I’ve updated my resume
  • Organised my employment electronic folders – Payslips, contract etc.
  • I think I got my partner excited about seeing a mortgage broker, to purchase his own house…I think,lol
  • I’ve started wearing my “fancy” dresses just out. What’s the point of a pretty dress, if you never wear it?lol
  • We’ve start to get rid of a lot of clothes that my partner never wears anymore.
  • I’ve gotten a good clean out in my own room, organising Christmas gifts.

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New Year Tag

I’ve been tagged in a couple of things at the start of this year. I thought that I should start with the New Year Tag, as it’s the closest to New Year still. Thank you to Bereaved Single Dad for this tag, you should all go and check out his Blog! Amazing writer and you should see the pictures! Such good photography and an amazing Dad who is facing a lot of “obstacles” from another stupid Government!

HERE IS HOW TO PARTICIPATE:

  1. Share a link back to the person who tagged you.
  2. Share a link to the person who created the tag- jesusluvsall.wordpress.com
  3. Share a favorite New Year’s Memory
  4. Answer the questions of the person who tagged you.
  5. Tag whoever you want.
  6. Use any picture that you like for New Years’.

Share a favorite New Year’s Memory

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I was trying to get a picture of myself, my partner and our cat before my partner and I left. I may have possibly gotten my partner to wake the cat up so we could get a picture,lol. Believe it or not, this was the best picture of the cat,lol.

The questions.
1- IF YOU COULD CELEBRATE THE NEW YEAR ANYWHERE. WHERE WOULD IT BE?

Oh, there are so many places that I would love to be in at New Years. Ireland, Disney-world, that New Years ball drop down thing. Egypt, at the Parthenon. Everyone says in Australia, that you should celebrate New Years, at least once in Sydney. It’s not worth it, unless you have property on the river, or a boat. It’s really not that exciting, you can’t even send text messages out. It’s a big fire works show really. Then you spend about 4 hours trying to get back again.

2- WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SNACK FOOD FOR NEW YEAR?

I don’t think that I have a favourite snack food, just for new years. I have foods that I love over the whole holiday period, so turkey, cream cheese and cranberry together. Corn relish, ham. Mango, watermelon. It’s Summer during December and January.

3- HAVE YOU EVER KEPT A NEW YEAR’S RESOLUTION? IF SO, WHAT WAS IT?

I don’t think I ever have. I’ve stopped making resolutions and just made promises to myself. I find that works better for me.

4- WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO WITH YOUR BLOG NEXT YEAR?

I know where I want to take it…Let’s see if that happens! I’m too chicken to say. I’ve talked and written about it a lot, but I feel like it might happen this year.

5- DO YOU PREFER A BIG PARTY OR A SMALL GATHERING TO CELEBRATE? 

As I’ve gotten older, I’ve started to realise that I prefer smaller gatherings over bigger ones. Good conversation and good drink, is all I need.

ONE MEMORY

My current partner and I actually kissed for the first time on New Years and became official. There is another memory though, that I remember just as fondly and it happened the year before. I went Spanish/Latin dancing and I had so much fun! I hadn’t done it in years, and I was dancing with all these guys…Who I realised later, that none of my friends even knew who they were. I just got so caught up!

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My Nominations (absolutely no pressure, only do this if you really want to)

I chose to honour you…Especially the women in my life..Bye, little girls!

This year, I didn’t really want to make goals to just fail in the first couple of weeks in the new year. So I sat and thought about what I really want to do next year. I don’t think that I need to make goals persay. But I just want to do something better than I did the past year.

This is where you all come in. One thing I wish I had done more of this past year, was hang out with people again. Anxiety wise I think that I’m getting better. I still have off days, I probably always will. What I want to try and achieve this year is to honour my friends and family more. I have absolutely no idea how to do this though. I’m not sure I even know what that means.

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This where I need your help. I know what to honour people means, but how do you do individually or in a group? How do you reach out to try and find out how you can help better, individual people.

I have cried so many happy tears this year, realising how lucky that I am. Because I really am. It’s been one of those years where I’ve realised that sometimes families make the best friends and friends make the best family. This is why I want to honour YOU. Of course I’ve had bad thing happened, had to stop talking to a person or two. Generally, I am actually really lucky. When I’ve had to stop talking to the people or two, or realised that I’ve lost a “friend”. It was you who was there.

I feel like I’ve found my voice a lot more this year. It is irritating, I am very aware of this. When you think you’ve finally found it, it’s fantastic! You can’t shut up and I wont apologise for it. I know some worry that I get too caught up, but I am very aware of myself. I know when it’s getting too much. So I come off of social media for a bit, get myself together. I have really gotten into listening to my body and mind this year. I think I had forgotten too.

All those people who told me I should be more like this person, or that person, or this person said this so I should do this too. Or they are going to block me until I get my shit together. I am me, that’s it. I still find it funny that a bunch of “good guys” told me that I should be more like another girl. Which even if I did turn into that girl, I still wouldn’t be with them. She only likes taken men. Sooooooooo…I still couldn’t be with them…Idiots.

Every year, I think of a song that I think represents me in some way. Once again, we have Taylor Swift,lol I LOVE this song! It such a good song in so many different ways! I listen to it when I actually need to calm down. But there’s one bunch of lyrics, that I feel my female friends that have stuck with me this year, need to replay to themselves. This is how I feel about you. I send my female friends and family a BIG thank you this year!

And we see you over there on the internet
Comparing all the girls who are killing it
But we figured you out
We all know now we all got crowns

I LOVE you ladies, everyone single one of you! You are proof that Ladies and Queen exist and not just in fairy tales! ❤ You are all amazing! ❤ I hope this new year, you embrace and just plain old kill it out there!

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The War is won! Believe it!

I don’t know how many readers of my Blog are aware of this. I don’t get that excited at the New Year, New Year. I know it’s a New Year in terms of a new calendar year. Too me though, I feel like a “new year” really begins on our birthday.

I had the weirdest experience on the bus today going to work and I think it has a lot to do with this belief of mine. I am learning to drive at the moment, so for the time being I am still travelling by bus and may continue to do after. I don’t mind the bus really, especially when the weather is nice. That’s for another day though.

As I coming to work I was listening to Thirty Second to Mars “This is War”. Now I don’t know if you know this reader, I have a video clip for every single song on my iPod, that is not the original video clip. So there I am on the bus, thinking of the video clip I had thought to this song. When it gets to certain lyrics of the song:

I do believe in the light, raise your hands up to the sky
The fight is done, the war is won, lift your hands towards the sun
Towards the sun, (it’s the moment of truth and the moment to lie
It’s the moment to live and the moment to die, the moment to fight)
Towards the sun,
Towards the sun, (it’s the moment of truth and the moment to lie
It’s the moment to live and the moment to die, the moment to fight)
The war is won (to fight, to fight, to fight, to fight)

I nearly start blubbering like a baby on the bus, luckily I had to get off just as it was starting.

I think it had to do, before I left for work this morning. I had had being having a conversation where I admitted that no matter what my ex-friends says about me, no matter what people who have a problem with and wont talk to me. No matter what they say, no matter how long they stay friends with each other for. I genuinely believe I AM, and will always, be the better friend.

I am not miserable when my friends are happy, I am miserable when they are, it disturbs me to know “friends” are only when happy when I’m miserable. If I hear something about someone I don’t think rings true, I will ASK that person. I don’t gossip behind their backs and tag them in passive aggressive memes with no actual “burn”, because the gossip isn’t true, and I don’t just ignore them. I don’t just gossip and NEVER ask the actual person they’re talking about. We are not in High School anymore. I will ask.

There is no fight, there is no War, because I am better. I am the better person and I BELIEVE that now.

That’s the difference…I actually do BELIEVE that I am the better person.

The End.

John Lennon

 

Share Your World, Jan 1st week, 2019

Share Your World

Share Your World 31-12-18

This Week’s Questions:

For the parents in the crowd:  What would be the absolute worst name you might give your child? If you’re not a parent (I’m not), then what’s the worst name you could give your pet?

Oh, there are so many bad names out there! I have seen so many lately, that it’s hard to tell if these parents were serious or not…One women (you might have even heard of her) She named her daughter “Abcde” I am not even kidding. It’s pronounced Ab-see-dee…Which is actually nice, but the way she’s spelt it.

What mildly annoying curse might you wish you could curse annoying people with?

I think that I would probably to give them a cold, just annoying enough, that it is annoying. Not one that makes them completely incapable, just one that bugs them.

What’s the weirdest thing you did as a child?

I got into this really odd habit when I was child, of plucking my eyelashes, pretty much till I had none left. I don’t remember why I started, or even when or why I stopped, but I remember doing it.

Do you believe things happen for a reason or are random?

I think it’s a little bit of:
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And Finally, in the spirit of New Year’s:   What’s a resolution (if you make them, I don’t) you’re making for the New Year?   How confident are you in keeping it a reasonable amount of time?

The best resolution I make is with Goodreads. All the others very rarely happen.

New Year “Plans”

I have a Blog Post coming up that is thanking a lot of people and what they have done for me this year (including you all). The post is kind of I’m not really making resolutions next year. Then I thought that instead of resolutions, I was going to make plans instead. I feel like if I write resolutions, they just wont happen. I don’t know what it is, but for some reason as soon I say or write “resolution”, it just wont happen. It has to be something psychological.

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Here are some plans that I have for 2018:

  1. Make my Blog more “book” orientated.
  2. Make my Instagram more blog orientated.
  3. I have bought a 2018 planner/organiser and I’ve already started using
  4. Get people phone numbers and addresses, I used to have them on my phone. Then one day (I must have had an update) and they were all gone!
  5. Exercise a lot more.
  6. Meditate a lot more.
  7. I want to start travelling again, this last year I haven’t been able to travel. Since I have travel anxiety.
  8. I want to throw a couple of parties and make one of them themed….Like a fun way of saying thank you to those who have helped me this year.
  9. I would love to get into streaming, but I am so nervous!
  10. I am definitely going to start doing more Christmas, people really loved my Christmas cards. They were great because you can make them to match the person’s personal personality or interests.
  11. Spend less money on clothes! I had one of those years where I bought things only on sale. After time though you realise you are still spending a lot on clothes.

Do you have resolutions or plans?

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The Christmas Spirit

So these last two weeks of 2017 (can you believe it!) I am going to try and keep myself and all of my posts as positive as I can. I like to go into a New Year with a positive outlook. This may mean though restricting my time on social media…It just has gotten too vile and nasty…I cannot take it Captain…There’ll be one positive story and then 11 ugly ones.

It’s been a pretty cruddy year for myself and I am only starting to feel better now. Even so, I keep having off days. I keep having at least one night as week where I don’t fall asleep until 4am…and I love my sleep! Sleeping Beauty is one of my top 5 favourite Princesses because of it! I am looking into natural ways to help me sleep, I don’t feel I need a prescription, just that little something “extra”.

I WANT TO LIVE AGAIN!!!

This is honestly feels like how it’s been in my brain…all year!

 

Happy Chinese New Year!

Just a bit of  a different Blog over the weekend (I don’t usually post over the weekend) Just to say a big Happy Chinese New Year! This year it’s the Year of the Rooster…I am a Rat =D

Chinese New Year 2017: Year of the Rooster, do’s and don’ts

This year I discovered new in that in Chinese astrology each zodiac year is associated with an animal sign, plus one of the five elements – so 2017 is the year of the rooster, and the element is fire. It’s apparently a rare combination and was last seen in 1957, and can have a good or bad outcome depending for those who are prepared to work hard.

One of the funny things is is that the first “Do” is to visit family and wish them prosperity and good fortune. The reason this is such a doable thing for me is I am already visiting my family today, to wish my cousin luck. Since he’s going to South America for 8 months. Don’t wear red if you’re a Rooster! Apparently that’s your unlucky colour.

Personally, I like the more Asian type “religions” or “Beliefs” I don’t really relate at all to the more first world and Western type religions. I don’t know why. I just prefer them, which probably sounds completely blase. I don’t mean any disrespect by sounding so blase about it. I’ve met with Buddhist monks before and participate in their ceremonies, mainly watching them. Maybe somewhere in my past lives I was a Monk…Or something similar.

What Chinese Astrology sign are you? Are you a Rooster? Do you celebrate Chinese New Year at all?

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Bye 2016 … Hello 2017 … Questions

How old were you when you learned your most lessons? This question was asked a couple of months ago and I thought that it was a great question to ask myself at the end of this year.

Each year I learn something different, it’s not just about learning something new every day, but what have you learnt that’s new about yourself this year?

This year I have stopped giving a damn so much. I have stopped being so silent and not saying anything when I feel passionate about something…And you know what? The same people who have always been there for me, are still here with me. I got unfriended so much on Facebook this year and I DON’T care. It’s been really freeing. I still get frustrated by those who I have a conversation with and they unfriend me the next week, but that frustration lasts about as long as it took you to read this sentence ~.^ Some people I’ve had awkward conversations with because I’ve had no idea that they have unfriended me,lol

Some people are only features in your life’s journey.

I feel so powerful and even with the health issues that have “hindered” me this year, I have been pushing through, fighting my own mind. I can proudly say that I am proud of myself this year. I don’t care anymore, but neither have I become heartless either. In fact, I feel like my heart has opened even more. Through all of the discussion and so forth I’ve taken part in this year, it’s opened me up to a whole new world.

There are very bad people out there and people have lost a lot of “common sense”, but the good always outweighs the bad.

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Well, my first mistake was tryna please everybody
Only to realize I ain’t need anybody (nobody)
But all I ever wanted was acceptance
‘Til I accepted myself, now I can check that off my checklist
I am no longer checking for your guest list
Or where I land on your best list
I look at my reflection and it tells me who the best is
So I could never do it like the rest did