Blogging…What’s it all about?

I was linked to a Blog a little while ago and it’s stuck with me for a while, mainly because it started out as a good acknowledgement, but then my Blog was called “Simple and…Stupid”…I don’t think that it was meant with harm or harshness. The word “stupid” though obviously stuck with me and I didn’t know whether or not to say “Thank you”.

It’s stayed with me and ever since then it’s been bothering me and I have been trying to “improve” my Blog ever since. With anything that makes you feel like you need to change when you didn’t think there was a problem before, I couldn’t come up with anything mind blowing or life changing. I have my moments with those things, but I can never force myself to think that well 24/7.

SO I’ve been getting upset, but then I started to think. I don’t need my Blog to be complicated and thought-provoking ALL the time. I don’t mind my Blog seeming “simple” to people. Life is full of enough complications and as much as I want my Blog to feel good to others and uplift people, it doesn’t always have to be the most “complicated” Blog to achieve this. I have a personal journal where I write a lot of my thoughts, come up with sayings and express a dark part of myself.

If you want a Blog with simple thoughts by a girl whose’s just going through life as we all do at our own pace, this is the one for you. I have my complicated thoughts, but I don’t think that’s what I’m here for, others may be, but I am not and I am okay with this. There are plenty of Blogs within WordPress with amazing writers, but never forget the little tiny bits that make up a day either. I think this Blogging site IS like a Library, full of different topics, experiences and types of writers that appeal to different people of different backgrounds.

Just one piece of advice, write your blog for YOU…You wont last with blogging if you are trying to be the next “big thing”. I consider myself to be an “expert”, if you will, with simple things, because I don’t understand making things more complicated than they are. I guess this has been reflecting in my Blog and I am alright with that. Oh! Don’t call another Blog stupid either, no matter the circumstances.

I hate loving you…

I hate that you made me feel,
I hate that you made me happy,
I hate that you made me feel safe and loved,
I hate that I fell in love with you.

I hate that I was strong and never needed anyone,
I hate that now all I want is for someone to hold me,
I hate that now all I want is to fall in love,
I hate that you made the voices in my head quiet.

Because now they’re back, stronger than before,
Making me feel…That time at night, when all I want is too sleep,
I wont think of you and then…BAM! There you are, front and centre,
The nightmares wont stop…I just want them too stop.

I hate that I don’t think I’ll stop feeling like this until I start to feel for someone else again.

I say all this but I don’t want you back. I just want to stop feeling like this.

I feel like a little lost light.