The War is won! Believe it!

I don’t know how many readers of my Blog are aware of this. I don’t get that excited at the New Year, New Year. I know it’s a New Year in terms of a new calendar year. Too me though, I feel like a “new year” really begins on our birthday.

I had the weirdest experience on the bus today going to work and I think it has a lot to do with this belief of mine. I am learning to drive at the moment, so for the time being I am still travelling by bus and may continue to do after. I don’t mind the bus really, especially when the weather is nice. That’s for another day though.

As I coming to work I was listening to Thirty Second to Mars “This is War”. Now I don’t know if you know this reader, I have a video clip for every single song on my iPod, that is not the original video clip. So there I am on the bus, thinking of the video clip I had thought to this song. When it gets to certain lyrics of the song:

I do believe in the light, raise your hands up to the sky
The fight is done, the war is won, lift your hands towards the sun
Towards the sun, (it’s the moment of truth and the moment to lie
It’s the moment to live and the moment to die, the moment to fight)
Towards the sun,
Towards the sun, (it’s the moment of truth and the moment to lie
It’s the moment to live and the moment to die, the moment to fight)
The war is won (to fight, to fight, to fight, to fight)

I nearly start blubbering like a baby on the bus, luckily I had to get off just as it was starting.

I think it had to do, before I left for work this morning. I had had being having a conversation where I admitted that no matter what my ex-friends says about me, no matter what people who have a problem with and wont talk to me. No matter what they say, no matter how long they stay friends with each other for. I genuinely believe I AM, and will always, be the better friend.

I am not miserable when my friends are happy, I am miserable when they are, it disturbs me to know “friends” are only when happy when I’m miserable. If I hear something about someone I don’t think rings true, I will ASK that person. I don’t gossip behind their backs and tag them in passive aggressive memes with no actual “burn”, because the gossip isn’t true, and I don’t just ignore them. I don’t just gossip and NEVER ask the actual person they’re talking about. We are not in High School anymore. I will ask.

There is no fight, there is no War, because I am better. I am the better person and I BELIEVE that now.

That’s the difference…I actually do BELIEVE that I am the better person.

The End.

John Lennon

 

Share Your World … January

Share Your World

Share Your World … January 

Would you prefer to receive a unicycle, bicycle, tricycle or motorcycle?

I have always wanted to ride a Motorcycle, but because I am so little I feel like riding a Motorcycle would be far too powerful for me to handle. I would rather not die.

What is one thing you’d like to accomplish this year?

If you see my next answer to the below question, you can tell what one of the would be. I would like to just start getting out a bit more, stop worrying so much. I am hoping to get a better job with much better and more steady hours. I just want to be able to do more of what I feel like I missed out on last year. I’ve got techniques and exercises that I am planning on using every couple of days now, rather than just when I feel some anxiety coming on.

What was one of the highlights of 2016 for you?

2016 was a little weird for me, I had a anxiety issue come up in August and it affected everything else that’s been going on for me. That ended up causing a lot of problems for me, which I have been doing something about and I am getting better. A lot of highlights for me was just getting through an event with worrying too much, or just forgetting I even had an issue.

Would you prefer to fly a kite or fly in a hot air balloon?

I would prefer to fly in a kite, I get motion sickness. Although I don’t think that it would be too bad flying in a hot air balloon. I just would rather not take that risk, what if it’s a bad day, or there’s a sudden gust of wind?! I would rather be able to relax and flying a kite just seems more relaxing to me.

I’m Back!

I am back from my short holiday interstate and it was such a great weekend…I was trying to write something this morning, but I just felt so tired. I was very lucky that I was not working today, because I’ve had this little bit of a headache, just at the front of my head.

I love to travel, I am not a very good flyer (I get motion sickness) but there is something about travelling and seeing a different state that can just motivate one. My Aunt and I were talking about how if we lived in Melbourne we’d probably get bored of it and she’s probably right…But I still really love it. I think that Melbourne is the state that my State should be modelling itself on and I think we are headed that way…However slowly. I am actually not a big Sydney fan, it’s just to busy.

I am looking forward to the rest of the week to see what happens. I need things to change!

7 Strange question that help you find your life purpose…

Scrawling through Facebook this morning and I see this article on my friends page and I go to read it thinking “Yeah, yeah another article telling us “What do you really love to do” and so on and so forth. I was genuinely surprised to read this article and I had so many “Wow” and Oprah lighting bulb moments reading and I just had to share this.

I’ve been so afraid to do things and I have felt like this is the year I start doing what I’ve been scared to do.

This article just almost spoke to me and made that lovely cold shiver down my spine happen. If you are feeling stuck or are at a cross roads about what you want to do, or what you think you should be doing, I highly, HIGHLY, suggest that you read this article.

7 Strange Questions That Help You Find your Life Purpose – Mark Manson

Manson, M 2014, ‘7 Strange questions that help you find your life purpose”, markmansonnet, blog,  <http://markmanson.net/life-purpose&gt; viewed 11/01/2015.

The Music in me…

I don’t believe that Music should be defined into which “genre” is better than the others. It needs to be defined by how it makes you feel. It needs to be defined by how it moves you…Music needs to be defined by YOU and no one else but you.

My dream is to walk down the aisle to “Nothing Else Matters” by Metallica, but dance with my father to “There you’ll be” by Faith Hill.

 

I hope you dance <3

(I am getting bad at making sure that these get posted on time!) This week I am going with more of a music magical Monday.

I have recently had a bit of a health scare and I wont know for roughly under a year what the outcome of that is going too be. So for the next year I think my mood is going to be very interesting to witness. However this experience has given me a massive mortality wake up call. Like with mortality scares it tends to make your mind think a little more morbidly.

There is a small amount of people in my life who know what’s really going on and by small I do mean less than the number of fingers I have on one hand…As well as you guys now. One of the beautiful things about this wake up call is it’s made me appreciate the real friendships and the real loves that I am lucky enough to have in my life. Especially of those who don’t actually know what’s going on, but are still by my side.

It has made me really stopped trying to impress everyone (which honestly I was getting no where with fast anyway). I am actually eating better now, instead of just going whatever, not that I’m obese or anything, just eating more healthier.

As I mentioned though my mind has gotten a little morbid including thinking about Funerals. At the same time there was only one song that I could think of that I would want to be played (I know, pretty morbid). The song I want though is so beautiful and absolutely reflects a lot of who I am and I could absolutely imagine myself saying this to a friend and I WANT my friends and family to remember this part of who I am ❤ Now there are two versions of this song, my personal favourite is sang by Ronan Keating the other is sang by Lee Ann Womack…I hope you enjoy!

Uploaded on November 30 2009

Music video by Ronan Keating performing I Hope You Dance
2004 Polydor Ltd. (UK)