What a weird week …

My anxiety has had me on edge all week. The only thing that has been been keeping me on track is Planet Zoo, also if any of you are on Steam, we should totally “hang out”.

What I would like to know though is …

The Phantom of the Opera

If I was to talk to about why this song makes me cry every time, I would cry, just talking about it. It not only reminds me of those I love who have passed, who loved me, fully. Pippy included. But it also helps me not be afraid, because I remember I was loved, and they wouldn’t want me to live in fear, They would want me to be out there, showing my talents, my thoughts, wear my heart on my sleeve. Live for them. And now I’m crying again, lol

I also woke up to a lot of feathers, I’ve posted a video on my Insta about it, but the splat you hear on the video ended up being the dead bird. Which turned out to be a pigeon. I promptly threw up and then locked the cat inside. I suspect, it was either the Ravens on the Magpies, I just hope it was a quick death, or the bird was dying. Then later on, it got worst. It had a tag around it’s leg =/ Which means it was somebodies pet, possibly racing pet. Still a pet though.

A lot of death today/tomorrow. Pippy passed away sometime this week, a year ago. I have a horrible feeling that’s it was tomorrow. I suspect Facebook and Instagram will gladly let me know that.

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The War is won! Believe it!

I don’t know how many readers of my Blog are aware of this. I don’t get that excited at the New Year, New Year. I know it’s a New Year in terms of a new calendar year. Too me though, I feel like a “new year” really begins on our birthday.

I had the weirdest experience on the bus today going to work and I think it has a lot to do with this belief of mine. I am learning to drive at the moment, so for the time being I am still travelling by bus and may continue to do after. I don’t mind the bus really, especially when the weather is nice. That’s for another day though.

As I coming to work I was listening to Thirty Second to Mars “This is War”. Now I don’t know if you know this reader, I have a video clip for every single song on my iPod, that is not the original video clip. So there I am on the bus, thinking of the video clip I had thought to this song. When it gets to certain lyrics of the song:

I do believe in the light, raise your hands up to the sky
The fight is done, the war is won, lift your hands towards the sun
Towards the sun, (it’s the moment of truth and the moment to lie
It’s the moment to live and the moment to die, the moment to fight)
Towards the sun,
Towards the sun, (it’s the moment of truth and the moment to lie
It’s the moment to live and the moment to die, the moment to fight)
The war is won (to fight, to fight, to fight, to fight)

I nearly start blubbering like a baby on the bus, luckily I had to get off just as it was starting.

I think it had to do, before I left for work this morning. I had had being having a conversation where I admitted that no matter what my ex-friends says about me, no matter what people who have a problem with and wont talk to me. No matter what they say, no matter how long they stay friends with each other for. I genuinely believe I AM, and will always, be the better friend.

I am not miserable when my friends are happy, I am miserable when they are, it disturbs me to know “friends” are only when happy when I’m miserable. If I hear something about someone I don’t think rings true, I will ASK that person. I don’t gossip behind their backs and tag them in passive aggressive memes with no actual “burn”, because the gossip isn’t true, and I don’t just ignore them. I don’t just gossip and NEVER ask the actual person they’re talking about. We are not in High School anymore. I will ask.

There is no fight, there is no War, because I am better. I am the better person and I BELIEVE that now.

That’s the difference…I actually do BELIEVE that I am the better person.

The End.

 

Share Your World … Dec, Week 3, 2017

Share Your World – December 18, 2017

If you could hire someone to help you, would it be with cleaning, cooking, or yard work?

It would definitely be for the yard work! The most I have ever done is water the garden, or replace water when I get flowers. I am really not a “green thumb” type person. Funny story, I was asking questions about herbs for someone else on Facebook. That year for Christmas everyone gave me presents that had to do with gardening, because they thought I had taken it up. I guess they didn’t believe me this time when I said “Asking for a friend”lol

If you were to move and your home came fully furnished with everything you ever wanted, list at least three things from your old house you wish to retain?

I am currently moving between my mums house and my partners.

My mums shower…Everyone loves our shower, I miss my showers when I stay over at my partners.

My Mums couch, it’s just such a comfy place to sleep on! We have all fallen asleep and slept on it many a night.

My own bed, I love the bed cover, the pillow covers and I just fall asleep so easily…It’s all about the sleeping for me!lol

What calms you down?

I find that it depends on the situation what helps me to feel more calm. At the moment I have been listening to Celtic Music. I’ve been sitting down at the man-made wetlands and just putting my iPod and listening to Celtic music. I swear I must have been there in a past life or something. Mainly at the moment I’ve been listening to “Celtic Woman”. Especially this song! Listen to it full volume!

 

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What inspired you or what did you appreciate this past week?  Feel free to use a quote, a photo, a story, or even a combination.

 

 

Share Your World … Dec Week 1, 2017

Share Your World, December 4, 2017

What household chore do you absolutely hate doing?

Oh I know straight away which chores I hate doing! I hate doing the dishes, I hate doing either the cleaning/wiping and the drying. I am just so thankful that we have dishwashers these days. When you have to hand wash, it just takes forever and in the past, a lot of the times I used to get a bad back from doing it.

At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?

Actually it’s been quiet recently. I’ve been making Christmas Cards for people this year, instead of just buying them. It’s weird just, very much, sitting solitary, but doing crafts, I have really been enjoying it. Probably because it’s calming my brain doing and focusing on something not “anxiety” related.

How many times have you moved in the last ten years?

I haven’t really moved anywhere, but I did stay in America for a while on and off over 3 years and that was probably where I learnt a lot of my independent ways. I learnt how to cook, how to clean trick and bits.

What inspired you or what did you appreciate this past week?  Feel free to use a quote, a photo, a story, or even a combination. 

I’m Back!

I am back from my short holiday interstate and it was such a great weekend…I was trying to write something this morning, but I just felt so tired. I was very lucky that I was not working today, because I’ve had this little bit of a headache, just at the front of my head.

I love to travel, I am not a very good flyer (I get motion sickness) but there is something about travelling and seeing a different state that can just motivate one. My Aunt and I were talking about how if we lived in Melbourne we’d probably get bored of it and she’s probably right…But I still really love it. I think that Melbourne is the state that my State should be modelling itself on and I think we are headed that way…However slowly. I am actually not a big Sydney fan, it’s just to busy.

I am looking forward to the rest of the week to see what happens. I need things to change!

Time Warp…

This is such a sweet news article and I just had to share it…”Australia’s oldest couple sell time warp Mosman home after 76 years”

In 1938 this couple bought the only home (at the time) in the suburb of Mosman. They bought it so many years ago that it was in the same year as Sydney held the “Commonwealth Games” but it was also known back then as “The Empire Games”. This was during a time when a average family home cost around $1000 and a loaf of bread was only a sixpence.

Tom and Jean, the owners of the house, are both over a 100 years old, and while they are both very much alive and kicking. They can no longer take care of their own home and are moving into a nursing home. The amazing thing about this house is that it still has the same fittings and the same furniture from when they first moved in. The house is in complete pristine condition and looking at the pictures you would think you have taken a step back in time.

The other thing that stood out to me reading this article was when they asked him about giving any advice about marriage. Tom replied with “I don’t really think I can give them advice but I don’t think people stick at marriage anymore,’’ he said…Wise words I think…

The Music in me…

I don’t believe that Music should be defined into which “genre” is better than the others. It needs to be defined by how it makes you feel. It needs to be defined by how it moves you…Music needs to be defined by YOU and no one else but you.

My dream is to walk down the aisle to “Nothing Else Matters” by Metallica, but dance with my father to “There you’ll be” by Faith Hill.