My Friend

I miss you,
I never thought that I would,
I guess there is truth too,
“You never know what you’ve got till it’s gone”

Surrounded by boys playing with barbie dolls,
Guys who call me “beautiful” with no meaning behind it,
My heart aches,
For the special smile that only you could put on my face.

I want to scream,
I want to shout,
My heart is screaming out for you to reach out,
I miss you…My friend ❤


Thankfully Thanksgiving…

Now I am an Australian so we don’t celebrate Thanksgiving here.

However, I met my first serious relationship through the internet and he lives in America and we were together for a good three years, but we were young and I didn’t want to leave my family for good and he didn’t want to give up his life either. I do question my decision sometimes after the past few years of disaster relationship after another though,lol

We are still good friends though and I am thankful for that, he’s been helping me get through my most recent disaster. He broke up with is partner about a month after mine, so we both are in the exact same place. Not wanting a relationship. For this I am thankful and I am very thankful for all of my friends in America. The opened me up to a whole new world and I always miss America every day. Sometimes I think they get me better than my friends in Australia. It was a huge freeing experience and one I am never going to ever forget. I look through my photo album from that time at least once a week.

I have plans to go back there at least one more time. It will probably be my last time, unless I was win the lottery or something.