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30 Days of Gratitude…Days 8 – 14
(Well this one shall be very interesting since for half of it I’ll be at a family reunion).
Day 8: Alone – My mum is gone all weekend so this means that I have the entire weekend to myself! So far it’s been bliss (mind you though I’ve had to do homework all day). One of the things that I love at being home alone for a weekend by myself is the absolute solitude. Don’t get me wrong, living with my Mum isn’t all bad. Sometimes though you do a couple of days to yourself, so you can regather yourself back together. My mum has this habit of coming home and as soon as she walks through the door is complains. Sometimes, especially on bad days I actually dread her coming home because I know she’s going to complain about something and it makes me feel worse. I am grateful to have these rare moments alone.
Day 9: Study – I have finally managed to hand in a huge project and it was a huge effort to put since it was a topic I was not interested in and it took forever. Pretty much every spare day I had was taken up with it. This entire weekend I spent working on it and I have a test I really needed to study for. The reason I am grateful for my studies though is because not only is it helping me get into the career of my dreams. I am learning different things that help me in my work. At the moment we are learning how to make web Dewey numbers, every section of Dewey that I’ve learnt I’ve been able to then help customers out where I work. Sometimes work is busy so I don’t really have time stand back and learn.
Day 10: Drama Free: So there I was thinking what am I grateful for, because nothing really happened today…but there is something to be grateful in that alone…Nothing…Only two weeks ago I was angry beyond comprehension and my ex messing me about was beyond horrible. He made me feel worthless and the pain he had and was putting me through meant nothing to him. Like he didn’t care whether I was dead or alive and then he speaks so condescendingly to me….To NOT have anything like that in my life, is calming and beautiful.
Day 11: Single-hood – So I had a HUGE test today on my toughest subject. After the tests on this subject, my brain is completely fried and I fall asleep where ever I am. It was in this moment that I’m grateful that I don’t have children and I can rest easy. I’m also grateful because though by the time I have children I will be an expert on the subject, have a good job because of my studies and be able to comfortably provide for my children.
Day 12: My bed – I know this seems like an odd one, but I am very grateful to have a bed that I can get into a night and feel safe at night. I can dream at night, feeling safe with a roof over my head and safe in my bed.
Day 13: Brother – My brother came back today to visit us as we going on a family reunion trip this weekend. The reason I am grateful for my brother isn’t because he’s done anything amazing for me. He’s done great things for me, but the reason I am grateful to have the brother that I do is because he reminds me constantly what a MAN is. My brother is a Drag Queen, and a seriously good one at that too. He has won many Australia awards for the work that he had done. While I have all these “straight manly men” telling me that a man is only a man if he has a beard, or if he has big shoulders…My 6’4′ gangly brother is being a man, by being who he truly is. He is a constant reminder that a man is not made by what is on his face (neither Steve McQueen or James Dean had a beard can I just say too) or what he hides behind. A man is a man because he has the strength to be who he truly is. THAT’S a man!
Day 14: Family – By the time you read this I will be with my family at our family reunion. I LOVE my family we are all so different but we love each so much. It’s our differences that hold us together. A round up on the “labels” of people that will be at this reunions are: gay, straight, religious, athletic, creative, intellectual, spiritual. Yet, I can guarantee that we will have the most amazing time. From all of my other friends I know how incredibly lucky that I am too have the family (mothers side) that I do…My Dad’s side, don’t even talk to each other.
Fantasy Men…mmm…~.^
One of the best things about being single again is being able to divulge in our little fantasies without feeling to bad or feeling like one is being disrespectful to their partner. If you press this link you can see the picture that is on my PC desktop as a wallpaper background, it makes me grin before bedtime. Thorin “Will You Join Me” Deviantart Artist:MoonFangs I would put the picture up, but there are VERY strict rules when it comes to this particular picture.
When ever I am going through a particularly rough break up or had a huge crush on someone and they choose someone else, I tend to focus on my fantasy men. Anything that I may have imagined with that particular boyfriend/ex/crush, there image is taken over by one of my “fantasy men”. I find it extremely helpful and I find it helps me move on. I don’t know why, I can’t explain of why thinking of someone I don’t know or some make believe character helps me to move on from a “real” person, but it does. Maybe it’s because I’m not thinking about them 24/7 instead… Or you know…I’m just crazy =P
Legolas aka Orlando Bloom!
This week is my ‘birthday week’ so I am posting whatever I want =D This man though I have been in love with him from before I even saw him! This is probably the first time I have ever admitted this publicly other than to a few close female friends. One night I had my first ‘lucid’ dream of a man with beautiful long white hair and even now I still remember everything that happened and all of the details. A few months later I go to see another movie with a girlfriend and I walk past this huge cardboard cut out of my dream man! A dream that I had previously told my friends about. It was one of the most freakiest moments of my life!
I admit though when I heard he was going to be in “The Hobbit” I was sceptical, BUT, I really liked how they have fitted him in. Any-ways some facts about Legolas. Although the character does not feature in the novels, Thranduil does feature. So this is how it was justified to use, he more than likely would have been there.
Leoglas is an elvish fictional character in J.R.R. Tolkien’s literature. He is a Sindar Elf of the Woodland Realm. Legolas is also one of the main members of nine in the Fellowship of the Ring. Legolas is the son of Thranduil, King of the Woodland Realm of Northern Mirkwood, there is no mention of Legolas’s mother or if he had any siblings. He was first introduced as a messenger to Elrond of Rivendell to let them know that Gollum has escaped from their holdings.
As part of the Fellowship of the Ring, Legolas is armed with a bow and arrows and one “long white knife” which hangs by his side. Legolas can see and hear from great distances as well. Another quality is he can walk lightly over tonnes of snow. He also has a killer smile (in the movies)
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Lolsys Library 