It’s okay to lose a little of yourself

Personally, I felt like I a lost a little of myself during COVID, and you know what? That’s alright. I didn’t lose any of the important “stuff”. I would agree with some, that I have become harder, but not with the important things. I still cry a lot, lol.

I just think my quality of life is improving.

Our souls are like lizards and snakes, we shed them sometimes when we no longer need them…Okay, that sound really gross, but you know what I mean, right? We shed the old skin, but we still keep intact, and the important stuff human or snake still remains =D So it’s all good =D

It’s a metaphor, haha.

The important thing is to keep moving and shed when needed, because you do need to shed once in a while. You can’t keep the old skin, like with skin and lizards, if that skin doesn’t shed properly, it can actually be quiet painful.

Such a great metaphor, lol

Also Happy Birthday Charles Dickens

“Suffering has been stronger than all other teaching, and has taught me to understand what your heart used to be. I have been bent and broken, but – I hope -into a better shape…”

Great Expectations

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Segregation is live and well…

In Tennessee…

Tennessee law mandating transgender bathroom use signage ‘unconstitutional’, lawyer says – WKRN

The Lawyer is 100% correct.

Also, these sorts of “signs” don’t actually stop people from being attacked from actual predators. It’s infuriating, as woman, to know this would do NOTHING to protect women. It’s just pure evil. PREDATORS DON’T CARE ABOUT BATHROOM SIGNS. NEVER HAVE NEVER WILL.

What REALLY pisses me off about all transphobic people. They define women by what men aka the patriarchy have defined women and females as for literal centuries. That we are nothing more than our “sex”. Yet, a lot of transphobic people look at this as a win for feminism. It’s really not. I can’t begin to tell how NOT a win this is.

Let alone, especially how many butch lesbians get kicked out of the women’s for being to “manly” looking. It’s not a win for anyone.

https://www.nydailynews.com/news/lesbian-riled-boot-ladies-room-article-1.224762

Viral Video of Lesbian Kicked Out of Women’s Room for Not Showing I.D. Exposes Dangers of Bathroom Policing – WATCH

Us cis ladies HAVE to start standing up more for the trans community. It’s the only way we are ALL protected.

Losers

Someone needs to explain to me what it is with Trump supporters and real life “losers”…People who have lost, people who have lost while trying to be cruel, or people who have lost due to their stupidity?

A Holocaust remembrance day speech by a 96-year-old WWII veteran, who was on hand for the liberation of Nazi concentration camps, was interrupted by white supremacists chanting "six million more". https://t.co/uDcDDsz5bE

— VoteVets (@votevets) May 8, 2019

How is this acceptable?

Decade in the Red: 

I write this post as well, at this time…Because we also have a “billionaire” who ‘stiffed’ Australian workers and was bailed out by the Government. Who also is running for Government. He is also gaining popularity…Why? Do people realise that these people stiffed workers, stiffed American and Australian workers? The same people they say they are working for? How dumb can you be? You know how you can make America or Australia, great? By NOT stiffing workers and paying them so then they can put money back into the system. That’s how it works. People can’t put money into the system, if they don’t have the money to put into the system.

I don’t honestly know how these “people” justify it to themselves. Clive Palmer owes workers about $7 million and he owes the Government about $60 million…But has spent about $40 million in campaigning.

Share Your World … Final Week! 2017

Share Your World … December 25th 2017

Can you believe where we’re at now this year?

What caring thing are you going to do for yourself today?

Honestly, I am going to sleep…I do not care what anyone thinks…I’ve been running about and my body is just exhausted! I need a good sleep! We went away for Christmas and spent a couple of days away and I didn’t sleep well at night. I’ve also got eczema and with the warm weather, it’s been driving me nutty!lol

List at least five of your favorite spices? (excluding salt and pepper)

• Mint – Especially during Winter for some reason.
• Spaghetti spices! I love just smelling them…I’m not weird or anything,lol
• Cinnamon…Yummy!
• Thyme
• Any Spice that makes me think of a specific food…I’m starting to notice a trend!lol

What can you always be found with?

Well if we’re not going to get into anything to personal. I feel bad for saying this but I can pretty much always be found with my phone, but a lot of the time it’s on silent…Which I cannot tell how much annoys other people.

What inspired you or what did you appreciate this past week?  Feel free to use a quote, a photo, a story, or even a combination. 

It;s funny because I got my inspiration this week from being let down, pretty much constantly, for years by my “best friends”. This week though I just stopped caring. They are the ONLY people I have not heard from all Christmas and even though there were days I was spare when one of them was visiting. She’s seeing the people she always sees when comes out here, and she STILL didn’t even send a text message?! I may have written a passive aggressive type Facebook message saying that I was back and that the Christmas messages people sent to me while I was did get through.

Share Your World June Week 4

Share Your World … June 26, 2017

What goal are you working on now? Your goal can be something fun or extremely serious.  Have fun with this question.

I have a few that are serious one and a few that I would love to happen, but they don’t have too or they probably wont.

• A more permanent position in the Library field, rather than just casual.
• Leave Tafe for good!
• Finish writing the fiction story that I’ve been writing for the last few years…Whether I’ll try and get it published, is yet to be seen!
• Start a little “on the side” craft business. Which I hope would give a little bit more extra money. I don’t expect it too be a booming thing, but just something for a little more “pocket money”.

What is one thing you’re glad you tried but would never do again?

A couple of years ago and luckily my birthday present came in time for a future bad breakup. One of my friends gave me a gift certificate towards swimming with Dolphins. These weren’t like “trained” Dolphins, we went out on a boat, in the ocean, and we had to hang onto these ropes and look into the ocean (with Goggles). It was a very surreal experience, but I didn’t love hanging onto a rope to keep us near the boat, in the ocean, that was very scary too me. I went out a couple of times and then spent the other half sitting on the boat, watching the Dolphins swim by. Plus I was by myself, I felt pretty lonely.

Did you choose your profession or did it choose you?

I feel like I have had to fight to get into the Library profession, but my Gran keeps telling me that she thinks that I was supposed to do something else. Like the writing or acting, or something like that, and I kind of agree with her, but I’m not brave enough to get out there yet and find out what that is. I can’t really see myself doing an 9-5 job. I think I’d go nuts!lol

Have you ever gotten lost?

All the time! Both literally physically and mentally. I was born and raised in the city I still live in and I still got lost all the time. I have people from interstate ask me for directions and I pretend that I am from interstate as well, or that I’ve just moved into the are myself!lol

Wander

I hate loving you…

I hate that you made me feel,
I hate that you made me happy,
I hate that you made me feel safe and loved,
I hate that I fell in love with you.

I hate that I was strong and never needed anyone,
I hate that now all I want is for someone to hold me,
I hate that now all I want is to fall in love,
I hate that you made the voices in my head quiet.

Because now they’re back, stronger than before,
Making me feel…That time at night, when all I want is too sleep,
I wont think of you and then…BAM! There you are, front and centre,
The nightmares wont stop…I just want them too stop.

I hate that I don’t think I’ll stop feeling like this until I start to feel for someone else again.

I say all this but I don’t want you back. I just want to stop feeling like this.

I feel like a little lost light.