The Changes are coming…

So with the new job, clearly things will be changing…

Not so much blogging. I usually have a blog twice a day, although in that first week of work *which I believe starts next week* I might not have a 100% usual blogging record. Keeping in mind as well, that I study part time (which reminds me that I really need to start with the new term).

It’s more to do with my streaming and my website.

Website – Lolsys Library

This will definitely be changing as at the moment, I don’t really have the time or the energy or start up anything online. I am going to take out the Reiki Healing, page. However. I am still keeping it up. As it’s all got my social media platforms and “social” activities in one place. It’s got all the places you can “follow me”. So my Twitch, YouTube etc.

Twitch TV – Lady Lolsy

Although, I’m sad to have to do it, I am going to have to change the schedule for Wednesday and Thursday. I do sometimes do a stream on a Friday, but I think that’s going to be just cancelled. Or at least every second Friday, but my time.

I also am still having issues with WordPress, breaking picture links and just not loading…Anyone else?

Today is going to be the day

Last week, I had a bad mental health day when I got through to the second round of a job, that I didn’t end up thinking would work for me, in any way. During the first round, I realise how I just didn’t want this job, how I should done more research before applying, how I shouldn’t have assumed it was going to be the same as the others.

I tried to throw them off, but in typical fashion, of course that means they wanted me.

Anyway, after my mind break and not being able to physically make myself go to the second round work trial. I felt I had to be honest with my job provider. I wrote them a email, letting them know everything that happened. Now, as I write this (on Sunday) I am already booked to go in for the second round, after not being able to go last Thursday. I wrote everyone involved a email.

So why am I waiting till Tuesday to tell you all what happened, did I have to go again or not? Or did something else happened. As I write this, again on the Sunday, they wont see my email till Monday…I wont know until Monday.

So…Not much has happened, I thought that I would have heard something by now. Considering how quick they’ve been with everything else, lol

A little life update

After today, I thought that I would give a little update.

I’m through to the second round for the job, that I’ve had to be putting other things off for. Now, I’m like, I find it still interesting, but there are so many reasons why I’ve gone off of it.

The biggest one being, they said it was casual and I’ve applied for positions like it before. So I did think maybe it’s a few days a week, working autonomously all day, a couple of days a week. I can handle that…It’s full time though!

The other reason though, is the location. It’s out of the way, and the way I thought that was possible. Only seems possible at certain times, so if I need to leave early, or need to get there a bit later, it has to be taxi.

And thirdly, it only lasts for two years! I’m looking for something more permanent and possibly part-time. I’m 37, with no children, want a couple, what happens if I get pregnant half way through! When I’m ready to go back, I’ll be in the same position I am now. No job, lol. My partner did give me some advice (due to me not being able to refuse suitable work, or I get cut off). If I get offered a position, keep looking for work I want, permanent part-time. So not only will I still have a job, but I wont have to worry about welfare/social security. Which actually seems reasonable.

My partner is really smart.

Oh, I’m still streaming…I’m up to 6 streamers now =D Which considering I started off with 0, it’s going well =D

Which you can watch me here Lady Lolsy … I believe it shows my schedule, but in your time … I think. This is another thing that worries me though. I have been really enjoying the streams. I don’t know if I’d have the energy, if I get this job.

I’m old! lol

But I have also decided, you know what, I’m going to write a book! Get serious about. I have been so inspired by writers and bloggers on here. My Aunt said to me, that I should definitely write a book. That I have a really imaginative mind, and that I think about a lot of things from different perspectives. I might even be able to write a self-help kind of book. My brother said (even though I’m not supposed to know) that I am a very insightful person.

Just a couple of little things. So now what I have to do, if wait and see what happens with this position, I will still keep applying for jobs at the moment. There’s one that I want more than this one. And it’s perfect for me, it’s with a teachers registration board, close by (living wise) AND part time permanent! I am going to focus on that job application tomorrow.

Personal Choices…

I know that none of you are on my Facebook (it’s Lauren Boltron Bolton) by the way. However, I have decided at this time, to not post on their anymore. The only people I really hear from are from people I never hear from to tell how wrong they think I am. Or people who liked everything I post. Which is completely fine, but I can keep liking and commenting on their posts anyway.

I think what “annoys me” is that these are people I know in “real life”. Yet, I don’t think they know the first thing about me…Maybe it’s a South Australia thing? None of these people know about my blog, my streaming, my “other” Instagram book account. Which you all know about. I just feel like there is no reason to “be” on there anymore. I don’t really get that much fulfillment out of FB anyway.

My mum and I were just talking about it last night, and she was saying how she knows there are couple of people she can stay friends with. Mainly because, one of them, their partner had a bad reaction to the Astra vaccine, but her friend is still going to get the second dose anyway. Even though, she has a really good reason to be afraid, she’s sensible enough to realise, that just because her husband had a bad reaction, didn’t mean she did.

I said to my mum, I’ve got a couple of friends like that, but we all suffer from bad anxiety issues, lol. So it’s hard to meet up with them. The rest though. I’ve lost a lot of respect for quiet a few, and not all to do with COVID. Some, even though they’ve been in Australia since the 70’s/80’s, they’re still strong Monarchist’s. The Monarchy can do wrong. Meghans the devil. Not just “Hate” Meghan, but full on “I’m British, I know how the system works, she’s lying”.

One) You’ve lived in Australia since the 70’s.

Two) You’re not and have never been part of the Royal Family, or it’s “systems”.

Three) The place you do actually work in, you know how it works and that’s why you know it’s not working. On the outside you have to pretend that everything “works” where you work. Apart from the Royal Family, NONE, of us “know how the system works”.

The problem with the State I’m in, it’s not a big city. We were the first freely settled colony in Australia (meaning we weren’t settled by criminals, but “free people). We’re the third most livable city in the world. But the people…lol. Once you’re in a group, you’re in it. Think six degrees of Kevin Bacon. You can go with another group, but you have a high chance of bumping into the other people. As some “bitches” have realised. Too not really bump into people you know, you have to live on opposite sides of the state.

The better part of the weekend at Grans

I have learnt to appreciate a LOT with my weekend at my Grans.

Anyway, apart from that and after the horrible first day. The next few days were alright. Mainly because, and I don’t know why we didn’t think of it before. We wrote notes to my Gran, letting her know where I was sleeping, the dates that I’m here too and the days and dates that my Aunt and my Mum were going to be here too.

I felt HORRIBLE that first day, and I think that I upset the routine, and I never truly recovered from that day, for the rest of the week. My stomach hurt the whole time, which is a tad annoying when your family lives near a beach town. I had all these plans, and they went “poof”.

However, I LEARNT a lot.

My Gran was probably the most influential person in my life, I learnt my Reiki and Tarot cards from her. She was a library manager, and surrounded all her grand children with books and plays and musicals. On my Mums side in particular, we have a pretty amazing family. We’re all different, but we get on really well. Like I would say my Mum’s family are probably my best friends.

So seeing my Gran just make up story after story. Which I don’t even know if you can say that, because to her, it’s the truth. She’s not “lying”, because in her mind, that all actually happened. Which is what makes going out in public, really awkward sometimes. Because she’s a local, living in a small town, and if you knew her, but not as well as her family does, you’d think nothing was wrong, she is still very articulate. She was introducing me as her grand daughter (correct), but saying to people that I had flown over. Which I have lived in this state my whole life, but also in Australia, most of the borders are closed to other states, because of COVID.

What I learnt over the past few days is just how important family is. Especially when one member is really ill. My Gran gave so much too her community, and between my Aunt, mother and I, we’re the only ones who really communicate with her. We all have a story of a “life long friend or family friend” ring her up, only to discover when we are there, they hang up. Not to be heard from again. Which has made me angry, because a LOT, if not all of her friends are now friends with each other BECAUSE OF HER.

I just hope they’re not treated the same way.

So, sorry about the story, haha. What I learnt is probably the best lesson my Gran has actually been trying to teach me my whole life “Don’t waste time. Live Your Life, and as long as it doesn’t harm you or others, life threateningly … Just Do It!”


Revolutionary Entrepreneurs

I was looking for a sign

Yesterday…

The sign that I was looking for?

I am one of those people, if I don’t write it down, if I don’t put it out there in the public it never gets done. I have been wanting to start to learn how to draw for a long time now. But I’m always finding a excuse not to start, but now I have little money to spend, but a lot of time. Why not start today?

See, that was the other thing, I was trying to think of writing a post here, right now. However, I couldn’t think of anything.

Last week, I did stream on Twitch. Because I wrote a post about how I was going to, rather than I would really like too and I did it. I nearly did it yesterday, but I was too busy…and see!!! I didn’t write down that I was going to do it, so I didn’t end up doing it!


Ace of Base

I am a very boring person

I was writing a comment on a fellow bloggers post, and I wrote that I have decided to do what I wish I had done when I was younger. Only thing is, I’m not sure what I would change? Haha.

Like, as boring and as a basic bitch, as I am. I don’t really regret anything. Sure, I wish I had kids when I was younger, my body is all currently falling apart. But you know, I have had a good life. I don’t regret any of my relationships, my first serious one got me travelling, however, I don’t want to be with anyone else but my current partner. I guess I have always wanted to colour my hair red? Take some boudoir photos before my body completely falls apart. But I can’t think of anything else, lol.

But then I saw (and hopefully I find it before this is posted) a photo/quote that said that not everyone has to have a exciting life. This social pressure we have to have a exciting and interesting life, is a pressure I feel all the time. I am not ashamed to admit that I am probably the most “boring” person in my family. So I felt that, a lot, lol.

Thursday Theories – God: Pro-Choice or Pro-Life?

Nothing like a good controversial blog post on your Friday mornings, hehe

Funny thing is too me, it’s not really that controversial, as it’s not really that difficult to see where God stands on the matter. I can show you in just TWO bible quotations.

Hosea 13:16

ESV – 16 Samaria shall bear her guilt, because she has rebelled against her God; they shall fall by the sword; their little ones shall be dashed in pieces, and their pregnant women ripped open.

And the other is…

Psalm 127:3 

Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord, the fruit of the womb a reward.

I think it’s pretty obvious, don’t you?

For those who are not getting the obvious. God, is pro-choice. God himself choose who shall be rewarded with a child and who shall have fetuses ripped from their wombs. God “invented” not only abortions, but also pro-choice.

It just hit me the other day. I was dealing with a pro-life person and was using the usual quotes I use from the Bible. You can’t deny though, that he does give and take unborn lives. So, he makes a choice. Am I right, or am I right? lol

In my mid-long life, I have learnt

You can’t tell the people you know, anything, haha.

No matter who much someone you know may be surrounded by others, who know what they’re talking about. No matter how much someone you know may see those around talk about their experiences, about how real something is. No matter who many people someone you know may lose from their lives, because of their “No, not listening”. Some people just will not listen, will they?

I’m not just talking about when someone asks you for advice, and then they don’t take it. I think everyone does that. Although, depending on who it is, you might do. I’m also talking about how smart people around you, might be talking about how real COVID is, or something like that. Yet, someone you know, will take a picture of a leaflet they got in the mail saying how “fake” COVID is.

Not that I’m looking at anyone in my family in particular about that.

You know what I mean? Especially when you are Facebook “friends” with people who have actually had COVID. It’s just weird, lol