I am a very boring person

I was writing a comment on a fellow bloggers post, and I wrote that I have decided to do what I wish I had done when I was younger. Only thing is, I’m not sure what I would change? Haha.

Like, as boring and as a basic bitch, as I am. I don’t really regret anything. Sure, I wish I had kids when I was younger, my body is all currently falling apart. But you know, I have had a good life. I don’t regret any of my relationships, my first serious one got me travelling, however, I don’t want to be with anyone else but my current partner. I guess I have always wanted to colour my hair red? Take some boudoir photos before my body completely falls apart. But I can’t think of anything else, lol.

But then I saw (and hopefully I find it before this is posted) a photo/quote that said that not everyone has to have a exciting life. This social pressure we have to have a exciting and interesting life, is a pressure I feel all the time. I am not ashamed to admit that I am probably the most “boring” person in my family. So I felt that, a lot, lol.

Thursday Theories – God: Pro-Choice or Pro-Life?

Nothing like a good controversial blog post on your Friday mornings, hehe

Funny thing is too me, it’s not really that controversial, as it’s not really that difficult to see where God stands on the matter. I can show you in just TWO bible quotations.

Hosea 13:16

ESV – 16 Samaria shall bear her guilt, because she has rebelled against her God; they shall fall by the sword; their little ones shall be dashed in pieces, and their pregnant women ripped open.

And the other is…

Psalm 127:3 

Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord, the fruit of the womb a reward.

I think it’s pretty obvious, don’t you?

For those who are not getting the obvious. God, is pro-choice. God himself choose who shall be rewarded with a child and who shall have fetuses ripped from their wombs. God “invented” not only abortions, but also pro-choice.

It just hit me the other day. I was dealing with a pro-life person and was using the usual quotes I use from the Bible. You can’t deny though, that he does give and take unborn lives. So, he makes a choice. Am I right, or am I right? lol

In my mid-long life, I have learnt

You can’t tell the people you know, anything, haha.

No matter who much someone you know may be surrounded by others, who know what they’re talking about. No matter how much someone you know may see those around talk about their experiences, about how real something is. No matter who many people someone you know may lose from their lives, because of their “No, not listening”. Some people just will not listen, will they?

I’m not just talking about when someone asks you for advice, and then they don’t take it. I think everyone does that. Although, depending on who it is, you might do. I’m also talking about how smart people around you, might be talking about how real COVID is, or something like that. Yet, someone you know, will take a picture of a leaflet they got in the mail saying how “fake” COVID is.

Not that I’m looking at anyone in my family in particular about that.

You know what I mean? Especially when you are Facebook “friends” with people who have actually had COVID. It’s just weird, lol

30 day song challenge – Day 24 – 26

I just felt really odd, posting a song the day after I posted 5 for one challenge, and then it didn’t feel right on ANZAC Day.

Day 24 – A song by a band that you wished were still together

I was oohhhing and arrring about this one. However, whenever there songs come on the radio, I know the words and all the dance moves. So…fight me! Also three of them are coming out here later in the year. I am SO getting tickets, even if my favourite isn’t coming, lol


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Day 25 – A song you like by a artist no longer living

Isn’t the world a sadder place for having lost him. Also kind of ironic since it gets dark here now at 6pm. Yes, the Beatles sing it, but it’s George’s song!


George Harrison – Here comes the Sun


The Beatles

Day 26 – A song that makes you want to fall in love

So I am already in love, however! I want into my YouTube playlist of what I named “Someone or Something” It reminds me of someone … or … something … haha. What it also has though is a lot of lovey dovey songs, that I love listening to whenever I’m falling in love =D Also though I know what movie this belongs too…But try not to judge, I love the song, not the movie, lol

Love Me Like You Do – Song by Ellie Goulding, Video from the movie “50 Shades of Grey”.

A lot of the love songs I really love, are from movies I really dislike, haha.


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30 Day song challenge : Day 17 – 19

Day 17: A song you’d sing a duet with someone at karaoke

Oh I had a really hard time with this one. Because I’d want it to be something like Bon Jovi, so not a typical duet song.

Bon Jovi – Living on a Prayer


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Day 18: A song from the year you were born – 1984

Queen – Radio Ga Ga


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Day 19: A song that makes you think about life

This is also another hard one. There are SO many songs out there! All for different reasons, moods and situations.

The song I am going to chose though, is a song about starting with your self. After all everything about life, starts with YOUR life! What I think about life, it comes to down to me. This is one of the songs that I still will listen too of his. Life starts with YOU! The man knew about songs that can move you!

Michael Jackson – Man In The Mirror

If you want to make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself and then make the change
You gotta get it right, while you got the time
You can’t close your, your mind!


Michael Jackson

Dead Beat Dads and p.s.

My Dad is a alcoholic, not only IS he a alcoholic, but he’s one of those annoying ones that go on about on how he’s not, while he’s drunk.

I love my Dad, but he is a deadbeat Dad. He’ll tell me he loves me, then the next day while he’s drunk will tell me what a grateful little shit I am, and if I don’t respond to that quickly, it gets worse.

So, to see people act like Meghan’s Dad is some innocent “victim” of his cruel and uncaring daughter, pisses me off. No one MADE him give a interview, no one MADE him speak to Piers Morgan. Note, how not one person has recognised that Meghans mother hasn’t “forced” herself to do the same things? Maybe, just maybe, her Dad IS crap.

The sad thing is, nearly all the Dads that I know that are separated from their first marriages, with children. I don’t think I know one divorced father who isn’t a “deadbeat dad” in some way.

As I got older, I realised how bad my Dad had been to myself, my brother and my Mum. So I have NO doubt that, despite Meghan trying and no doubt that she does love him. There HAS to come to a point for your own mental health, when you have to cut people off and again, a child doesn’t OWE their parent any kind of “loyalty”. Your job, as a parent in this world, is to protect your child … NOT THE OTHER WAY AROUND.

We have one life in this world. Even if you believe in reincarnation, because you do not come back as the person you were. You may not even come back as a person! One life, that’s it. It’s up to you whether or not, you choose to have a good life or a bad one. Especially when it comes to who YOU CHOOSE to be involved in your life.

It’s you and your power, that’s it.

Thomas Markle Senior, is going to have a very lonely life, and that is all on him. You have to be either really dumb, or completely self-centered to think you can keep doing the same things. That caused that person to take you out of their lives in the first place, and think you can keep doing it, and THEN blame them.

Funny thing about this video. I just typed in “One Life” to see what they had on YouTube. There is a Church near my place of residence called “One Life” Haha!


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P.S.

You can absolutely forgive someone and not have them in your life. You can love someone and not have them in your life. Too forgive someone does not mean you HAVE to have them in your life. Especially since you don’t even need anything from them to forgive them. You don’t have to receive apology from someone to forgive someone.

Just when you think you’re ready to go! One step too go!

It’s up, I’ve got everything sorted. I do have another Tarot set. For anyone who does do Tarot though, you’ll know how anxious I feel using a pack of cards, that I’m not 100% sure with. What can you do! Until I find it, not much choice. Even though so, I have to still speak to my job provider about it as well. As I’ll be making money while on social security, welfare, whatever your country calls it. A job provider here is someone who helps you find a job, and you have to tell them if any changes are made. The earliest I can see her is this Friday.

So when that happens, then I am pretty sure I am ready to go.

Also though, I might have to already change the times that I can dedicate to it. As as I am on whatever your country calls it whatever. I HAVE to look for work, and I recently had a interview where the job is only two days (Mon and Wednesday). These were two days, of course, that I had dedicated. So now I have to wait and see if I get the job or not, and then change those days.

I want to start and I also don’t want to start, but I do and I don’t, haha.

Isn’t it funny?

How it’s the “pro-life” group are the group of people who really put me off having kids? lol.

They just come up with the stupidest argument’s I’ve ever seen.

One said to me…

“Well if your mother had made that decision (an abortion) how would you have felt about life that we get to experience” And we all replied to her “Nothing, you’re aborted…I doubt, I would have thought much, if anything”. I wouldn’t have life, to experience, lol … I would have been aborted.

Then another one said “I just find it funny how you’ll fight for Turtles, Dolphins (and I forget the other ones) but you wont fight for fetuses.” As we mentioned “We’re not Turtles, Dolphins, heck, fetuses aren’t even fully formed humans and animals are nicer”. Also that fetuses aren’t developed enough to choose what they want to even fight for. Animals don’t get a choice, humans do … generally.

I am a Pro-Choice, but I know I could never do it. Not for a single second though, should that mean other’s shouldn’t have that choice, and neither do I look down on it for them. I am not them.

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Another thing that’s “funny”.

Is the amount of women, who have made me realise how horrible women are. My whole life, I’ve been surrounded by positive, strong and take no shit women. Yet, seeing these TERFs and insecure hateful women, has really opened my eyes to how horrible women can actually be. In a weird way, it’s funny, because these “women” are exposing the rest of us like we are Regina George, who doesn’t change at the end.

I literally HATE those women. If you can’t fight for women without, lying, without doing “alternative truths”, then you’re NOT fighting women. You’re fighting for YOUR ego. You’re fighting for YOUR fears. You’re fighting to be Overlords, which is what actual Feminists do not want, and is very much the Patriarchy, Which apparently, they’re supposed to be against.

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The books of my life in 2020

Two things.

  1. I am taking the books of my 2020 from my Goodreads account. However, I’m sure with a lot of you as well, who like to read. There were “others”. You know the ones, I mean. The ones who you reread for the 20th time, the ones that you don’t actually want to people to know about.
  2. I am just going to post a link to my Discord Book Channel again.

I wanted to start off with a statement as well. 2020, has been a pretty rotten year, let alone mentally draining. At the start of the year I wanted to get more involved and read more out of my safe space box, of books. As the year went on, it was becoming more obvious that I just wanted to stay in my safe space box.

Lauren’s Year in Books

The other great readings for me this year, has been the new authors that I have had the pleasure of getting to know. I had quiet a few! That has been mainly due to buying a lot of Book Box’s this year. While my wallet hasn’t appreciated it, my mind certainly has! And isn’t that what’s really important!

As I said above I have been introduce to quiet a few new authors this years, and I can’t actually think, who is probably my favourite author. Simply, I loved their books. I noticed that with the new authors, if I did like their book, I would end up reading at LEAST one more of their books this year.

There are three that really stand out:

  • Kiersten White – The Dark Descent of Elizabeth Frankenstein and the Camelot Rising series.
  • Renee Ahdieh – The Beautiful series
  • Kate Quinn – The Empress of Rome series

All different times and places, all taking me away to their world. Never have I needed to be taken away to different worlds, where the bad guy ALWAYS loses. You just know that the dream couple are going to get together. It’s predictable, but in the way you want it too be. 2020 hasn’t completely made you so cynical, you know what’s going to happen. That you’re not so completely lost yet, that you mind.