Just when you think you’re ready to go! One step too go!

It’s up, I’ve got everything sorted. I do have another Tarot set. For anyone who does do Tarot though, you’ll know how anxious I feel using a pack of cards, that I’m not 100% sure with. What can you do! Until I find it, not much choice. Even though so, I have to still speak to my job provider about it as well. As I’ll be making money while on social security, welfare, whatever your country calls it. A job provider here is someone who helps you find a job, and you have to tell them if any changes are made. The earliest I can see her is this Friday.

So when that happens, then I am pretty sure I am ready to go.

Also though, I might have to already change the times that I can dedicate to it. As as I am on whatever your country calls it whatever. I HAVE to look for work, and I recently had a interview where the job is only two days (Mon and Wednesday). These were two days, of course, that I had dedicated. So now I have to wait and see if I get the job or not, and then change those days.

I want to start and I also don’t want to start, but I do and I don’t, haha.

Isn’t it funny?

How it’s the “pro-life” group are the group of people who really put me off having kids? lol.

They just come up with the stupidest argument’s I’ve ever seen.

One said to me…

“Well if your mother had made that decision (an abortion) how would you have felt about life that we get to experience” And we all replied to her “Nothing, you’re aborted…I doubt, I would have thought much, if anything”. I wouldn’t have life, to experience, lol … I would have been aborted.

Then another one said “I just find it funny how you’ll fight for Turtles, Dolphins (and I forget the other ones) but you wont fight for fetuses.” As we mentioned “We’re not Turtles, Dolphins, heck, fetuses aren’t even fully formed humans and animals are nicer”. Also that fetuses aren’t developed enough to choose what they want to even fight for. Animals don’t get a choice, humans do … generally.

I am a Pro-Choice, but I know I could never do it. Not for a single second though, should that mean other’s shouldn’t have that choice, and neither do I look down on it for them. I am not them.

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Another thing that’s “funny”.

Is the amount of women, who have made me realise how horrible women are. My whole life, I’ve been surrounded by positive, strong and take no shit women. Yet, seeing these TERFs and insecure hateful women, has really opened my eyes to how horrible women can actually be. In a weird way, it’s funny, because these “women” are exposing the rest of us like we are Regina George, who doesn’t change at the end.

I literally HATE those women. If you can’t fight for women without, lying, without doing “alternative truths”, then you’re NOT fighting women. You’re fighting for YOUR ego. You’re fighting for YOUR fears. You’re fighting to be Overlords, which is what actual Feminists do not want, and is very much the Patriarchy, Which apparently, they’re supposed to be against.

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The books of my life in 2020

Two things.

  1. I am taking the books of my 2020 from my Goodreads account. However, I’m sure with a lot of you as well, who like to read. There were “others”. You know the ones, I mean. The ones who you reread for the 20th time, the ones that you don’t actually want to people to know about.
  2. I am just going to post a link to my Discord Book Channel again.

I wanted to start off with a statement as well. 2020, has been a pretty rotten year, let alone mentally draining. At the start of the year I wanted to get more involved and read more out of my safe space box, of books. As the year went on, it was becoming more obvious that I just wanted to stay in my safe space box.

Lauren’s Year in Books

The other great readings for me this year, has been the new authors that I have had the pleasure of getting to know. I had quiet a few! That has been mainly due to buying a lot of Book Box’s this year. While my wallet hasn’t appreciated it, my mind certainly has! And isn’t that what’s really important!

As I said above I have been introduce to quiet a few new authors this years, and I can’t actually think, who is probably my favourite author. Simply, I loved their books. I noticed that with the new authors, if I did like their book, I would end up reading at LEAST one more of their books this year.

There are three that really stand out:

  • Kiersten White – The Dark Descent of Elizabeth Frankenstein and the Camelot Rising series.
  • Renee Ahdieh – The Beautiful series
  • Kate Quinn – The Empress of Rome series

All different times and places, all taking me away to their world. Never have I needed to be taken away to different worlds, where the bad guy ALWAYS loses. You just know that the dream couple are going to get together. It’s predictable, but in the way you want it too be. 2020 hasn’t completely made you so cynical, you know what’s going to happen. That you’re not so completely lost yet, that you mind.

Share Your World…28/09/20

Share Your World…9-28-2020

Questions:

Where do you feel most at home?  Please be more specific than “at home, doh” please. It could be a room in your home, a person, a location…    

I wish I hadn’t said anything now!lol…However, I was thinking about this question a lot. I think that where I feel most at home, where ever my heart feels the safest. See, I have my anxiety attacks when I feel uncomfortable or unsafe. So when I don’t feel like I’m about to have a heart attack, I must feel safe there.

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Would you rather ride a bike, ride a horse, or drive a car?   

Well I’m scared of horses, and I’m still learning to drive. Riding a bike, would also help to get me healthier =D

What song would you sing on “Karoke Night” (if you were forced to do so)?    

I don’t really have a “song”. I just like to drink and then sing to anything. I do seem to sing to Bon Jovi at lot though. Not well, mind you,lol

University or life experience, which do you feel best prepares you for life?  

Probably life itself. While University is great if you want to become say a teacher, or a doctor, or part of a trade. How many times have we seen though, people with degrees or doctorates coming from say Harvard or Yale, just not really actually good with people.

IT’S AN ATTITUDE – GRATITUDE!  (Participation Always Optional Of Course)

What are you grateful for?

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Too be able to breath, and know I’ve got those close.

Share Your World – 25/08/2020

Share Your World

I decided to go with the muggle questions this week. I just really liked them, haha!

Muggle Questions (of a more philosophical bent this week):

Is intelligence or wisdom more useful?  

Hmmm…Woo, another good one! I think Wisdom may be, just a little bit more useful than Intelligence. While intelligence may be useful, sometimes, depending on the type of intelligence. There are different kinds of intelligence.

How important is play in living a healthy and fulfilling life?

Oh the most important! You need to be able to play still, always. If you don’t play, life just becomes dreary. The play doesn’t even have to cost anything either!

Is happiness just chemicals flowing through your brain or something more?

I think it’s both. I think you can also chose to be happy. Kind of like that “fake it till you make it” kind of thing. Some days I need to make myself be happy.


GRATITUDE SECTION (Always optional)

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Feel free to share some photos, an image, a meme, a story or incident or a poem that helps you feel grateful.  

November is really not that far away,lol…Even if it’s a totally horrible outcome. December, which means Christmas, is just the next month.

Share Your World…10/08/2020

Share Your World…08/10/2020

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I choose to go with the plain questions, as I am not a fan of the Harry Potter author,lol. She makes me feel physically ill. 

“Plain” Questions:

Would You Rather Live 120 Years That Are Comfortable But Boring, Or Live Half As Long, But Have An Exciting Adventure Packed Life?

I think I would like to live the 120 years, but boring life. Nothing wrong with boring, as long as well though, I live alright into my 120 years. No point if I’m a vegetable or something.

What’s Something That Overwhelms You?

Twitter can sometimes overwhelm me. I start to realise after a bit, that I am just on it a bit TOO much. Then when I hop off of it, I feel so much better and then for the first couple of weeks, I don’t really go on…Then something always sucks me back in.

What Do or DID You Take For Granted?

I try not too, and I can’t remember the last time I did. But I think the thing I take mostly for granted is probably time. It has a lot to do with fear. Fear of myself, fear that I will fail. I guess in that way I take time for granted, no one is guaranteed the next day. I really have to get over my fears.

Gratitude:   Please feel free to share some gratitude moments or thoughts you’ve had recently.  This section is entirely optional.

Just being here and still being alive.

Nurture Thursday – Life’s Too Short

Nurt Thurs – Life’s Too Short

I always wonder about haters, bigots, racists. They are clearly frightened of something, so why do they waste their time with hate? Why do you care if someone wants you to wear a mask for an hour or so, while you shop, to help others? Why do you care if someone wears a BLM top? Why do you care what a complete stranger does to their body?

Why does any of that matter?

What makes this people just SO angry?

I sit in my little home. Just going about my day, and then just see on my twitter feeds all this unnecessary hate. And I don’t understand how someone can just get to irrationally angry at strangers? Life is very short too be this angry at strangers.

 

 

You too?

Anyone else feeling like these days that they are having more and more days that they just want to punch people in the face? Or is it just me?

Between Trumps demands for an apology for an hoax, that never was. The racist bigots, people saying that they agree with some of what Kanye West says, but never actually saying what they agree with. The transphobic lists of things that are neither real or ever going to happen. The Karen’s throwing child tantrums in stores. Or the white people saying “White people don’t get antsy around the police, so why do black people”. (I posted the picture of George Floyd being kneed in the neck, and ultimately killed and said “cause”.).

It’s like … OH MY GOD…

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Is it SO hard for other people, to just let other people live? Get a freaking brain!

30 Day writing challenge … Day 26

26. Write about an area in your life that you would like to improve on.

I would like to be able to motivate myself more. I don’t know how many of you read my other30 Day writing challenge Day 17.

That was about my Zodiac sign, and how much of it can I relate. Well stubbornness is probably the biggest way I can relate to being a Taurus. When you’re not motivated to do something and you are STUBBORN as…It can be hard to get over that hump. We’re not talking about your every day procrastination, I’m talking about PROCRASTINATION…

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I stop myself from SO much, because I genuinely don’t want to do, if it’s a task I’m doing, because of work or homework. Or that I really scary myself or don’t believe in myself enough to push myself. I am like the Bull, stop and stood still.

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30 Day writing challenge … Day 21

21. What three lessons do you want your children to learn from you?

  1. For them to have some common sense. It really doesn’t seem that many have common sense these days. I have actually have a couple of scheduled posts around that topic, this week. I just find that a lot of our problems, everywhere. Are coming from just a lack of common sense.
  2. General kindness…By general, I mean, be kind to others. But don’t necessarily just go all out on fully trusting people. Keep a little doubt to yourself, until they have proven themselves.
  3. Enjoy your life! If things are getting too hard, take a breathe and start again tomorrow. There’s always tomorrow. You don’t owe anyone a reason why you need a break. Chances are, they’ve probably been where you are in some form or another.

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