You don’t know me

I was taking a few days off of Twitter last week. On the same day that I decided to come off of Twitter, my Dad was drunk and again “abusing” me. What got me laughing me though is whenever my Dad says something like “You were so spoiled growing up” “You don’t know my life”…and he always ends it with “Goodbye, until you decide to grow up, or Goodbye, until you stop being so sad”.

Now, it makes me laugh…Kind of like when my ex friends called me a horrible person, and how hellish I made their life.

It makes me laugh now, because it is all so utterly stupid.

I might actually feel sad, if my Dad had ever been there for me as a teenager, if my ex friends had ever actually been good friends. It might actually make me sad…I just don’t…For the longest time I felt guilt. Now, I just don’t.

I think what really sparked this thought in my head was when my Dad said that I was so spoiled growing up. How in the heck would he know? We were lucky if we saw him even once a month, and even then he was always “sick”. He wasn’t paying any child support, totally my mum’s choice, BUT still would complain about if he had too, she would spend all on it herself. So why would he think we were being spoiled? I mean, my brother was, it’s the reason why he’s bad with money now…But only one of us could get that extra money,lol

I though, was definitely not spoiled.

It’s annoying, you know?

So, let’s chat

Tell me about you

So, lets chat some time, over coffee maybe?

(No really, let’s chat some time)

*Please feel free to do this!*

As my Blog is expanding, it occurred to me that not too many of my readers know that much about myself. So I have found some questions, ones that I think are a good lucky top 7, so that you can get to know me a little better.

1. Are you named after anyone?

I am! I am named after the Hollywood Golden Age actress “Lauren Bacall

2. What’s the first thing you notice about people?

Honestly, the first thing I notice is their hair or what they may be wearing. It depends what stands out more at the time. I have noticed an increase in people getting crazy and more creative with the colour that runs through their hair and sometimes it can be with amazing results!

3. When was the last time you cried?

I have cried several times over the last week, but before that it honestly has been such a long time since I cried. I have a major frustration going on right now and it is affecting everything else in my life, but I have no control over it. I have been getting considerably less hours at work, which then, if I’m not getting paid, affects lots of other things. What’s making me the angriest is that it is clear “favourites” are being played in the situation here. It’s affecting my confidence badly as well. It upsets me because I work my butt off.

4. What’s your favourite cereal?

I don’t actually eat a lot of cereal for breakfast. I don’t usually have breakfast, other than a cup of coffee (I know, it’s bad!) Sometimes I will make myself a smoothie! If I do have cereal in my cupboards though it’s usually because I eat it throughout the day, kind of like a snack.

5. Can you cook?

I can, but it’s like my situation at work…No one believes in me. I can definitely cook though and every now and then I’ll get creative and experiment. I’m just not that “into” cooking. My major problem is everyone around me doesn’t like how slow I am, and like to point out every time I do something wrong. It definitely doesn’t help. Other people will literally will just grab whatever is in my hand and take over…But then tell me I don’t know how to cook.

6. How do you want people to feel when they read your words?

I hope when people read my words a sense of joy and hope. Even if my post is not a positive one. I believe every day we learn a new lesson, not just learn something new, but also a new lesson. Even if it’s something really small.

7. What does the meaning of this life, mean to you?

To me the meaning of life is to have as happy one as you, no matter the circumstances. Every body on this planet has a different story to tell. We’re kind of like snowflakes really, no two are the same.

*Please feel free to do this!*