World Narcissistic Abuse Day

I did not know that today is World Narcissistic Abuse Day

#IfMyWoundsWereVisible

Narcissism Abuse if often unseen by others, including the victim of the abuse. This is because Narcissism is often both a psychological and emotional. It is similar to mental abuse, generally with Narcissism abuse it’s more unseen. A lot of people know something is wrong, but they can’t put their finger on it. They are not necessarily being put down, but they are…

…That makes no sense.

It’s something you would only really understand if you ever felt it.

With a lot of abuse it’s not just romantic relationships that can be affected by any kind of form of abuse. I have come to realise that this is what one of my ex best friends was doing to myself. When I stopped making my life about her, because I couldn’t do it anymore. I was cut.

Below I’ve posted a link that can show you some signs that you are the Victim of a Narcissistic Abuser. When I first read it, I just kept nodding my head.

11 Signs You’re the Victim of Narcissistic Abuse

One of the last points is about fearing your Abuser and I actually do. It’s why I’m happy to keep her and some of her mutual friends blocked from my Facebook. I do genuinely fear her and her partner. My mum keeps telling to stop saying that, but I’ve watched too many crime channels to know that if something happened to me and I didn’t put my fears out there. They’d never know,lol. This is what narcissistic do to you, they make you paranoid,lol

 

Share Your World…Week 29

Share Your World – 2015 Week #29

Share Your World

As a child, what did you want to be when you grew up?

I wanted to be a ballet dancer when I was little, I still love to dance, but I love Latin dancing more than Ballet these days. I think it was more about being on stage and getting to dress up.

What was your favorite food as a child? Do you eat it now? 

I was always a weird one, I actually used to really enjoy my vegetables and I LOVED my banana’s. I swear that I eat worse now than when I was a kid.

If you were invisible, where would you go?

I think honestly I would go to the beach and just there for a bit and just enjoy the view (apart from the fact that it’s the middle of Winter here right now) Sounds like a great plan!

Would you rather forget everyone else’s name all the time or have have everyone for your name all the time?

I would rather have other people forget my name all the time, I would be horrified to forget other peoples name! I AM horrified when I forget people’s names,lol

Invisibility

I find this hard to explain because I consider myself to have a mild form of depression. This isn’t completely out of the realms of fantasy, since most of my Dads side of the family seem to suffer from it. The only thing is mine comes in waves if that makes sense? I’ll be upset for 30 minutes and then I’m okay again, or I use one of my coping mechanisms and I’m fine. Whereas others I know the low will go on for hours and that’s why I keep a lot of what I go through to myself. This is the “platform” that I have used to be honest and say for the first time to say publicly and honestly “I suffer from depression”.

Some of my coping tools are to just listen to a style of music depending on the type of mood I’m in, sometimes all that can through to my mind is to listen to some heavy metal music. Watching a comedy television show, I can only watch comedy through that time. How can I help others if I can’t be honest with them?

In Australia we also have this wonderful company called “Beyond Blue” (http://www.beyondblue.org.au/) If you are ever feeling down please look through this site, or if someone you know suffers from depression please read this site!

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