Independence Day

Oh yes…I know it was last week.

Amanda though at Amanda Cade, made me think of Independence Day in a completely different way.

Too view Independence Day, not as necessarily a day to celebrate America (or invasion day). But too look at Independence Day as a day to look at and give yourself permission to be independent.  Independent from something you may consider a flaw, giving yourself permission to let go and be independent from your mistakes.

I felt so inspired, reading it.

What I would like to be independent is from my ever ending fear in myself. The fear to get out there and achieve something amazing. Achieve something I have always wanted too do. I want to run my own business, the only thing is, what do I have to offer. That not only can I offer, but would be sustainable to make a survivable income on. My partner and I were talking about it, the other day. I finally became brave enough to tell him what I want to do.

It would definitely be a new age type store. Some of it, I could do now, but how well it would be. I don’t know. What I would also love to do, is sell new age “stuff”. Do Tarot Readings and Reiki Healing, both of which I’ve been told that I am good at. Now, it doesn’t “get rid” of things like cancer, but I do believe that things like Reiki, can help someone feel calmer. I use to do it for money before, and became quiet popular because of it. But the place that “hired” me was dodge-as. I was actually fired, because I reported the money I made to our welfare system, and apparently I wasn’t supposed to do that. They didn’t want our welfare system (Centrelink) to know that they were running a business.

I would love to sell teddy bears,sell Charlie Bears…Sell “witchy things”.

My partner and I were saying that I could do things like, sell tarot readings, absent Reiki healing’s (I’m a Level 2). I could even sell “witchy” and new age things, look into putting things I’ve said, if you follow me on Insta, you’ve probably seen me write a couple of “quotes” from my own thoughts. Put them on pins, bookmarks, those little canvases…

But, my fear, of not believing in myself is what I need to make myself independent from. I have a lot of ideas, but also a lot of fear in myself. Even THOUGH, when I did kind of do it, I didn’t run my own business, I worked for someone else. I was very good at what I was doing.

I still have that fear.

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Light-bulb moment for the month

I had a realisation about something that’s bugged me for pretty much my entire month. People are always asking me why can’t I make decisions easily. Why am I so indecisive? Which I’ve never really understood myself, because I am, except at work.

It occurred to me over the weekend, I noticed that I get told a lot what to do. For example, this weekend, I had all these plans with my partner before he goes back to school after the holidays. We ended up having to cancel 4-5 plans because we were “told” that the family were getting together at this time, on a certain day. We weren’t even asked if we actually able to make it. This happens to me all the time.  I was out drinking and was sent a text message telling me to not to drink because we had to go to a family thing the next day…So I got totally off my face.

When you don’t “ask” somebody basically you are telling that person that their time doesn’t matter, aren’t you really. Is there any other way to look at it? What if I can’t have children, does my time just not matter, does my LIFE not matter anymore? Then people can’t understand why I am so indecisive. I never get to decide, my time is not good enough to be consulted, so why would I make a decision when others just make it for me.

What do you all think?

Happy Fireworks Day

In a time of uncertainty, uncertainty politics, uncertain employment, i your country even still going to be there tomorrow. Sometimes it’s good to see traditions continue. I wish my American friends and readers a happy Independence Day. On July 4, 1776, the thirteen colonies claimed their independence from England, an event which eventually led to the formation of the United States.

Please just remember though fireworks can scare your family pets, so please make sure that your pets are securely secured!

Deadpool vs Zoolander 2

In the last week I have seen both Deadpool and Zoolander and it’s amazing how vastly different the two movies are. Zoolander 2 is one of those movies that has it’s bits, but there are others that just run on and on and I’m not sure who made the decision that it was…well I think they thought it was funny? Deadpool though was amazing when it came to timing. None of the jokes run to long and it kept going, there was a nice flow and it all made sense.

I was disappointed in the Zoolander movie, just because I loved the original so much and I know that there’s the whole the sequels are never as good as the originals, but I really wanted this to be good. Deadpool was just amazing. If there is a sequel (which I believe there will be) I have a feeling it will be good.

It seems kind of harsh to judge these two movies at the same time, even though they are different types of movies. However, I put them together because these are two huge movies of the moment. It doesn’t shock me though that Deadpool is doing so much better than Zoolander 2. I just wish that whoever put the whole Zoolander film together really watched it all together.

Also one of the clear differences was that Zoolander is definitely more “child-friendly” than Deadpool. Here in Australia the rating for Deadpool in only MA15+. Which means children can see it if accompanied by a parent. However, I was shocked by the amount of parents who brought their children into see Deadpool, because I wouldn’t. During the movie I got uncomfortable knowing that there were children in there. It’s not even the sexual scenes, it’s a little gory and there are a few intense scenes.

Happy 4th of July!

Just thought that I would give a quick shout out at my American friends and readers and wish them a happy 4th of July! Party and be safe! I’m sure that you all are aware of the celebrations of July the 4th, but I’ve just added some links for those who might be more curious or interested.

I guess this is a good time to ask my other readers what days do their countries celebrate their “independence”. Australia Day is held every years on January the 28th and is usually a Public Holiday.