I had a realisation about something that’s bugged me for pretty much my entire month. People are always asking me why can’t I make decisions easily. Why am I so indecisive? Which I’ve never really understood myself, because I am, except at work.
It occurred to me over the weekend, I noticed that I get told a lot what to do. For example, this weekend, I had all these plans with my partner before he goes back to school after the holidays. We ended up having to cancel 4-5 plans because we were “told” that the family were getting together at this time, on a certain day. We weren’t even asked if we actually able to make it. This happens to me all the time. I was out drinking and was sent a text message telling me to not to drink because we had to go to a family thing the next day…So I got totally off my face.
When you don’t “ask” somebody basically you are telling that person that their time doesn’t matter, aren’t you really. Is there any other way to look at it? What if I can’t have children, does my time just not matter, does my LIFE not matter anymore? Then people can’t understand why I am so indecisive. I never get to decide, my time is not good enough to be consulted, so why would I make a decision when others just make it for me.
What do you all think?