Please, help me again!

My Grandmama (who would hit me over the head for calling her that,lol). Is turning…Well a lady never tells of another ladies age. It’s an important number though. Her baby brother is even coming all the way from the UK. He has never been here before! It’s a pretty big deal!

I had one idea of buying her a necklace with the birth stone of her parents and her children. As my own brother mentioned though. It might make her depressed at such a “late stage”. So I have been going back and forth between it. One day I’ll think it’s a sweet idea, but she has been “losing it” a little lately >.< She’s supposed to be the most mentally sound of all of us. I think one day it’ll make her happy and then another it’ll just make her depressed.

One thing I have already bought her is a collection of Oscar Wilde stories. My Gran was a Librarian and she has always loved books. She’s got such a big book case! I’m always borrowing books from her. She also really loves Ravens, they are her “animal”. Like Lions, Wolves and Owls are mine…and her mothers. I have only been able to find one “thing” of a Raven, that’s actually nice and hasn’t got all death surrounding it.

Crowchet Zipper Pouch

I still like the idea of the birthstone, and the family tree. This where you all come in. Also, if you want to add any ideas to my Discord channel, please free too! I have added a channel “craftamake” Where people can share ideas and ask for Craft ideas.

 

 

 

Help!…What do I do?

I just wanted to say that I have not told anyone else about how I’m feeling right now. Mainly because I’ve never really dealt with this kind of a situation before. I wanted to write this here first to see what you all think.

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Published on 21 Feb 2013

I swear this is how I honestly really feel.

I feel a little paranoid, but too me anyways, there is a genuine fear of one of my ex-friends. Her last message to me basically consisted of her accusing me of treating her badly the last couple of years, which isn’t true. I was the only to stand up against her abusive boyfriend. One of the things she said as well though that’s stuck in my mind, in her last message to me. Were her comments that said “Even though I know you don’t wish me the same, I hope you and your family are safe and have a good new year”.

It struck me for a couple of reasons:

  • Once again, I am nothing like that. I don’t even wish my abusive ex’s ill-will.
  • Second, I had literally just sent her a card, at Christmas, saying I wish her a safe new year.

It’s made me realise how truly delusional she is.

Even though we live in completely different states. She still has family and best friends here (all my ex-friends) and you can get deals under $100 quiet easily to travel by plane very easily between our states. I genuinely fear her and her boyfriend, because of this. I feel paranoid even thinking it, but it’s a true fear and I do want to talk to someone, maybe my Mum and family about it. Just to tell them not to interact with her (if she does contact them…Though I doubt it).

 

Journal Journalling

I have seen so many Blogs with journals, all different types! Day to day journals, monthly journals, brain storming journals, bullet journals…I feel like this would be a fantastic idea for myself, but I’m just not sure where to start?

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I would love to have a journal where I don’t necessarily write down, detail for detail, of my day. Something more along the lines of writing down ideas, thoughts of the day, but also have a space for brainstorming. I find that a lot of the times, I have an idea, but if I don’t do something then and there, I forgot. It usually will take me a while to remember it, lately I’ve been “texting” myself…to remind myself. The only thing I know is that I would love for it too be monthly as well. So I can look back after the year and see where I’ve come from.

I would love to hear from our resident experts if they have any ideas!

My dream journal would have in it:

  • Daily Planner
  • Brainstorming
  • Random Quotes/Thoughts
  • Via monthly.

Getting started

This is for all my drawing/artist/creative type readers/Home Business followers…At the moment I have two casual jobs and while I enjoy both of them I am just not making enough money. I’m making enough to “survive” and luckily my partner and my mum charge me rent/bills on a percentage of what I make, rather than a set amount.

As I mentioned before I really do enjoy where I’m working at both places, I am really lucky that all my co-workers are lovely people and even with that one expected customer that’s always causing trouble. The work is good too, not to difficult that I just can’t do it, but keeps me busy and my mind off other things. Some weeks though I just don’t get the shifts, which when you’re a casual means, you get paid…well…nothing.

So this is where all my drawing/artist/creative type readers/Home Business followers come into play. I want to do something from home where I can make money as well. I love doing little crafty things and I would love to make a little business of bits and bobs. However, I have no idea where to start. So I was hoping that someone could give me ideas of any web pages or any sites that are good for people who want to get started, what sites are good to sell on, any legal information I may need. I was thinking of making things like:

  • Themed candles as well as just random scented
  • Handmade cards for all occasions
  • Flowery headbands
The Thinker
“The Thinker” created by Le Penseur

I am writing a couple of stories and am even writing what I call “script ideas” for a tv show for a role playing game that I used to play and I would love to be able to draw. I am a very visual person, but I am honestly also too lazy to learn how to draw properly. I can start and try, but I’d probably never get to the point where I could sell the art. The writing is mainly for myself and I’m not sure that I have to confidence to try and sell the ideas to someone either…It makes me feel kind of sad too at the same time as well. Who doesn’t want to be the next J.K. Rowling?

Taking a step backward…Step FORWARD!

setback-set-up

Maybe not the best way to set up a Monday, but I felt like it was a point that I wanted to talk about, of something that happened to me over the weekend. I felt like I had taken a huge step back.

*Just warning…If you do suffer from a anxiety and you’re having a bad day, this post may not be for you today. Even though there is a positive message behind it. I don’t want to be responsible for any triggering.*

Friday morning i had the day off of work and with how well I had been on Thursday, I had decided to head out and do some shopping on the Friday morning. Lately I have been ordering pretty much everything online, because I don’t know how I am going to be from one day to the other.

Taking you back to last year, after an traumatic incident, I have developed an, well I think, a really odd form of anxiety. Too break it down, because someone, who will remain nameless at this point, decided that no, they could not pull over (even though we went past a McDonald’s, a gas station AND a public toilet) and let me out to get to a toilet. I spent 20 minutes basically trapped in a car, actually NEEDING to get out. After the person had left me hanging all day while I drunk tea all day and no food. We were supposed to go clothes shopping, but they had to do some things in the morning. Which was fine, but once it got to 3pm, I was starting to get annoyed. I didn’t know if we were eating, was I supposed to eat first. I was actually in the middle of a text to let them not to bother, when they finally showed up. Our clothes stores close at 5pm on the weekend.

So giving that they finally turned up, we basically run out of the door, which was a bad idea. I didn’t go to the toilet before we left and I had been drinking all day, to fill my stomach. I had been filling my bladder instead.Since then whenever I am in a car, or travelling. I get anxious and feel like I need to get to a toilet badly. I have been getting better with help of hypnotherapy.

I was actually getting better, until a couple of weeks ago. I had one bad night, where I don’t even know what happened, but my stomach hurt and I just had to go. Then it feels like it’s gotten worse, with a rare good day here and there, and just this Friday morning I nearly ended up crying in a shopping mall. It was horrible and I hate it.

I felt SO fed up, I’m tired of fighting it because it’s feels so stupid. When I do go, even in the woes of panic, nothing happens…I can’t even begin to tell you how frustrating it is, how tiring it is. I can’t just do things on a whim and even when I plan things, it still doesn’t always work out. I’m alright coming back and forth from work and sometimes travelling to my partners house I do really well.

Then I have mornings like I did Friday…

I try not to be too hard on myself, I’m doing well every well else, just more necessarily when I have a “duty”.

 That’s the whole thing though, I am so tired of it, that I now have a plan. I had stopped doing all the things that had helped when I started to get better, because I swear just that one bad moment has seemingly ruined it all.

  1. So instead of doing it once a week, like I was before. I’m not going to be mediating and listening to my hypnosis tapes, at LEAST every second day. Definitely the night before long trips.
  2. I have to promise to myself to not be so hard on myself.
  3. When I go shopping by myself, if I need to leave, then I need to leave…It’s alright
  4. I have to start walking my dog again, because that was what honestly what started to heal me before. Whether that be a 5 minute walk or a 30 minute walk, I handle what I can handle. That’s what I used to do before. The walks got longer and longer over time.
  5. No coffee before long drives.
  6. Mostly, it’s okay to admit I am not okay, but I will be. I am not going to let this defeat me.
  7. Trying to figure out a way to calm my mind down before I get into a car, especially with those unexpected trips.

I would actually really like any ideas, or any suggestions about any of the above, or if you want to share…Please feel free…No judgement!

What’s to be done with this Homer Simpson?

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I just thought that I’d put this video up because how true is this?! I’m at a point in my life where I can feel that everything is just changing. But what’s to be done? Where does one start? I can’t keep living the life I’ve been living, I am so happy in my romantic relationship and I am enjoying too much just hiding away every single weekend with him, I just can’t keep doing that any- more.

Naturally I am an introvert, but even I have to get out and see people. Unfortunately a lot of people are driving me nuts at the moment, which is why it is easy for me to hideaway.

The other problem is that I have possibly TOO many ideas going on in my head, so many ideas and no idea where I can start with any of it. I would love to do something, possibly using my Blog to sell stuff, start my own fantasy jewellery online shopping. Cosplaying is something I’m looking into, but even with that. Sewing is not my “forte” and I have no idea where to start!

Any help?!

 

Conservation Work

As you would probably expect watching a live safari drive web live (http://www.ustream.tv/channel/wildearth-safaris) the conversation about conservation comes up. How much money it costs to run a conservation park, why can’t we all win the lottery. I hate that I have all these ideas and yet I don’t have the skills or the knowledge, or the backing to set something up. Especially when it comes to conservation work, I think animals deserve to be here more a lot more than we do.

#ideasworthspreading

  • One idea is to make plushies, mainly of endangered animals and each plushie that is purchased you give the money to conservation.
  • Making fantasy type jewellery with all of the African wildlife on it.

Changes are coming!

This is definitely feeling to be the year where I think for certain things are definitely going to happen. I already feel fussy and I know that if I don’t get to doing something soon the motivation will disappear, but the problem is…Where to start?

I already have ideas for doing some cosplays this year, but I don’t sow so I don’t even know if it’s “wrong” to get someone else to make an outfit for me. I know what I wish to do, but we’ll see if it happens. Cosplaying is not cheap at all!

There is also some motivation for this blog and maybe writing up some reviews. Now I have never done a professional type of review before, I have always just written my personal opinion, so will have to do some research into that. I have actually thought about starting to write a novel of some kind, but I really feel like you have to have a calling for that. I’m not sure what I’d write about or where to even start!

Watch this space for more, changes are happening…