Day 14 – 21 Single Womans Blogging Challenge!

So here is my third instalment of my Blogging Challenge…I can’t believe that I am already up to the third week! January is nearly already gone…Damn!

15)   Narrate a conversation between you and someone in your life who you never had closure with (a friend, an ex, a family member, etc.) What would you say? What would they say? What outcome would you hope for?

Well there are so many people that I wish that I could do this with question! Especially since this is the year that I’m trying to get the toxic people out of my life. The thing is I don’t want to take them out, I never ever do. I have a Disney type view on the world in these matters. As I say though I am the most idealist realist you’ll ever met. I am always willingly to forgive and have people back in my life, as long as I believe that they are genuine in their apologises. I may need time, but I always want people back in my life…I’ll always make room again. You can forgive some, but you do not need them back in your life.

I wish all the time that I could have my Great Grand-Father back, and there are so many conversations with him I wish that I could have that I wouldn’t know what to start!  About me, friendships, my life, career…He was an extremely inspirational person in my life.

16)   If you planted a time capsule right now of your life to be opened in 20 years, what would be in it?

  • Doctor Who memorabilia and most likely with my fan letter to Matt Smith.
  • Lord of the Rings and the Hobbit memorabilia
  • The group photo of when my family went on our family vacation
  • A picture of my doggies
  • A copy of my Library Studies certificate
  • Probably one of my rockabilly dresses
  • One of my favourite candles
  • A recipe of Lasagne

17)   What are your spiritual beliefs and how do they impact your relationships/relationship status?

I am what is better known as an “Agonistic”. Meaning I don’t necessarily believe in a God, but I believe in other spiritual worlds. I do believe in Guardian spirits/angels, psychics etc. I do however love what the Dali Lama and what the Buddhist stands for. I also do Reiki.

So far with the Reiki/Tarot part of my life, my ex’s haven’t been judgmental of my life. It’s something that I do not force down their throats and so far they have been extremely open minded to it and one of them even asked me to do Reiki on him a few times. So when I am looking for a partner, they don’t have to believe in it themselves, they do have to be respectful that I do it and will continue to do so.

18)   If you could have a conversation with yourself in high school, what would you say? 

To believe more in myself! Take the trip to America it will change your life. Start studying Library Studies and not to wait till later! The right man is going to come along, so don’t worry about it even if it take years and too always remember that family is here for you no matter what.

19)   What is something about you that people would be surprised to learn?

I think a lot of people are deceived by my sunny like nature. I’ve always been of the thought that if you haven’t done anything wrong to me. Why do I think I have the right to be nasty and bitchy just because I woke up like that? I know a LOT of girls who will literally say “I woke up in a bad mood, so I am going to be a bitch all day today”. So a lot of people think I am pretty much a walk over, which is completely not the case at all! I can easily kick people’s butts! Then they’re shocked I can stand up for myself.

20)   Describe your most difficult breakup and what you learned from it

Well in case most people haven’t heard, it was definitely my last break up. Ironically it was the shortest relationship I’ve ever had too because I knew something was off, couldn’t figure out what it was until we broke up,lol.

However, I can say that I have learnt the most from it. No more toxic people, I can’t just put up with stuff anymore. I have been doing a lot more things that I was previously afraid to and I do things because I want too and not give a stuff what others thinks. It has been amazing! I’ve been having a lot more fun than any other time in my life and I am doing things that are proving to be extremely positive!

21)   How would you pitch a reality show about yourself? To what network?

Ahhh…Well I have never done anything like that before. I guess the best kind of show I could pitch si a lady coming towards the end of her 20’s. No kids, no marriage and he quest as she enters her thirties looking for personal fulfilment. How is it to be a single women in her 30’s in this day and age?

No idea about the network, maybe the Lifestyle channel? No idea,lol

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Thorin Oakenshield

Well since I am seeing “The Hobbit: Desolation of Smaug” for the second time in Gold Class (cannot wait!) I thought it might be appropriate to talk about one of my favourite characters. I have read both the book and the, as mentioned before, this will be my second time seeing the second film…No Spoilers!lol

Thorin Oakenshield is a fictional character from J.R.R Tolkiens book “The Hobbit”. It was first released in 1937 and is the ‘prequel’ to the “Lord of the Rings” books. Thorin is one of the leading characters in “The Hobbit” and is the leader of a company of Dwarves who are planning to take back their home, the Lonely Mountain, from the Dragon Smaug. Thorins name “Oakenshield” was given to him after fighting against orcs in the Battle of Azanulbizar, with a length of oak shielding him.

Thorin is probably what you call a “Tragic Hero”. He loses a lot of immediate family and he is determined in all of his causes and is a strong and true fighter. Though no matter what successes he has, they always seem to come undone and these situations make Thorin withdrawn and seemingly cut off with only one thing on his mind. Reclaim his home and throne!

On a personal note, I always very surprised that I developed a ‘crush’ on Thorin. I normally go for the goofy character and Thorin just seems so grumpy. I think though Thorin came into my life when I was cut off from the world and was also resisting letting anyone in. Yet at the same time I became almost over protective of those who had been hurt. There was one YouTube video that I discovered when I was in a bad way that I instantly related to in terms of Thorin representing how I was feeling and the video was pretty much showing what was going on in my mind at the time. With Thorins determination and will to fight the Pale Orc, the pale orc is about 3-4 times bigger than Thorin…kind of like my ex,lol…I am also extremely stubborn,lol.

Video created by: Yotube User – Tatyana Oracle

Song/Music Credit:

Title: Heart of Courage (choir)
Album: Legend
Artist: Two Steps from Hell

One week today <3

One week from today Christmas will be here and that also means its one week away from the Doctor Who Christmas Special! Although I am looking forward to see what Peter Capaldi can bring to the Doctor I don’t want Matt Smith too go =(

Matt Smith has been such a hero for me, he came along when I found it a hard time to believe that men can be kind at all. Now don’t get me wrong, I love my brothers, cousins, Uncles and my Grandfather was an amazing human being. I’m related to them though and they are so amazing! My brother and my cousins, especially the ones I grew up with, are younger than me and they ALL own their own businesses, successful in their fields and are amazing cooks! Most importantly they are who they are and they are not ashamed of that. I’m very proud of them.

This year really made me question though the way I had been treated, not just by my ex’s, especially the last one, but also by my guy friends. It started to make me realise that if I had dated my guy friends, I would have dumped pretty much all of them by now, the way they treat women. Most being in their thirties and in serious long term relationships. They publicly hit on high school girls and constantly “two-face” each other behind each other’s backs for doing the exact same things. They humiliated me publicly over a one night stand I had that I didn’t realise they knew about, without asking me why, since I’ve never done it before or since.

I needed to believe in guys outside of my family and that’s what Matt Smith did for me. He is so quirky and adorable and lovable and the speeches! I know that he plays a part, but since I’ve done drama and ballet and have been on the stage pretty much all of my life. I know that when someone performs the way he does, especially in his amazingly powerful speeches (See “Rings of Akhaten” speech, also known as “The Long Song”) there is something inside of that person that is really truly there. He’s always just so humble and children just seem to think he’s silly and the funniest thing ever. Matt Smith proved to me that you don’t have to have the biggest muscles, be the most well-put together or be the most coordinated to be a hero. You just have to be you, be real, be true, and be kind. Matt Smith is one of a kind. I shall miss him so much…Luckily with today’s easy internet global world, I can pretty much buy with his face on it and download his speeches.

Matt Smith shall always be a hero to me and I don’t think I could ever thank him enough for what he’s done and what he’s been able to make believe in again.

 

I thank you Matt Smith.

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