I didn’t expect this…

I’ve only been on the online dating site for a couple of days and I already have two guys that I’m interested in and they seem interested in me too…

In the moments though when I am not talking to them and those silent few minutes before I asleep. I am suddenly reminded of the heartbreak that I have only recently endured and it comes all flooding back to me and then I am paralysed again by fear and I just want to go back to the beginning of the year and start all over again.

I don’t want to feel like this any-more, I want to be happy, I don’t want to be sad. It is easy to forgive, it’s hard to forget. I wish that there was someone who could just give me one big hug and tell me that it was all going to be okay and for once be able to believe it myself.


Last Friday Night…

Take me back to last Friday night,
where I was yours
And you were mine,
For that final time, though neither of us knew.

You’ve only just left,
My heart has never wanted you more,
Turn back around that corner,
Please don’t let me watch you drive away.

I don’t want you to go,
Please don’t go,
Please come back,
Take me back to Friday night…

I miss you, you don’t even know and I can’t tell you, not a bit, not a little bit…Not at all ❤


Seldomly the right thing…

The quote for this week isn’t actually from a well known author or a well known character…This is a quote that I thought of a couple of days ago while I was volunteering and it just resonated with my situation this week =)

“Very seldom does the right thing to do, feel like the right thing to do, and is usually the very last thing that you want to do”

Author – Lolsys Library 2014