Yes, I have been taking natural medicine to help with my leg, and it’s been working. Apparently this must be all a “placebo” affect though because I really wanted it to work. Apparently I didn’t want my “Western” medicine to work because I loved walking around in pain?
This has become a big issue for me apparently. I am a big believer in using both western and eastern medicines both together as they both have great benefits. I strongly believe that they both cannot work without the other. Some people I know are under the impression that when I went to my naturopath I was only feeling the benefits because I “really wanted it too work”. As opposed to the 3-4 months I was trying to get Doctors to give me medicines that wouldn’t just temporarily fix the pain, but get rid of the problem all together. During those months I mustn’t have wanted to get rid of the pain that badly? I am a masochist, without even realising and not even wanting to be one.
The most frustrating people I despise meeting are the ones who don’t like something or haven’t even tried a particular something, but judge it, and call themselves “open-minded”. While putting you down for using something when it has indeed worked for you.
Talking with the girls (as one does) and we were talking about which ex’s do we regret the most. I’m not sure that I actually regret any of my past relationships, however there is one relationship that has an interesting way to view it and I wonder if I am alone in this.
My last relationship I felt like he was lying so much about who he was, that he never knew who I was. To me there is not way that he could possibly have cared about the real me, because if you don’t know who a person is…How can you possibly know what can hurt them? How would you know what they would consider to be a betrayal?
I put it down to this, it was like dating an actor, but dating their amazing fictional character and then realising, disappointingly, you were dating this whole other real reality. It’s the best way that I can think of to explain my last relationship. I think that’s why I find it so hard to get over what happened…Who did I date? Did I date the man, or the character?Any ways…Don’t matter no more ~.^ hehe
So last night I went out a date with the “guy”…(I really should give him a nickname…Sir, I’ll call him “Sir” He is a Sir =D). We’ve pretty much just been going out, but not hanging out if that makes sense. So I brought it up if he minded us going slowly. I think sometimes I forget (and others too) that only a couple of days before I decided to try out the online dating scenes I got into the last major fight with my ex.
I probably should have given myself more time, but I didn’t expect to actually meet someone. At the same time though, I have not a single doubt that that is the reason I need to take things slowly. I can feel in my heart that it’s very broken and it feels like trying to stick steel back together again. But it sticking back together, not exactly as it was of course, but it is.
Anyways we had “the talk” last night and I walked away very happy from it. I think he actually really listened to why I needed to take things slowly and he is actually in the same boat as me. I don’t know if he had a fight with his ex two days before he went on the online dating site, but he’s tired of being hurt too. So we are actually both wanting to take it slowly. It was such a good conversation and I am so glad that I brought it up, he really listens to me.
I am really glad that I’ve met him =)
As this clip proves, that tea does, in fact, fix everything =D
Uploaded by Heath Chamerski
Uploaded on 27 Jan 2008
A discussion of the healing properties of a cup of tea.
So tonight I had a bit of a freak out and a bit of a wobble. Currently here in South Australia we are experiencing a major devastating bush fire, people lives are being lost, homes and property completely gone and we unfortunately had one well known kennel and cattery burnt down with many of the dogs and all of the cats still on the property.
Anyways this same night I had a date with the number one guy (there is no number two guy anymore). I heard that the suburbs that three different ex’s of mine are from, were required to evacuate. I couldn’t help myself, I got worried and I realised that I still cared. Not in love care, but worry something will go wrong kind of caring. Then I got angry at myself for caring at all. My mum told me it was perfectly naturally to still care and worry while not being in love with that person.
I hate though that I still care about these people who obviously never cared about me. I highly doubt that if they heard that I had to be evacuated that they would worry about me at all. I got so upset that I still care and I know that they don’t and now I’m frightened that it’ll happen to me all over again.
I can already tell it’s happening, everything that the number one guy did tonight bugged the crap out of me and yet I know in the back of my head none of it’s any of his fault, so I managed to fake a “sickie” and get myself out of the date earlier than anticipated and then collapsed in tears when I got home. 30 years of being treated like hell and I think that I broke tonight. I can feel myself cutting off and becoming cold.
p.s. I will be fine, I just can’t seem to stop crying tonight.
This Matthew West guy seems to get it…
Uploaded by QueenGalaxii
Published on 14 May 2012
Although it is Magical Monday there’s nothing that can heal the heart like a good old Disney song and this may be one of the best there is! I have this on my iPod and I always listen to it before I have to deal with something I don’t want too…and then listen it too afterwards.
Uploaded on 10 Jun 2011 – Archie Budd
This song is from the “Tangled” animated movie. This film and the audio-visual content of the video is in property of Walt Disney Animation Studios and Walt Disney Pictures! I don’t own anything in this video.
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