An Accomplishment

40. Your Greatest Accomplishment 

Wow, this is hard one to think of, without sounding completely “up myself”. I think the greatest accomplishment is something that my brother actually said too me. I have a big heart and that seems a little in short supply these days. I think I was also very much brought to tears when my brother wrote it as well.

It’s not that we’re not close or don’t love each other, but we don’t usually…but we are totally “cool” with each other. I know that it meant something when he said it. Too me that is a huge accomplishment to have a good relationship with my brother. You see, if you knew my Dad’s side, they either all hate each other or they just don’t talk to one another.

So to have a normal type relationship with my brother feels like a really huge thing. In all honesty it feels like if you’ve got a family that not only can tolerate each other differences, but genuinely love each other too…That is just huge! I know how huge that is.

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This is so funny, I was going to write about something completely different,lol

Heritage

39. Your Heritage 

I AM SO BORING! I’m white and I am mostly English, first generation Australian but my great great grandparents on my Grandmother/mothers side are Irish…On the surface my Heritage is probably what people would call a “basic b*@ch”.

Then we have to ask ourselves, what is Heritage? Is it skin based, is it where you are born, is it traditions set by your family…or is it all of the above? My family on both sides have had amazing people that you will have never have heard of, but make me feel extremely proud.

Even when things were “proper” in England my family never really did follow the rules. Take my Mothers Grand mother (who I wish I had met). Lost part of her leg to polio, never stopped her. She had the operation and a week later she was hopping everywhere. My mum said that she was constantly falling over, but it didn’t bother her. She was gentle and kind, but made of ‘tough stuff’. Her oldest son was born out of wedlock (there was a rumour it was the preacher’s son) and she claimed him as her own, something completely unheard of at the time.

My Great Grandfather (who I wish was still around) was just so wise, although had an Irishman’s temper, but not with me and not with my Mum…We’re special *nods head* We found this notebook full of all of his thoughts and I would love to share them with you all. However I feel like I need to ask permission to see if I can share them. I have wanted to Greece and visit the ancient sites and we recently found a notebook with all his thoughts and he was writing about visiting Greece. Visiting the ancient sites. It’s amazing, even from beyond how he still influences me.

Then there was a Great Uncle of my Grandmother…He was found murdered and dressed in a dress, which apparently he used to do a lot (Is my brother a reincarnation?)

At a time when people didn’t do the things they weren’t supposed to be doing my family were doing, they were doing them. I like to carry that around with me. A lot of people from my family were very far ahead of their times.

Music is the very nature of our souls…Or something…

38. Your favourite music

I am definitely one of those annoying people who pretty much likes all the music…

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Except for heavy death screaming metal…

What I love the most about music is that it can change your mood, you can switch yourself out of a mood or keep staying in a mood, just based on the music you listen too. I am sure that you have people out there who probably don’t even like music. For me though there have been times in my life where I feel like music as literally saved my life and has stopped me from making terrible mistakes.

Radio

Things you like about Fall/Spring

34. Things you like about Fall/Spring

There are so MANY things that I love about Fall and Spring, I’m a big fan of Spring the most though, It is definitely my favourite season of the whole year. Even though nothing “special” is in it…Spring is a special three months all on it’s own!

I love Spring, it means that Winter is finally over and yet, it’s not too hot at the moment like it is in the Summer. It’s just feels perfect, you can stay outside without either freezing or sweltering. You can swear skirts and dresses without over heating and at the same time not freezing either. I always love the first day of Spring, when it really feels like Spring. Every time I really feel like that first day of Spring the only song that comes on in my head “Here comes the sun” by George Harrison. It will play over and over again in my head and it is GLORIOUS!!!

Looking Forward

33. Something you look forward too

I wish that I could honestly say that I wish I knew! There just seems to be very little to look forward too. I am trying REALLY hard, but I’ve had a horrible week. Without too much help or helpful words either. I keep getting horrible work shifts and I don’t understand why, and nothing much else to look forward too, other than working…terrible shifts…It’s really quiet depressing. I ended up saying no to a work shift because I was sick of getting certain ones and then just to be asked to do another horrible one -.- All people can say is “get your licence”…How is that helpful?! Even if I went and got my “L’s” tomorrow, I STILL CAN’T DRIVE BY MYSELF. Since they have all said they are not teaching me, it’s a pretty pointless thing to say. It is UNHELPFUL…I’m getting annoyed just writing all this,lol.

So quiet honestly, I pretty much have nothing to look forward too. No parties coming up, no events, nothing.

I still call Australia home…

32. A city you’ve visited

I guess I would have to talk about Arizona in the United States of America. A few years ago I went there for a few months a time every few months….I would work my butt off in Australia for a few months and then stay in Arizona for a few months.  I was actually dating someone from Arizona and then of course, it just never seemed to work out.

I am grateful for it for a few various reasons. It was the bravest thing I had ever done. Everyone was shocked that I went over there, including myself. I never seemed the type to go over and potentially get stood up in a “foreign” country. Which actually nearly happened, because he went to the area.

Also though it made me brave for so many different reasons. I travelled by myself and I do get airsick. I had to learn to do a lot by myself. Travelling to America taught me how to really cook, rather than just heat things up. Walking around by myself, my partner at the time worked retail at Walmart and it was about 10-15 minute walk. I used to walk around and buy grocery shopping, I learnt a lot to do by myself.

The Core Value

31. Core Value

My core value…This one has been such an interesting one to think/write about, because I think that I have a few different types on core values depending on the situation.

The one that I think I think is most true to my core value though is to just be kind. I have done so many tests about your personality where they ask about what do you value most. They are usually something like Kindness, Honesty, Humour, and something else, but I always chose kindness. I feel with kindness comes all those kinds of responsibility. Generally I find that if you are just kind to others, the other values just kind of come naturally.

By kindness to me that incorporates everything from physically helping others to just sitting and listening to someone. Even when they are saying something that you don’t necessarily agree with, but they seem to need to get off their chest. Sometimes the reward that comes with that as well is to finally understand why someone thinks that way they do.

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I’m old!lol

30. Your Current Age

A true Lady never reveals her age!

I can say though that I somewhere in-between 32-34 years old ~.^

There is a lot to be grateful for at this age. I feel like myself and others around my age, we’re at that age when we are starting to realise that being “Us” is hey okay. We still have insecurities and I don’t think that’s really going go away, but they don’t tend to plague most of us. Sure there will always be those people who just have issues all the time. I think though being older and wiser you learn to have better coping skills, most of the time.

I think you start to learn that not being the best friend of everyone is alright. Not going to every single club is alright. Having complete weekends in and not seeing another human being the whole weekend, is really quiet satisfying. That as long as you’re a good person and you are doing the best you can, that’s alright. It’s okay to not have everything perfectly set yet either. You’re still young enough to…How can I term this…Make life changing decisions, but also old enough to be content if this is what you want for your life. Whether that is making huge decisions or just living to day to day.

I’m not a parent so I would assume that’s a different kind of life all together, and I can’t really make comments about that.

 

 

 

Memories…All alone with my memory

29. Your favourite memory

Wow! This was so hard to break this down to one, I have a lot of “favourite time” memories. From significant things to when I got some great retail therapy deals!

Which then got me thinking and then I started feeling grateful, just because I have so many favourite memories  and that is definitely something to be grateful for. I feel like I have a lot more favourite memories than unhappy ones, I have been very lucky. That is something bee extremely grateful for. The good outweighs the bad.

The good and bad memories both remind me of how far I have and remind me of how I overcome things in the past and who overcome them with me. Even the bad ones have ended up good!

The Past

28. The Past

This is such a hard one to think about and write about, because I truly do believe that we learn from our past. So I cannot think of just one experience or one situation that I am grateful for from my past, I am so grateful for a lot of things from my past. I guess that I could run with that, but that too me personally is such an easy way out. So, for your viewing, I have thought about a lot of situations and what came out of those situations that have made me the person that I am today.

In my past the thing that I am most grateful for, is my family. When I look back at every single thing in my life, my family (mostly immediate) are the ones who have always been there.

From the several times I’ve been bullied over the years, especially those times with two particular girls who really introduced me too “cuber bullying” I didn’t know how to handle it, every day or every time I’d make a post I’d get attacked. My family were there ones who took care of me, they knew how to keep me from going off the edge. My mum figured out what foods I could eat and actually keep down.