I actually have had a pretty good weekend, considering everything that came before it. I think a lot of it had to do with the fact that I accept my mistakes, I accept my faults. I know that when I get upset, I can blow. I blame the Irish in me. But when I do blow, I’m blowing because I feel like no one’s listening. Also, when I do blow, I’m not lying when or why it happens. Do you know what I mean? I can walk away from a “fight” and go “you know, at least I was honest”.
I could talk about being true to myself. Just generally, when you are arguing, and I do not mean, debating, but also do that during debating too. When you are arguing with someone, ALWAYS, tell the truth. Even if it harsh, tell the truth, always. One of the things that my mum kept saying was “Your paranoid”
Which I totally am.
But it doesn’t mean I’m wrong in my paranoia. I didn’t say that to her though. She wasn’t calling me paranoid, for the right reasons.
Joseph Heller — ‘Just because you‘re paranoid doesn’t mean they aren’t after you.’ I am completely paranoid, but she also proved me correct.
The other thing that happened was, because my Mum did go on about how EVERYONE was saying how wrong I was, and everyone thought it was horrible how I’d put my partners family above my brother. Which is not what happened at all. I have a few family members helping me with the wedding. So I instantly went and just let them know what actually had happen. That I don’t want to put a divide in the family, and if they are uncomfortable, they don’t have to come. No one knew what I was talking about.
The funniest moment though came from one of my Mums friends, who has had no idea what’s been going on, lol. I wrote on FB about how I am really glad that I am not a young bride and trying to “remind” people that it’s two people getting married. That all you need are the partners, the celebrant and a couple of witnesses.
They said “If people really wish you well, then it will come with no strings attached!”
Don’t worry, I’m getting to the grateful part, haha.
This is what has been bugging me. My word should be enough to go “okay then”.
When my partner and I were choosing a date, there were only 3 dates available at the time, and when we wanted it.
One was my partner’s nephew’s birth date. That one was not up for debate.
One was an ex’s birthday
And Nov the 18th was just right.
At the same time there were other people looking at either the 11th of 18th of November. So we booked the 18th in. We then went and went let my partners family know. So they booked stuff in. It wasn’t until about a month later, that I saw the FB post.
As I started to say at the beginning there, I actually had a good weekend. Mainly because everything became clearer. I got some really amazing advice, and pretty much the only person with a problem, is my mum. At the moment anyway, it might become more difficult as time goes on and more and more people find, but, for the moment, it’s all good.
I also wrote down what I’m grateful for, because I found that also helped. You know something? I have a lot to be grateful for.
- My partner
- Good work place
- Roof over my head
- Ability to write
- The advice given too me today
- The lessons that my Gran taught me