Right, so I am already bored with being stick inside. I only go outside, with a mask on to feed the birds, and out bed washing.
It really is quiet frustrating, because I was going to spend the past weekend:
*Popping to the Library
*Picking up my click and collect presents for my Mum’s birthday presents.
*Picking up new work pants, which I really need.
*And I was getting so much leave at work too. I need to take a couple of days off around Christmas week.
What I’ve been doing this week:
*Streaming
*Catching up on my reading.
*Add to my book collection, via the Kobo. As if I don’t have enough to read already, lol.
*Catching up on some journal and diary writing.
*I have seen some series that I am looking into now. Have you all seen the Windsor’s?
*The house is now properly disinfected.
*Signing into LinkedIn, after months away and seeing that my ex-best friend looked at my profile three days prior!Hahahahaha…
*And the ideas! Ideas on how to improve the house, the garden. Even ideas about doing work from home. Unfortunately, I am not allowed to work from home. Since we deal with a lot of privacy details.
After last week, and after having a cold all weekend, this past weekend. There’s one thing that I really need to start doing.
Making goals.
Last week, I got so caught up in not healthy things, that I become stress sick. Which is a thing. You stress yourself out so much that you become sick, through seemingly nothing. As your immune system is down.
Now when I talk about goals, I don’t mean necessarily, making the bed every day. Although I do hear that’s a good one, because no matter what else, you achieve through the day. You’ve at least made your bed.
When I mean goals, I am talking/writing about things like:
Restricting my social media time to an hour a day. On days that I feel like going on.
Making a little bird house on the ground. Honestly, it’s cold here a lot now. I feed the birds since Travie’s been gone. Yesterday I noticed a few on them stayed under the verandah after they got caught out, in the rain.
Since I’m behind in my reading, I need to spend a couple of hours a day reading something.
Clean the stove top.
Rebook my flu/cold jab after getting the flu this weekend =/
Right, I don’t know how this is going to go. However, since February is the month of “love” What with your Valentines Day, Library Lovers Day, showing some love for Black History Month. I am going to try and do nothing but posts about love.
Now, I don’t means just lovey dovey stuff. I mean posts about loving yourself in a G rated manner, maybe PG rated, haha. Posts about love for your family, friends, romantic love, love for your fur, feathery, scaly babies. Probably with a sappy lovey dove post.
I already have a couple of posts for next week, I’m going to see if I can change them to make them more about “love” But I’m not promising anything. You might be able to tell.
Well I want to make sure that my plants survive, and if they do. Then I am thinking of planting some flowers next. There are no flowers in my partners backyard. I was weeding, and the bees only had the flowers that were coming from the weeds, and made me sad =(
I am going to start researching more into my “Witch” idea more. At night, I keep having ideas about what I could do.
Not deleting my Instagram, but actually creating an account, that make more sense…If that makes sense?lol
Give yourself a goal, every week to reward yourself. A couple of weeks ago, I started to garden. Although I probably wont see the results for a couple more weeks. I am really proud of myself. I think the spring onion and chamomile bush, are going to do well. Although I know everyone has told me that you can’t kill spinach. I think I may have…
This week, my goal is to get back into exercise. I was actually doing quiet well during Summer here. Then I lost focused, so I want to start again. I’ve been even wondering if I should just start in the home. I’ve still got all the stuff. It’s Winter here right now, so the thought of going outside for a run, or heading to gym is very off putting. Though I have never actually gone to a gym to do exercises.
The biggest reason that I’m doing it is because although I’ve been taking cholesterol tablets. Apparently my cholesterol has not shifted. It’s neither gone lower or higher. Which I’m not entirely sure that’s a great thing. So my Doctor wants me to go from 20mg to 80mg. The next couple of weeks, he wants me to take the 20mg, but twice day (becoming 40mg). When I feel there are no side affects, to then go up to 80mg.
What harm can a little exercise do?
What can you do to take care of yourself? It doesn’t even have to be anything that exciting!
This year, I didn’t really want to make goals to just fail in the first couple of weeks in the new year. So I sat and thought about what I really want to do next year. I don’t think that I need to make goals persay. But I just want to do something better than I did the past year.
This is where you all come in. One thing I wish I had done more of this past year, was hang out with people again. Anxiety wise I think that I’m getting better. I still have off days, I probably always will. What I want to try and achieve this year is to honour my friends and family more. I have absolutely no idea how to do this though. I’m not sure I even know what that means.
This where I need your help. I know what to honour people means, but how do you do individually or in a group? How do you reach out to try and find out how you can help better, individual people.
I have cried so many happy tears this year, realising how lucky that I am. Because I really am. It’s been one of those years where I’ve realised that sometimes families make the best friends and friends make the best family. This is why I want to honour YOU. Of course I’ve had bad thing happened, had to stop talking to a person or two. Generally, I am actually really lucky. When I’ve had to stop talking to the people or two, or realised that I’ve lost a “friend”. It was you who was there.
I feel like I’ve found my voice a lot more this year. It is irritating, I am very aware of this. When you think you’ve finally found it, it’s fantastic! You can’t shut up and I wont apologise for it. I know some worry that I get too caught up, but I am very aware of myself. I know when it’s getting too much. So I come off of social media for a bit, get myself together. I have really gotten into listening to my body and mind this year. I think I had forgotten too.
All those people who told me I should be more like this person, or that person, or this person said this so I should do this too. Or they are going to block me until I get my shit together. I am me, that’s it. I still find it funny that a bunch of “good guys” told me that I should be more like another girl. Which even if I did turn into that girl, I still wouldn’t be with them. She only likes taken men. Sooooooooo…I still couldn’t be with them…Idiots.
Every year, I think of a song that I think represents me in some way. Once again, we have Taylor Swift,lol I LOVE this song! It such a good song in so many different ways! I listen to it when I actually need to calm down. But there’s one bunch of lyrics, that I feel my female friends that have stuck with me this year, need to replay to themselves. This is how I feel about you. I send my female friends and family a BIG thank you this year!
And we see you over there on the internet
Comparing all the girls who are killing it
But we figured you out
We all know now we all got crowns
I LOVE you ladies, everyone single one of you! You are proof that Ladies and Queen exist and not just in fairy tales! ❤ You are all amazing! ❤ I hope this new year, you embrace and just plain old kill it out there!
Music video by Taylor Swift performing “You Need To Calm Down” – off her upcoming new album ‘Lover’ (out August 23). Support the Equality Act: https://taylorswift.lnk.to/petition
Can you believe that we are roughly halfway through the year?
Are you satisfied where you are up too at the time of the year? Have you been meeting your goals? I thought I might just give a quick run down of where I’m up too now.
Reading/Books:
Goodreads: So far in Goodreads, I am behind my Goodreads goal, only by one book.
Currently Reading: “Caraval” by Stephanie Garber and “The Confessions of Catherine de Medici” by C.W. Gortner
Any issues: I actually DNF for a very popular book. So popular I don’t even want to write the name of the novel. I was so sad about it as well, I bought and it looks huge. But I was finding myself getting bored with all the romance. It was kind of like watching Fantastic Beasts 2, I kept waiting for more Beasts and it just never seemed to happen.
Instagram
So this has been an interesting one. It goes up and down so quickly! I still have to work out what people like about my page. Just when I think that I’ve got it together, I go and lose like 10 followers in one day. It’s bizarre! Find me here.
But Instagram is probably my favourite social media feed. I connect with others about our anxieties and how to handle them. I’m always finding new artist and new animal pages. I want to utilise it more, but trying to figure it out, because it’s so fickle,lol.
Health
Past: So my cholesterol was really high a couple of months ago. My Doctor decided that instead of going straight onto medication, to change my lifestyle for the next couple of months and see what happens.
Current: Now I am currently seeing an nutritionist and a excersioligst. So far, through diet and low-impact exercise. I have lost three kilos, which is fantastic. I have no idea though what my cholesterol is right now, I’ll find out in about another months time.
I am so over struggling with finding fun recipes though.
So if you read my recent goals (if you haven’t find the post here) I want to get my shop up and running. I’ve been working on it, but I’m looking at different things as well now, instead of just candles. The main reasons I wanted to focus on Candles was because not only do I love them, but the postage was also so expensive!
The problem I’ve been having is that there are SO many better candles out there and this is something that I have not even told my mum or my partner about. So I’ve been thinking about doing other things as well. So far, I’ve come up with things like cups/mugs, bookmarks etc. Accessories really, where I can put some of my own quotes on them. I’m just not a very good artist, so I’ve been working with the bare minimum.
So basically I have been a bit all over the place, and that is fine. I just wish…What we all probably wish…I was a millionaire, because then I would be able to get the stuff I want to get…
Christmas Present check time! – What I mean by this is, see what I already have gathered, write it down and check what else I need.
This is done! I have also though gotten a few more presents since. I don’t really have that much left to get honestly. Which is fantastic, especially since work has gotten slow recently.
Get the Lolsy’s Shop up and running.
It’s not up and running…Yet…But I’ve started to make and get things together for it. I want to work on it a little longer first. I can see though I may have not needed to make a entirely different website for it now though…But we’ll wait and see! I’m not getting rid of it yet.
Get a Yoga Schedule – Focus mainly on strengthen my sciatica.
I haven’t gotten around to making a Yoga schedule, but I have been doing more breathing exercises instead. Unfortunately I nearly had a panic attack and after talking to my therapist, I thought it was just better too learn how to do breathing. Which probably sounds weird in itself.
Make a budget. I don’t know how but somehow even though my anxiety has lessened and I’ve been able to start catching buses again. Somehow I spent more money than when I’d caught taxis? Makes no sense!
This is actually going well, because I have started to feel more comfortable taking buses again. That has saved me SO much! It shows, I’ve been able to get more Christmas presents as the money I’ve saved as allowed me too. So I’m hitting two birds with one stone really (what a terrible saying,lol).
So two and a half out of four, not to bad.
*I explain in a Blog post in the future, what is going on with my Goals.*
Lolsys Library 