This year, I didn’t really want to make goals to just fail in the first couple of weeks in the new year. So I sat and thought about what I really want to do next year. I don’t think that I need to make goals persay. But I just want to do something better than I did the past year.
This is where you all come in. One thing I wish I had done more of this past year, was hang out with people again. Anxiety wise I think that I’m getting better. I still have off days, I probably always will. What I want to try and achieve this year is to honour my friends and family more. I have absolutely no idea how to do this though. I’m not sure I even know what that means.
This where I need your help. I know what to honour people means, but how do you do individually or in a group? How do you reach out to try and find out how you can help better, individual people.
I have cried so many happy tears this year, realising how lucky that I am. Because I really am. It’s been one of those years where I’ve realised that sometimes families make the best friends and friends make the best family. This is why I want to honour YOU. Of course I’ve had bad thing happened, had to stop talking to a person or two. Generally, I am actually really lucky. When I’ve had to stop talking to the people or two, or realised that I’ve lost a “friend”. It was you who was there.
I feel like I’ve found my voice a lot more this year. It is irritating, I am very aware of this. When you think you’ve finally found it, it’s fantastic! You can’t shut up and I wont apologise for it. I know some worry that I get too caught up, but I am very aware of myself. I know when it’s getting too much. So I come off of social media for a bit, get myself together. I have really gotten into listening to my body and mind this year. I think I had forgotten too.
All those people who told me I should be more like this person, or that person, or this person said this so I should do this too. Or they are going to block me until I get my shit together. I am me, that’s it. I still find it funny that a bunch of “good guys” told me that I should be more like another girl. Which even if I did turn into that girl, I still wouldn’t be with them. She only likes taken men. Sooooooooo…I still couldn’t be with them…Idiots.
Every year, I think of a song that I think represents me in some way. Once again, we have Taylor Swift,lol I LOVE this song! It such a good song in so many different ways! I listen to it when I actually need to calm down. But there’s one bunch of lyrics, that I feel my female friends that have stuck with me this year, need to replay to themselves. This is how I feel about you. I send my female friends and family a BIG thank you this year!
And we see you over there on the internet
Comparing all the girls who are killing it
But we figured you out
We all know now we all got crowns
I LOVE you ladies, everyone single one of you! You are proof that Ladies and Queen exist and not just in fairy tales! ❤ You are all amazing! ❤ I hope this new year, you embrace and just plain old kill it out there!
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Music video by Taylor Swift performing “You Need To Calm Down” – off her upcoming new album ‘Lover’ (out August 23). Support the Equality Act: https://taylorswift.lnk.to/petition
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