I didn’t expect this…

I’ve only been on the online dating site for a couple of days and I already have two guys that I’m interested in and they seem interested in me too…

In the moments though when I am not talking to them and those silent few minutes before I asleep. I am suddenly reminded of the heartbreak that I have only recently endured and it comes all flooding back to me and then I am paralysed again by fear and I just want to go back to the beginning of the year and start all over again.

I don’t want to feel like this any-more, I want to be happy, I don’t want to be sad. It is easy to forgive, it’s hard to forget. I wish that there was someone who could just give me one big hug and tell me that it was all going to be okay and for once be able to believe it myself.

The Single’s Womans Blogging Challenge “Day 8 – 14”

8)      Five things that are most important to you in a future mate

I crave honesty now more than anything else! I have realised how important it is and how much respect you have for the other person when you are honest.
A good heart, he can be as broody as he wants, but as long as he has a good heart and genuinely cares for others and myself of course!
An open mind, I know a variety of people in my life and my partner would NEED to be open minded to all of it.
Being polite is a huge plus for me, not necessarily opens doors and lifts his pinkie when he drinks tea. I have been with someone who would literally sulk every time we were around my friends, but if we were around HIS friends I had to be charming and entertaining.
A good sense of humour, I don’t think that I could ever live with someone who had no sense of humour…Oh that’s a horrible thought! lol

9)      Your favorite “weird/funny single behavior” – Anything you do that is uniquely YOU and that living alone allows you to do (For example, I sometimes dance around the house with my cat to Frank Sinatra)

Oh my, I think everything I do is weird any ways! I always feel that if you can’t do it around your partner…well that’s a bit sad. So I am not really sure what my weird single behaviour is to be honest. There are plenty of things that I wouldn’t do if front of others, but if I can’t do it in front of my partner than it would probably mean I wouldn’t trust them. I have nothing to hide from a partner!

10)   Google the meaning of your name and talk about how it fits or doesn’t fit you

Lauren may be a given name or surname. The name’s meaning may be “Laurel tree”, “sweet of honor” or “victory of wisdom”.

Well I’m not a tree, hehe…I think I agree with the other two though, sweet of honor is definitely me, even when the rest of the world calls me crazy I know I am honourable and that’s why they think I’m crazy. Instead of being with everyone else and talking behind their backs, I ask them of what is going on. Victory of Wisdom is something that I believe I am starting to believe in myself only now.

11)   Your worst/funniest/most embarrassing date

It’s funny because I don’t really date. Every single one of my relationships, I’ve never actually ‘dated’ them, we just spent time casually together and decided that we like each other. The most embarrassing type dates I find myself in, is when a guy will invite me to go see a movie and he hasn’t made it clear that HE intends it to be a date. I rock up thinking I’m just hanging with a friend and he thinks it’s date…That has made for quite a few awkward situations.

12)   Your proudest accomplishment

My proudest achievement is going back to studies to pursue in a career I want to do, rather than being in a job that was physically making me ill just to get money. I just wish I could find a job in this field now!

13)   Describe how you met the last person you texted and talk about your friendship/relationship

Well he’s my cousin by blood, so that’s pretty simple to explain, lol

14)   Describe the last moment you felt really, truly blissful

I have had quite a few moments over the last couple of months. I do have two different moments that stand out though. One was when I dressed as Katarina from LoL to a conventions, that was an amazing day and I was so happy. My feet were killing at the end of the day, but I just LOVED it all! It was an amazing day.

The second was on New Year’s Eve. I debated if what I was doing was alright or not and now I know that it was an amazing! I definitely made the right decision for myself. I salsa the night away, it was amazing! I kept dancing with random men, which was not the safest plan, guaranteed…I had just assumed that my friends knew this guys…They did not! lol.

For more information please look at: http://thesinglewoman.net/2013/10/04/the-single-womans-30-day-blogging-challenge/