So happy that the weekend is here and I personally looking forward to this weekend more than any I have for an age! The reason you may ask? I have been trying to slowly and deliberately take a certain group of negative people out of my life for a while and I found out (although it made my actual friend uncomfortable) that for the first time ever I HAVEN’T been invited to a birthday party. (I say uncomfortable for my friend, because they couldn’t understand why I hadn’t been invited and they didn’t know that I hadn’t either).
So to celebrate my boyfriend and I are having dinner and am going to play pool…I can’t wait! Best Weekend ever!hehe
One of my most popular Blogs has apparently been the Blog about my Sims 4, which is quiet entertaining to me. I love playing it and my characters has been “developing”. So I thought that I give little random updates about the characters I’m playing all the time.
These two characters are Arwen Oakenshield and Aragorn Bloom and they are both now teenagers, dating, in a relationships and have recently swapped promise rings. It is SO cute! I am loving playing this game, I am probably going to buy some kind of extension game. I’m to busy though at the moment to really consider that…Watch this space for more though!…
I am so happy that this Fridays edition lands on one of my favourite holidays! =D I’m not an American or Mexican, I am Australian so it’s not a “traditional” holiday here, but it grows every single year and I have never been happier about it. In fact this Friday night I am getting together with a few friends, dressing up and going out for the night. Guess who I am going as?…One Clue!
I haven’t got the full costume on here, but I will take an update on the full costume. I just don’t really have the time to do the full outfit today…but I promise a full picture! The dress is from Black Milk Clothing. I am now really in love with this store, I already bought a TARDIS and they have a new “wrapped” collection coming out for Christmas!
I’m just putting this video here to get myself in the mood…I hope it works for you too! =D
If you could read mind right now this is what you’d hear…
You see…the thing is…I am finding my life incredibly fun these days, there is always something to do and someone that I can see…Every now and then I can’t help but think that it seems so unfair that you’re not here with me having this fun…But then again you are the one that made all of this happen.
It should be me and you taking on the world, making it ours, we completely deserve it!
But my life is a lot of fun right now and I don’t think of nearly as much as I use to and the nightmares have stopped, well for the past week at least. Music is really making me angry for some reason though.
I can’t wait to fall in love again, I guess that’s one thing I can take from this. You did open up my heart to make sure that I knew that it was really there, so I thank you for that. I can’t wait too meet the one and experience all that life has to offer when you fall in love…But…it should have been you.
Some days I literally have to sit on my hands, or “gasp” do homework to distract myself from contacting you. I promised you that you never had to worry about hearing from me again. Why were you so stupid? Why couldn’t you have just said “I’m sorry…I never meant any of this too happen and I never meant to hurt you”. We only knew each other a short time, but there is a dark hole in my heart that I can’t fill up with anything else. That little hole just hiding there, I can feel just the tip of the beginning of that hole at all times.
I am off to have fun again and I will, it’s not meant to sound mean, but I don’t feel like I should have to be sad. I love you always (you never knew that either, did you?) I would have married you without hesitation if you had asked and I’ve never felt like that before…The thing is, you’ll never know any of this. I’m kind of glad about that, I wouldn’t want anyone to take that for weakness, I don’t want you back now.
Shoulda, Woulda, Coulda…The thing is…It’s not you.