Dedicated to Teddy Bears everywhere!

Trawling through Facebook today and it is terrifying me the hatred that is out there. I mean hatred by ALL men and women from all backgrounds not just one in particular. Do these people even realise that they even sound like the very people that they hate?

Anyways I was having a really hard time not giving into the fear and yelling at them all (by writing in cap-locks of course) and telling them how stupid they all are. Then I found this video. It’s time to all hug our teddy’s (press for link to article and video) If you ever feel scared and alone, just hug your favourite teddy (because it might not be a bear…Mine is a plush Lion and now a Olaf)

The author and creator of the film is by Tyler Novo and you can find the entire film including the credits.

And that’s the end of that chapter (Credit: Homer Simpson)

It’s time to say goodbye,
It’s time to turn the page over and start anew.

It’s time to forget and move on,
It’s time to make you a fictional nightmare that will never happen again.

“I want to forgive you and I want to forget you”.

…And I will…You treated me like my life didn’t matter, I think it’s fair I treat like you never existed.

You were the worst mistake I have ever made and will never make again,
You taught me so much that was wrong.

Why…WHY can’t I just have one knight in shining armor, it is all that I have ever wanted,
Why do I keep the douche-bags wrapped up in aluminium instead?
Why is it only me they ever treat like the dirt beneath their feet.

I am tired of you making me feel like there is something wrong with me,
When it’s YOU who should be feeling like this, not me.

I will not allow you or any other “man” make me feel like this again,
I want to shine in the sun, where I belong.

“To live would be an awfully big adventure”

Published on 16 Jul 2012

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30 Days of Gratitude: Days 22 – 28

Day 22 – Conventions: Today started off with me feeling pretty down about a lot a of things. So going to the Supanova convention was exactly what I needed, but I was also grateful that I was able to attend this convention with good friends. What I didn’t expect was to feel as free as I did. Surrounded by people in a fun environment where I felt safe to be me, I felt free from the dramas of other people treating me like a second rate friend. If I had gone out drinking, or just clubbing I would have just gotten drunk.

Day 23 – Health – So last night I pretty much spent half the night throwing up due to some food poisoning and found that more than half the people I went out with had gotten it too. So I wasn’t feeling particularly grateful. Luckily though I realised if I was on the streets or in a third world country, what I went through last night, there was a serious chance that I could have died in the streets. As terrible as my stomach felt, it could have ended up a lot worse for me in a different situation.

Day 24 – Job Club – One of the requirements of not having a job in Australia is attending “Job Club” every week. Sometimes it can feel like such a chore, but I have a new case worker now and feel like he might be actually able to help me. I also got a call today from a potential employer, letting me know that the police check I sent (I sent in for a casual pool months ago) is now invalid and before they can even consider giving me employment I need a new police check…Feeling a little more positive today.

Day 25 – Ferguson: Well this has definitely been the hot topic on a global scale today and I don’t even live in America! As much as I am feeling like I want to stay indoors and be a hermit right now, I am feeling very grateful to be an Australian right now Apart from Abbott trying to ruin everything…We are pretty lucky… Let’s kick Abbotts butt! I can’t stand that guy,lol.

Peaceful Protest Ferguson!

Day 26 – Breakthrough: Last night I had such a breakdown and it was not a good one, I haven’t had one like that in a really long time. For 30 years I have realised how badly I’ve been treated by my ex’s and the damage that is pretty permanent now. It has made me though realise I need to seriously change a LOT in my life. I also need to stop dating Gamers…They are a lot of talk, but not so much about the ‘walk’,lol.

Day 27 – “The Fight”: I have been a bit down since I had to really say goodbye to my ex and let him know that I just do not trust him and after 30 yrs. I am honestly having a hard time trying to find something to be grateful for, other than realising how strong my heart is and how loyal it is to myself instead of ignoring what I need to do.

Day 28 – Thanksgiving: How ironic that 30 days of gratitude happens to fall on Thanksgiving. There is so much that I am grateful for although I am going through a bit of a bad patch right now. But I also know because of all that I am grateful for, I will make it through this too.

Dracula Untold

*Possible Spoilers!* I did not have anything to do with the creation of the movie, I am just purely writing some observations*.

Check out more here at the imdb page: Dracula Untold – IMDB

I finally got to see this movie and I really loved it! Dracula Untold is based on the story of Dracula. Except the difference is here it shows how “Dracula” become the monster. Something that I previously had no idea about, I had always heard about what happened with Dracula after the fact. I knew bits and pieces, I knew that the moment that pushed him over the edge was the death of his wife.

Without giving too much away, I really enjoyed this movie. It was one of those movies though that seemed to go quickly through one part and slowly through another without really a specific reason why they seemed too focused on one part. For example, where Luke Evans actually turns into Dracula I felt that it went far too fast for such a pivotal part. I felt like it was a movie that could have done better off it had been longer. Maybe not an epic movie, but it definitely needed to be longer than it was.

The acting was awesome, I have had such a crush on Luke Evans ever since I saw him “The Three Musketeers 2011“. I think he has an air of old Hollywood about him. Dominic Cooper (think Mama Mia, Captain America) plays his enemy, and plays the bad guy extremely well. You completely don’t like him and have no sympathy for him, but his last scene was another part that I felt needed to be more spectacular.

Expect to be intrigued in this movie, I wouldn’t say that it will blow your mind. You will be interested though, you won’t notice the time that has gone past.

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That Little Scar

The little scar on the bottom of my right foot,
A constant reminder on how I entered this world,
A scratch across my foot when I was not even a day old,
I suffocated on the way in too, a tiny little life already having to fight to be in this world.

That little scar on the bottom of my right foot,
A trusting little foot holding out to the doctor, with that big needle, much bigger than my little foot.
One little movement and that trust that I had in that doctor, all gone,
I am suppose to be there, I might have to fight the rest of my life, but here I am.

That little scar on the bottom of my right foot,
How can one deny that there not suppose to be,
I am supposed to be and I will fight to be here,
But why am I suppose to be here? Why and what for?

That little scar on the bottom of my right foot, a constant reminder that I AM supposed to be here.

Dear Me,

(So I wrote this is when I had an overwhelming feeling of anger towards my ex and I was never going to share it, but I think that a lot of people would understand where I am coming from and I had this thought that when I do meet the ‘right one’ for me. All this anger that I feel I am going to feel so ashamed of because I let some…idiot…nearly ruin any chance I have of falling in love again).

Dear You,

It’s okay to feel angry, it is truly alright. Just make sure that you learn and you try understand that not everyone you meet, a much as it seems to suck, will be around in your life forever. Some of them do not realise the potential that is there, and that is okay too. They need to learn to make their own mistakes and one day they will understand what they have done and what you had. This doesn’t mean you need or should feel like you want them back in your life, as long as they learn and never do this to anyone else ever again.

Just please promise me this, do not let this break you, do not let this make you hard and bitter. There are so many out there that look too you to make this day a little more magical, a much more fun place to be in. Yes, he is a moron who just easily threw away an amazingly rare thing. This does not mean that finding that amazingly rare thing will not happen for you again. Believe it, you know it will exist again, I know that you feel it here in the deepest depths of me, I know you feel, don’t ever lose that.

Someone like you was never ever meant to end up alone. There is nothing wrong, even in this day and age, to want the one who has your back, the one who will still love you even in the darkest places of your heart, there is nothing wrong with wanting the one who makes your heart smile, the one that even during Winter, will keep you warm and safe, even when they can’t be there, the one who will warm our soul. Most importantly, there is nothing wrong with being single while you find this one, you do not have to date anybody you don’t want too (though we both know it’d much easier that way).

Take these moments day-by-day, hour-by-hour, if you have too. I know it hurts so much right now and you fought so hard just to have it all disappear like it was worth not a thing. I know that you are wishing with all of your heart he had left you alone earlier, or that you had just never met him at all. I know that he has torn, clawed and scratched at every single dream, word and feeling that ever happened.

You will get through this. You will meet someone who will just make your heart dance and your mind sing. All of this will be yours, I promise you. You just cannot let this make you bitter. Your heart is so full of life and love and it is just waiting to burst open with everything that you have to give. Please, do not let this make you bitter and make your heart turn into a well of cement.

Love Always,

Your Heart

Uploaded on 27 Jun 2011