I am Me =D

I don’t know if I’ve told you all this before, but when I ended up in hospital after my having a massive anxiety attack. For myself, I put it down too the “real stuff” that set my brain off. The “new age” stuff helped my brain calm down again.

I couldn’t get through my anxiety without either. The “real” or the “new age” ‘stuff’.

So when I hear my own father say that the new age stuff failed me, you don’t know me. You wouldn’t say too me if you knew what I’ve been through.

What’s better than Christmas Shopping?

Well…For some you, you may absolutely hate it. My mum were going to go Christmas Shopping together this weekend.

Well, instead my Mum decided, instead of shopping. Too bring my Gran down from her home, to spend the day cooking with us, too make her famous shortbread for Christmas! Whether or not she’ll remember her recipe, is another question…But it’s kind of not the point. Like, I think it’s a much better idea than Christmas Shopping. She’ll forget and as soon as she gets back to her home, shell probably ring my Mum or Aunt 10 minutes later.

But not everything is about her, haha.


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Mama says…

When I said I don’t know where I get my taking on everyone’s battles for them came from. My mum and dad are both pretty laidback, except when it really matters. My mum jumped on the back of a bully who was burning out cigarettes’ on a kid. My Dad either took on the Union, or he was forced to become part of the Union.

That I am a hopeless case…

I am 100% a Taurus, I’ve got Irish Catholic blood in me, and I am exactly like my Great Grandfather aka Papa Joe. She thinks if he was still alive today, and the current state of the world, he’d have another heart attack.

I got it from my Papa Joe

The Category is … Kindness

I am currently binge watching season 3 in Pose. 15 minutes in and I am bawling and loving it all over again. For those who don’t know (and I don’t know how you don’t know ~.^)

Pose (stylized as POSE) is an American drama television series about New York City’s African-American and Latino LGBTQ and gender-nonconforming drag ball culture scene in the 1980s, early 1990s in the second season, and the mid-to-late 1990s in the third season. It’s one of the first television series, to be mostly with trans gender actors and staff. It’s amazing!

In 24 hours though, I’ve kept being reminded of the little kindnesses that can make someone’s day.

The first episode of season 3 Pose, is about the family come back together to watch O.J. Simpson on the run. I love the POSE family, haha.

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Mermaids

No, not this one…Sorry, Ariel. Please don’t just like and not read this post, only like if you read and like this post. This is important too me.

These Mermaids

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Mermaids are a organisation in the UK, that are consistently under attack from transphobic people. However, they do AMAZING work! For #Pride 2021 … Mermaids theme this year is #MyPrideFamily … Now I am white, straight and as basic as one can get. But even I know how beautiful of a theme this. Family is not always blood ❤ Home and Family is where the heart is ❤

You can also help this foundation, but donating to their crowd justice fund here

You can read for what for, by looking at the link, but I’ll explain a little bit.

LGB Alliance IS a hate group, who hide behind saying they protect women and children, and are just looking out for “sex based right”. Which is not a thing.

For those in the UK you might have seem them on the BBC, talking about trans issues, despite them being anti-trans and anti-LGB, if you don’t fit into their criteria of LGB.

Whatever sweet nothings the so-called “LGB Alliance” whispered into the ear of the Charity Commission the truth was set out in a speech by LGB Alliance director Bev Jackson on 9 March 2020. She described their real goal as follows:

“We’re applying for charitable status and building an organization to challenge the dominance of those who promote the damaging theory of gender identity.”

So Mermaids, supported by LGBT+ Consortium, Gendered Intelligence, LGBT Foundation, TransActual, and Good Law Project, are appealing the Charity Commission’s decision to award the so-called “LGB Alliance” charity status. 

Quiet a few people have appealed to the Charity Commission already. The response they got? They were being told that they were being too “emotional” So we suspect that the head, may be transphobic. LGB Alliance should have never gotten Charity status to begin with. So far, the Charity Commission, can’t even tell people WHY LGB “Alliance” were given Charity status. The response from them has been less than professional.

There is a little difficulty, because this would be one of the first cases of it’s kind. Where a organisation who are so blatantly bigoted against a group of people, including people from the LGB community, were given Charity Status. They haven’t actually run a cause or tried to get money through a crowd fund, FOR the LGBTQIA community. Any crowd funders they have run, have all been for discrimination against someone else. Or court cases that would discriminate against trans people and those they don’t think fit THEIR standard of LGB.

So please really consider donating to this cause. It’s a first of a kind, and a really important one. After all, who can you trust if a Charity Commission is being run by hateful people?

We also believe that LGB Alliance are the biggest reasons why the BBC wont allow their staff to March or celebrate at Pride, even off duty. Not sure if those in the UK have noticed, the LGB Alliance always talking on the BBC, about trans/women’s issues. Despite being anti-trans and despite coming after LGB people. Why Liz Truss, feels comfortable disbanding her LGBT Equality Panel, and attacking Stonewall. We think they want to replace Stonewall with LGB Alliance. Which would only happen over a lot of people’s dead bodies. Mine included.

The Times, The Telegraph and the Spectator REALLY hate Stonewall, and have no problem bashing them either.

BOSS CLAIMS LGB Alliance co-founder claims there should be no LGBT clubs in schools due to “predatory gay teachers” (By the way he is gay)

LGB Alliance warned by advertising watchdog over ‘potentially misleading’ claims about gender recognition Laws

Neo-Nazis and homophobes are amoung the supporters of the anti-trans group LGB Alliance

We Are Family

…or not.

I have seen a lot of people saying they have to exclude their families from their lives, because the racism and bigotry is getting to much. As someone whose had to do this, not even for bigotry reason. Just mental health issues.

It’s totally fine.

Unless you feel that you owe your family something, then there is nothing wrong with cutting them off. There is no Law or Rule, that says you MUST obey and be friends with your family. That you OWE them any respect. You don’t. Our society tells us we must, but what society forgets, that sometimes, it’s family that hinders you and “help” you to feel even worse than before.

Sometimes it IS family that is the problem.

Sure it’s great to get along with your family, sure it’s great if you can all get along. But there isn’t a single rule or law saying that you MUST get along.

 

Tara Reade and Deactivation

*Long Post Incoming*

I have to admit that when Jussie Smollett did what he did. That’s when I started to take a step back and decided to stop jumping on bandwagons and actually look at everything myself and THEN make a judgement.

I know it’s so easy to want to make up stuff about the Right. We don’t need too. We’re already better than them, by not doing what they are actually doing. If that makes sense? It’s like when people bring up Melania’s past, we don’t need to do that. She’s trash enough with what she does NOW. I was with her, right up until I found out that #BeBest was based on her “being the most bullied person in the world” That’s when she really lost me. Has she met herself and her husband?

Hence, Tara Reade. Now it’s all starting to come out that she lied, and I’m not going to say “told ya so”…Though I did right there. She’s been a little quiet the last couple of days, so one might say that she’s deactivated.

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If you don’t “follow” me on either Insta or my twitter feed. You would not have known that I have deactivated my other insta account and my Facebook account. Basically, I’ve deactivated anything to do with family. You’ve probably all read my blogs about some of my family members, who have been openly disrespectfully to myself and my partner. Even though they’ve been ignoring us, that’s how we know there was a problem. Ironically.

I had people asking me what had I done to them, that’s how weird them ignoring me was. People noticed they weren’t talking too me. The worst was when I found out that my cousin that’s always lived at home with his mama(nearly 60). My cousin called looking after my dog “payback”. At Christmas my mum came over to give the cat his pill, that he needs. It was two days at the most and my mum likes the cat, the cat likes her. She lives about 15 minutes away.  My mum was debating whether or not to take Pippy with her when she went to my Grans. Pippy was sick, but she loved being at my Grans. My cousin when my mum told him about it said “You should make Lauren take care of Pippy, it can be payback for Christmas”.

That made me more angry then anything else.

Like I said, they were ignoring me. I posted a video to remind people that when you say “People should die, so we can let the economy rebound quicker”. It was a REALLY good video. It reminded people that those people that can just die, could be your family. My Aunt who has ignored me for MONTHS. wrote “Thanks China…”

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I lost it,lol…I told her to get that crap off my post. I told her that it’s not China’s faults that Trump did nothing and it was not China’s fault that this man thought it was okay if 70 people died to restart the economy (in the video they show him 70 people, they were all his family). I wrote a text to my brother, who complains about them more than I do and so thinking he’d find it so typical of them. His response “You should delete that post Lauren, it just spreads negativity”. When I said to him “Why does everyone care more about their feelings, then how they treat others”. He gave me some crap about how I was being negative and they’ve had a sheltered life.

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So after much crying and apart from my partner, who doesn’t like how they’ve been treating me or my Mum. At about 4am in the morning and no sleep. I deactivated my accounts. I have not talked to my brother since and asked my mum not to talk to me about him or them.

They can all bask in their fake positivity. I have actually not liked Facebook for a long time now, and nothing to do with Zuckerberg, I mean he’s always been a wanker. I haven’t liked Facebook, because of THEM. I have always felt judged and watched and stalked, by THEM. Whereas on Twitter, I feel that too, but it’s people who I am not supposed to care about. It’s not “family”. I have met so many like-minded people on there! Just like my other Insta account. The other account I have, is all about mental health and books! My family, don’t know about it.

THANK GOD!lol

 

Family

I was watching an episode of the Golden Girls, the one where Dorothy and Sophia are told that Dorothy many not be Sophia’s daughter. On the same day, I saw all these people bashing teachers. How dare teachers take all this time off, which being the partner of a teacher, I know is not true. All these people of able-bodied children, suddenly mentally drained from spending a couple of weeks with their own children.

I have not seen a single person who have children who are disabled in some way, complaining about how they’re so mentally drained from spending time with their children.

I thought children are a blessing? Why are these people complaining about their children, online, if they chose to have them? What if there was a War? You chose to have (sometimes) them, some were a surprise. You didn’t give them up for adoption. You choose to keep them.

These parents aren’t making me want to have children.

If spending time with your children is a drain, if you couldn’t afford them (which I know how it sounds). Do not have them. It’s just being selfish. Teachers are NOT your babysitters.

Then I have a friend who can’t even have children, who wants to more than anything and it’s breaking her heart seeing these parents “drained” from their children.

God, this world is draining.

Share Your World…23/03/2020

Share Your World 03/23/2020

Share Your World

Questions:

On A Scale Of 1-10, How Strict Were Your Parents?

My Dad was definitely more stricter than my mum. But also, let me put it this way. When my parents separated my brother never got told off for anything. NOW, my parents blame the other one for how my brother turned out. My brother isn’t a bad person, but like he’s bad with money, as an example. He never did chores, he technically didn’t pass High School, but he is as smart as! Yet, he’d get pocket money ALL the time. Because he was popular too, he’d get extra money to go out. I learnt how to save so I could go out. So now he has a very bad relationship with money. He’s two years younger than me and it’s honestly only been this year, when he’s borrowed money, he pays it back. That might be because, as well, he got a huge amount of it for a job he did this year.

I personally hold both my parents responsible. My Dad wasn’t there for us physically, but that was his choice. He was always “sick”… or hung over. We may have been with our Mum 95% of the time, but my Dad, he’s a parent too. Technically my Dad was the stricter parent, but how can you be strict with people you are never around?

What Wastes The Most Time In Your Day To Day Life?

Probably my computer gaming time. If I have something that needs something done, I can end up playing a computer game for literal hours.

Do They Bury People With Their Braces* On?   (* “braces” in this scenario are those metal bits they put on people to straighten their teeth.   I realize “braces” are also some item of clothing that I believe men wear to keep their socks up or something.  I’m talking about the teeth option).

I’d assume they would, if you die with them on? Honestly, I’ve never been to a funeral where there has been an open casket. I’ve never had to identify a body, or known someone whose died with braces. I’m only assuming they would, because that’d how most of their departed ones would know them?

Why Does A Round Pizza Come In A Square Box?

I did hear that it’s because bins are square, well they are in Australia. And because everything is mostly in a rectangle or square shape. It’s just easier. I just don’t know how true it is,lol

Gratitude:   Share something you are grateful for right now.  I know that’s a tough question.  It helps to share those bright bits with folks though, because many of us are seeing through an increasingly dark glass.

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I am actually grateful for a lot of things. It was like I was saying to my mum the other day. It’s hard to be sad when there are so many who love and who loved you.