The Covid 19 Pandemic is far from over. It has been around for 14 to 18 months (depending on when it hit your region). This is long enough for you to recognise the feelings/emotions you have experienced most often. Desolation When the first lockdown was imposed in my city in March 2020, it came at […]5 ThingsTuesday: Feelings / Emotions you felt most often during the Pandemic — Salted Caramel
Over at the lovely Dr Tanya (Salted Caramel) she has asked this week (on Tuesday though…For 5 things Tuesday) 5 Things Tuesday: Feelings / Emotions you felt most often during the Pandemic” Now normally I might write these feelings in the comments. However, I decided this time to make a post about it. I think I’ve said bits and pieces how I went. And please head over to Salted Caramel, to write about your feelings and emotions =D
When it first happened, the first emotion I felt was uncertainty and for most people to begin with, there was a lot of that. Within my own circle though, even though everything was new, most people were able to keep their job. So, for a lot of people around me, nothing changed that much. However, I was a casual and had lost my job, because of COVID, my/our contracts just happened to end at the same time. At that time, we thought when everything “calmed down”, we’d all be asked back. Apart from myself, nothing really huge changed. I did lose my dog, my job, a baby tooth and I had to get a new handbag. None of those had anything to do with COVID.
So it wasn’t until about September/October last year that I even started to really depressed. That was because it became really obvious that none of the casuals were being hired back. They hired all new casuals. I don’t know why, but that’s what they did. This when it really started to hit, as a casual, I’m used to not working and the Government had finally brought is some more relief payments. At the time I was getting as much money as if I had worked at work for about 3-4 days full time. So money wasn’t a issue. My partner was still working, my Mum was still working. I don’t actually know anyone who lost employment due to COVID. When I realise though they weren’t hiring us back. That’s when it started to hit me.
One of the saddest I became (apart from my dog obviously) was that all the Libraries were pretty much shut for a couple of months. Which for myself was a “annoyance”, I love taking a walk whether or not I’m returning books. I also love just walking around seeing if there was anything else I’d like, also no one had…or still has…a working printer. The Libraries had a skeleton staff, so we got any books we took out, for longer. I ended up reading books that I had bought, but hadn’t read yet. I think I missed the atmosphere of the Libraries. Most of the time, if I was going to the Library, I would go and have a look in the equivalent to the 99c or $1 type stores. It’d be like a little trip out.
I was happy though quiet a few times, because I thought my partner and I would drive each other nuts. We got on really well though. I don’t live with my partner right now. There would be times though, where I had to stay with him. So there would be times, where I would be happy.