5 ThingsTuesday: Feelings / Emotions you felt most often during the Pandemic — Salted Caramel

The Covid 19 Pandemic is far from over. It has been around for 14 to 18 months (depending on when it hit your region). This is long enough for you to recognise the feelings/emotions you have experienced most often. Desolation When the first lockdown was imposed in my city in March 2020, it came at […]

5 ThingsTuesday: Feelings / Emotions you felt most often during the Pandemic — Salted Caramel

Over at the lovely Dr Tanya (Salted Caramel) she has asked this week (on Tuesday though…For 5 things Tuesday) 5 Things Tuesday: Feelings / Emotions you felt most often during the Pandemic” Now normally I might write these feelings in the comments. However, I decided this time to make a post about it. I think I’ve said bits and pieces how I went. And please head over to Salted Caramel, to write about your feelings and emotions =D

When it first happened, the first emotion I felt was uncertainty and for most people to begin with, there was a lot of that. Within my own circle though, even though everything was new, most people were able to keep their job. So, for a lot of people around me, nothing changed that much. However, I was a casual and had lost my job, because of COVID, my/our contracts just happened to end at the same time. At that time, we thought when everything “calmed down”, we’d all be asked back. Apart from myself, nothing really huge changed. I did lose my dog, my job, a baby tooth and I had to get a new handbag. None of those had anything to do with COVID.

So it wasn’t until about September/October last year that I even started to really depressed. That was because it became really obvious that none of the casuals were being hired back. They hired all new casuals. I don’t know why, but that’s what they did. This when it really started to hit, as a casual, I’m used to not working and the Government had finally brought is some more relief payments. At the time I was getting as much money as if I had worked at work for about 3-4 days full time. So money wasn’t a issue. My partner was still working, my Mum was still working. I don’t actually know anyone who lost employment due to COVID. When I realise though they weren’t hiring us back. That’s when it started to hit me.

One of the saddest I became (apart from my dog obviously) was that all the Libraries were pretty much shut for a couple of months. Which for myself was a “annoyance”, I love taking a walk whether or not I’m returning books. I also love just walking around seeing if there was anything else I’d like, also no one had…or still has…a working printer. The Libraries had a skeleton staff, so we got any books we took out, for longer. I ended up reading books that I had bought, but hadn’t read yet. I think I missed the atmosphere of the Libraries. Most of the time, if I was going to the Library, I would go and have a look in the equivalent to the 99c or $1 type stores. It’d be like a little trip out.

I was happy though quiet a few times, because I thought my partner and I would drive each other nuts. We got on really well though. I don’t live with my partner right now. There would be times though, where I had to stay with him. So there would be times, where I would be happy.

Tired

This is a bit of a cop out, I can’t think of anything to write for the moment. It’s the world…Every single day…

Do people think what they write and say anymore?

Do they listen to the words as they come out of their mouths?

Even though Trump is “gone” why does it feel like we’re still dealing with him?

How can people possibly say that words have no impact, when Trump is still making life changing impacts?

Why are people so stupid?

Have we always been this stupid?

Is it just because we had no social media echo, echoing out every single opinion known to man?

Why hasn’t that died out in the fires of Hell, still?

Why do people keep insisting on tweeting and posting every single stupid thought they have.

(Oh, this doesn’t include you).

And when they’re wrong, instead of remembering to be humble and go “I fucked up”, they double down instead?

Why do people insist we need to help women and girls with education, but they think they know everything and don’t have to “educate” themselves, when they’re a woman, whose working to get women and girls better education.

Share Your World – 06/04/2020

Share Your World – 04/06/2020

Share Your World

Questions:

If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make them?

I think it’s a reminder to ourselves, that we are not perfect.

How do we know that pleasure is good and pain is bad?

I think it’s that dopamine? … I think?lol

What problem or situation did TV / movies make you think would be common, but when you grew up you found out it wasn’t?

When I really think about it, it has to be the Cosby’s. Only because though they were such a beautiful family (on tv) that it made me think racism isn’t an issue. Meaning, I didn’t know it was even a thing, if that makes sense? I remember when Oprah was talking to someone about black families on tv, and how “The Cosby’s” was the first show where she saw a black man lay his head loving in the lap of his wife.

Does that make sense? I guess my answer is the opposite of the actual question,lol

If you drive, do you speed when no one is watching?   Have you ever run a red light late at night on purpose, particularly if it doesn’t seem to change very quickly?   If you don’t drive, what minor law may you have broken?

No,I would never do that. You just know that the ONE time you do it, there’s going to be police, right there. As far as I am aware, I have never broken a Law…Although I probably have done jay walking.


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What positive things are you finding to do to occupy your time right now?

I am writing and trying to organise my Discord channel, playing YouTube in the background.

Share Your World, July Wk3, 2019

Share Your World – 7-15-19

Share Your World

QUESTIONS:

Why do we seem to respect the dead more than the living?

You know, I have no idea why. Someone can be this really horrible person and yet when they die, people insist on only talking about the good things they had done. Except for the people who had nothing to do them with anymore when they had died. In a way it’s a good thing, because just because they were horrible, doesn’t mean we are. If that makes sense?lol

Why is beauty associated with morality?  Or not?   (a few weeks back I asked a similar question, but the key word was MORTALITY, not MORALITY).  

I know a lot of people like to do this. But it can also depend on the person, like how some people dislike Michelle Obama, a really wonderful person. Whereas they think Melania is really gorgeous, despite her face being stuck in the same position and joining in with her husbands bitherism.

I absolutely adore Michelle Obama and to me that makes her beautiful. I literally cannot fathom what “beauty” people see in Melania, she’s not a beauty to me, at all. I used to feel sorry for her and could see a sad beauty in her, but once she wore that jacket…She could get lost for all I cared and whinged “I’m the most bullied person in the world”. I even thought her birtherism comments were because all she had in America, was Trump. Nope, I think she’s just generally an ugly person, how else can you explain her getting married to Trump to begin with?

Have gadgets and apps taken away emotions?

Oh, they definitely can do that! It’s all about learning about a nice balance.

Is there a perfect life?  What’s your version of a perfect life if you care to share?

I don’t think there is a “perfect life”. I think that there are definitely perfect moments though.

Gratitude (find another question under the graphic)

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If you’d like, please share something uplifting or for which you are grateful.

30 Day song challenge Days 10 – Lucky 13

30 day song challenge

Day 10: A song that makes you sad: Wishing you were somehow here again – Phantom of the Opera) I’ll see you some day! ❤

Day 11: A song you never get tired of: Enough (feat Gizzle) – Delta Goodrem…PLAY IT LOUD! I’M NOT BREAKING FOR YOU!

Day 12: A song from your preteen years: Another Night (1995) – Real McCoy

Day 13: A song you like from the 70s you like: Bohemian Rhapsody (1975) – Queen

Sometimes I get angry

One of the comments that I get asked is “Do I get angry”

Yes, yes I do…I am human after all.

  • If I see an animal being abused, I get angry
  • If I see someone get bullied,I get angry
  • Do not bully children. I do not care how much of a “punk” you think they are. I’m looking at all those “adults” who bullied the Parkland students.
  • I don’t get so much “angry” with Trump supporters now…I just feel sorry for them. How dumb are they?!

Sometimes it does surprise me this question because hasn’t everybody at some point been angry about something? When I thought about it a little bit more though I started to realise that nearly everybody is angry about everything these days. Some of the guys I’ve known in my life have had terrible, just terrible ex girlfriends. You know the type, they had a bad night, so everyone else had better watch out. I’ve just never been like that.

As I suspect a lot of my readers are this way too.

I just don’t understand that way at all. I have always felt life is hard enough, why make it unnecessarily harder for other people?

World Narcissistic Abuse Day

I did not know that today is World Narcissistic Abuse Day

#IfMyWoundsWereVisible

Narcissism Abuse if often unseen by others, including the victim of the abuse. This is because Narcissism is often both a psychological and emotional. It is similar to mental abuse, generally with Narcissism abuse it’s more unseen. A lot of people know something is wrong, but they can’t put their finger on it. They are not necessarily being put down, but they are…

…That makes no sense.

It’s something you would only really understand if you ever felt it.

With a lot of abuse it’s not just romantic relationships that can be affected by any kind of form of abuse. I have come to realise that this is what one of my ex best friends was doing to myself. When I stopped making my life about her, because I couldn’t do it anymore. I was cut.

Below I’ve posted a link that can show you some signs that you are the Victim of a Narcissistic Abuser. When I first read it, I just kept nodding my head.

11 Signs You’re the Victim of Narcissistic Abuse

One of the last points is about fearing your Abuser and I actually do. It’s why I’m happy to keep her and some of her mutual friends blocked from my Facebook. I do genuinely fear her and her partner. My mum keeps telling to stop saying that, but I’ve watched too many crime channels to know that if something happened to me and I didn’t put my fears out there. They’d never know,lol. This is what narcissistic do to you, they make you paranoid,lol

 

Am I grateful for another Monday?

What a weird weekend! At this point I still have no major post for a magical Monday and I am stuck! For this morning I did manage to find a video that is pretty accurate to how I found this weekend. Full of really sweet moments, but (mainly thanks to my anxiety) got annoying after a while, but how can you be so annoyed when it’s full of great moments, lol

Uploaded by: Kepa Uz Sirds TV

Published on 31 Oct 2011

TV broadcast PAW ON A HEART (c) Produced by Summer Studio LLC
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