I had a realisation about something that’s bugged me for pretty much my entire month. People are always asking me why can’t I make decisions easily. Why am I so indecisive? Which I’ve never really understood myself, because I am, except at work.
It occurred to me over the weekend, I noticed that I get told a lot what to do. For example, this weekend, I had all these plans with my partner before he goes back to school after the holidays. We ended up having to cancel 4-5 plans because we were “told” that the family were getting together at this time, on a certain day. We weren’t even asked if we actually able to make it. This happens to me all the time. I was out drinking and was sent a text message telling me to not to drink because we had to go to a family thing the next day…So I got totally off my face.
When you don’t “ask” somebody basically you are telling that person that their time doesn’t matter, aren’t you really. Is there any other way to look at it? What if I can’t have children, does my time just not matter, does my LIFE not matter anymore? Then people can’t understand why I am so indecisive. I never get to decide, my time is not good enough to be consulted, so why would I make a decision when others just make it for me.
What do you all think?
I hope this is the hardest decision you have to make today!
This or That? #46
This week Bookmark Chronicles want to know:
How do you feel about breaking the spines of a book?
This is the funny thing about me, when I buy something new, let’s say a new laptop or a new phone. It generally comes with a lot of that plastic type protection stuff, I have no idea what it’s called. I hate taking it off and I get paid out a lot because of it, everyone else can’t seem to yank it off.
So I hate it when I accidentally break a spine. Sometimes though, some books come with the pages so close together that the breakage of the spine is inevitably going to happen. Once it’s happens, I tend to think to myself “Oh well, it happened” But I am very careful with it, just sometimes it seems like it can’t be helped.
Some of you may not like this question…………sorry (not really). Today you must choose between….
Never reading your favorite book again
Burning the last three books that you read
This is a horrible question =P lol…Mainly because the last three books I read were all Jodi Picoult books. At the same time though it’s an easy decision because at least those three Jodi Picoult books were not my favourite of hers…Luckily!
So I have been going through a lot of personal stuff at the moment, the big thing is I don’t know if I am going to have a job in the next couple of weeks. Which as you can imagine is just incredibly stressful. It’s been making me really take a hard look at a few things. I’m not actually even supposed to know about this situation. See, I work as a casual so our contract is usually renewed every three-four months depending on the time of year and it’s been like this for the last couple of years. This time they have apparently decided not to renew any contracts. My manager has apparently been so shocked by this and she is trying to fight for us, so I have no idea what’s going on.
The thing that’s irritated me the most about this situation is no one has actually told us and considering the contract we’re on finishes in the next couple of week, not months, I am looking strongly for another job. One that is a lot more stable.
As you can imagine that has taken an impact on my whole life. It’s really made me think though I would love to do some kind of “at home” business, except then the questions happen “What do I actually decide to do”. I have so many people around me who are just SO creative and they are doing amazing things with their creations. I’m all over here and like … I don’t know what I do well … I love to dress up and I would love to Cosplay stuff … It’s kind of intimidating for me though, my brother is this amazing seamstress and makes incredible clothes.
Sorry all … I think that this is definitely more of a “rambling” type blog today. Do any of you, my amazing readers, have your own business that you run from home? What inspired you to start? What is your inspiration? I would really love to read what you have to offer.