You…

The last thing before I go to bed and to calm myself is you, your voice. Your beautiful singing voice…Yargh, why is it you that can calm me down before I go into something that scares me? I picked the wrong brother…Again =/ Why did I have to discover your beautiful songs before bed tonight?

Jim and Me

I am sitting here with my best friend in the whole wide world…Jim Beam…He’s a great guy, reliable, makes me happy, makes me feel relaxed and doesn’t judge me when I get up to do my drunken dance to some truly horrible music (well at the moment I am watching “The Mummy”…may not be the best movie when you are by yourself…in the dark).

Trying so hard to distract myself, maybe Jim isn’t being a very good friend too me, all I can think about is you again…Like my other post ““It’s like Radar” that one stupid text! I’m surprised with how well I am coping, but I wish he hadn’t sent it. I literally had been thinking that day how I hadn’t thought of him all day and then two hours later…

How do other people distract themselves during times like these? I have actually never had an ex reach out and apologise to me before. Luckily for me I have a lot of homework that needs to be done, so I have been distracting myself with that and now I am watching movies…and everyone should watch this live feed…Pete’s Pond…You’ll even see me on there most days making comments, sometimes I’ll have it on in the background while I do homework…Elephants, Lions and Ostriches…Oh my!

dog,alone

 

Tonight is the Night!

girls night out

Tonight is the Night!

Tonight is my first girls night out since my break up and I am ready for it! The break was what…Month and a half? Two weeks since we stopped being friends and I need a cute guy (or two) to get a bit flirty with, not dirty with…Just flirty. I might even have a glass of champagne first before I head out…Crazy! I’m a bit of “light weight” so I don’t drink when I go out and it’s not at a friends house…or mine own!lol

In all honesty I am really nervous about this night. You see, I had this really odd plan on staying with my ex for the rest of my life, definitely the rest of this year…at least. There is just something different about “A Girls Night out” that just feels automatically different from going out with a mixed sex group of people. There’s is honestly no one else I want to be on the planet with than my ex, but a girl has to move on and although I don’t expect to find the love of my night tonight. I do want to get a little flirty, not flirty dirty, just flirty =D…I’m not ready for dirty yet ~.^

Uploaded on 8 Oct 2009

Music video by Shania Twain performing Man! I Feel Like A Woman. (C) 2003 Mercury Records

 

I hope you dance <3

(I am getting bad at making sure that these get posted on time!) This week I am going with more of a music magical Monday.

I have recently had a bit of a health scare and I wont know for roughly under a year what the outcome of that is going too be. So for the next year I think my mood is going to be very interesting to witness. However this experience has given me a massive mortality wake up call. Like with mortality scares it tends to make your mind think a little more morbidly.

There is a small amount of people in my life who know what’s really going on and by small I do mean less than the number of fingers I have on one hand…As well as you guys now. One of the beautiful things about this wake up call is it’s made me appreciate the real friendships and the real loves that I am lucky enough to have in my life. Especially of those who don’t actually know what’s going on, but are still by my side.

It has made me really stopped trying to impress everyone (which honestly I was getting no where with fast anyway). I am actually eating better now, instead of just going whatever, not that I’m obese or anything, just eating more healthier.

As I mentioned though my mind has gotten a little morbid including thinking about Funerals. At the same time there was only one song that I could think of that I would want to be played (I know, pretty morbid). The song I want though is so beautiful and absolutely reflects a lot of who I am and I could absolutely imagine myself saying this to a friend and I WANT my friends and family to remember this part of who I am ❤ Now there are two versions of this song, my personal favourite is sang by Ronan Keating the other is sang by Lee Ann Womack…I hope you enjoy!

Uploaded on November 30 2009

Music video by Ronan Keating performing I Hope You Dance
2004 Polydor Ltd. (UK)

 

Music

So I have realised that I didn’t post anything last Friday! These last few weeks have been so crazy, I honestly didn’t even know…Must of been the week that I forgot to reply to so many people.

Finding a link that I found very interesting (Fact Number 5 WILL blow your mind!)

Please click this link and have your mind blown! Music Facts Slide

Music is something that has impacted my life in every single significant event and my every day life…Music can make me sad, happy, turn me on, heal wounds and help make those tears roll. I am not going to lie either though Pharrell Williams “Happy” I just have to be happy. Just like recently I cannot stop listening to “Let it Go” from Frozen, because I relate so much. If I feel under attack or no one cares/likes me, that’s the song I go to.

I believe that music is something that should be introduced to everyone as early as possible!

music

Since I love this song and you try and prove to me that when you listen to it you don’t want to be happy, no matter what mood you’re in…Also…You are welcome =D

Published on 24 Jan 2014

“Happy” single available now: http://smarturl.it/happypharrell

Music video by Pharrell Williams performing Happy (from Despicable Me 2). (C) 2013 Columbia Records, a Division of Sony Music Entertainment