I feel ill everyone

Oh my god, I am having that moment where I’m both horrified and want to throw up.

So, if you didn’t hear the latest the American Booksellers Associations apoligise for both promoting Candace Owens books and Abigail Shriers anti-trans books. That wasn’t the horrifying part, haha.

When I went to look for the American Booksellers Association, of course Candace Owens was complaining about it. Targeting the CEO of the ABA. However, was horrified me, was who has liked her page, or follows her.

I used to have a crush on the guy!

Funny thing is, he rejected me, because he thought I was being weird talking to him a lot.

I did talk to him a lot, so I wasn’t surprised. I wasn’t very good with my crushes, and it wasn’t like I was talking to him. I just couldn’t stop writing long answers to any of his questions, and then I had to find out through another friend how weird he thought I was.

But then a couple of years later, he said I should smile more often, I have a really pretty smile … anyway … it’s done.

You know, it’s funny, because although all my ex’s cheated on me, even though, they probably should have never dated me. At least I can now say, I made good choices with them. NONE of them like Trump, let alone Owens. Oh, when I went through what he follows and “liked” Donald Trump is up here … and he calls ME, weird? lol

On some weird (I guess) level, I can get people “liking” Trump, but not Owens, and not in Australia. She has contributed literally nothing to American society, let alone Australia.

What is interesting, ALL my crushes that rejected me, have turned out to be “odd” people and people I had no clue were so … odd, lol. However, my ex’s, who every single one of them cheated on me. Are not actually that horrible. The ones I’m friends with now. They all dislike Trump, and they are actually not the playboys they once were. They grew up =D So that made me feel a little better about my choices, lol.

Ariana Grande

You too?

Have you ever had a crush, celebrity or not. That you’ve never really told other people about? For one reason or another? At the time I had a crush on Eddie Izzard, I did not know what a trans sexual even was! I just knew that I had a crush, because he made me laugh.

Uploaded by: Eddie Izzard

 

Those “first” crushes

When I say “first crushes” I am not talking about your very first crush in your childhood, or later in life…I’m not here to judge!

I am talking about those first crushes after you’ve been through a horrible break up and you suddenly meet someone and you can feel all those butterflies and suddenly incredibly so insecure.

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You feel like you can’t talk again, you feel like you don’t know what you’re doing. You feel like you understand those “love songs” again. The songs that used to make you feel sad and depressed and missing your ex, suddenly  don’t matter anymore. You’re suddenly feeling happy again and sometimes you feel a little guilty, because surely you have to be miserable…Right? No Way! You just want to tell everyone!

Where you can’t sleep, not because you’re thinking sad thoughts, but because you’re too busy how you’re going to get them to notice…You start talking to your friends about the littlest details about them.

5 reasons…

So I have had one of my best friends break up with her partner recently (which I was glad about, he was the definition of douche!lol…But I have been very good and not bashing him though,lol). Now my best friend is absolutely not good at being single. Pretty much when she’s single the rest of us who are in relationships can’t really be lovely dovey type thing.

It made me start to think though, there are both benefits to being single and being in a relationships. I’ve always been on of those people who is completely fine being single, but once I’m in a relationship, I tend to end up falling hard and fast. So here are the five reasons I think being single are good, and being a relationship is good too.

Single:

  1. Freedom! Not answering to anyone…
  2. Save money…All the money all for you!
  3. Flirting…You can flirt all you want without feeling guilty, and have celebrity crushes!
  4. Not shaving…(Oh, I miss this one!) When you’re single, if you don’t want to shave…You don’t have to!
  5. Did I mention the freedom part? You can go out when you want, you can get dressed up or dress as a slob when you want…So much freedom!

Relationships:

  1. Cuddles!…And the other thing…You know what I mean~.^(unless of course your not into that until marriage!)
  2. Sometimes you can actually save a lot of money while dating, IF your partner and you are on the same path.
  3. Dating your best friend (Nawww)
  4. Dating your crush! (Oh la! la!)
  5. Lonely…This one is interesting, if you have a good partner, you’ll never feel alone…If you have a bad partner, you will ALWAYS feel alone!

 

Uploaded by: Hannah Witton

Published on 3 Dec 2014

Musical Bethan joins me to discuss what’s better: being in a relationship or being single? What do you think is better?
Watch the video on Bethan’s channel: http://youtu.be/xGhU-sJYHlM

Fantasy Men…mmm…~.^

One of the best things about being single again is being able to divulge in our little fantasies without feeling to bad or feeling like one is being disrespectful to their partner. If you press this link you can see the picture that is on my PC desktop as a wallpaper background, it makes me grin before bedtime. Thorin “Will You Join Me” Deviantart Artist:MoonFangs I would put the picture up, but there are VERY strict rules when it comes to this particular picture.

When ever I am going through a particularly rough break up or had a huge crush on someone and they choose someone else, I tend to focus on my fantasy men. Anything that I may have imagined with that particular boyfriend/ex/crush, there image is taken over by one of my “fantasy men”. I find it extremely helpful and I find it helps me move on. I don’t know why, I can’t explain of why thinking of someone I don’t know or some make believe character helps me to move on from a “real” person, but it does. Maybe it’s because I’m not thinking about them 24/7 instead… Or you know…I’m just crazy =P

 

 

Second Chance…A new romance?

What better magical feeling in the world than the possibility for a new romance…Another chance for love?

In case one could not guess…I have recently been bitten by the “new crush” bug (although calling it a “bug” sounds quite gross)… A completely lovely boy and one of those “I did not see this coming” moments…I truly did not! One of those I really hope he doesn’t see this post, because it will be really embarrassing (he would totally find this video lame,lol). I get shy around him, which is why he thought that I didn’t like him and we ended up in an argument…Of course =D

He thinks I’m intelligent! hehe

That terrifying freeing lovely scary…That scares your heart so much so you want to do nothing else but run…but you don’t…That moment you want to yel “Finally!” The magical moment where all of the happy songs make sense again.

BUT…They have to prove that they will be worth it, for all the future heartache that is going to definitely come…because heartache will come, it is inevitable.

Video uploaded on 19 Mar 2007
Say Ok performed by Vanessa Hudgens